Actual photo from my 40th birthday last year wherein I spent a beautiful dinner on a cruise ship - watching Alabama football lol.
Cheers to 41: The Roller Coaster Edition
As I hit the big 4-1 (yikes! 🤢), I've been doing a bit of reflecting on the wild ride that was this past year. It wasn't all smooth sailing to say the least—with the economy tapping the brakes on my business (slow economy = slow small businesses), my car drama, and the absolute heartbreak of losing Clara…. let's just say 2024 was a lot.
So much so that I ended up on Zoloft, which I'm mentioning not for sympathy, but to maybe encourage someone else who's hesitating to seek help. I pride myself on being a strong minded, independent, optimistic and a generally happy person. It took a lot to talk to my dr about struggling with motivation, concentration, the sluggishness, loss of appetite and overall feeling of gloom that washed over my life when Clara passed. Remember, it's okay to not be okay. I still feel some shame around not being able to control my mental state but I’m taking it one day at a time 💕
But hey, life wasn't just about the tough stuff. I learned how to surf! 🏄♂️ Yes, at 40, proving you're only as old as you feel... until you try to get out of bed the next day, that is. Felt like 25 getting on the board but felt like 75 getting out of bed two days later!
So why am I sharing this ramble? Maybe just to celebrate the small victories and remind myself (and maybe you too) of what we've all managed to overcome. If you've made it this far into my birthday reflection, thank you sincerely for sticking with me through this post and this year.
And for those asking what I want for my birthday—just help me keep the good vibes flowing! If you feel like treating me, I wouldn't say no to a birthday drink (or two 😉):
Artist Till Death
Actual photo from my 40th birthday last year wherein I spent a beautiful dinner on a cruise ship - watching Alabama football lol.
Cheers to 41: The Roller Coaster Edition
As I hit the big 4-1 (yikes! 🤢), I've been doing a bit of reflecting on the wild ride that was this past year. It wasn't all smooth sailing to say the least—with the economy tapping the brakes on my business (slow economy = slow small businesses), my car drama, and the absolute heartbreak of losing Clara…. let's just say 2024 was a lot.
So much so that I ended up on Zoloft, which I'm mentioning not for sympathy, but to maybe encourage someone else who's hesitating to seek help. I pride myself on being a strong minded, independent, optimistic and a generally happy person. It took a lot to talk to my dr about struggling with motivation, concentration, the sluggishness, loss of appetite and overall feeling of gloom that washed over my life when Clara passed. Remember, it's okay to not be okay. I still feel some shame around not being able to control my mental state but I’m taking it one day at a time 💕
But hey, life wasn't just about the tough stuff. I learned how to surf! 🏄♂️ Yes, at 40, proving you're only as old as you feel... until you try to get out of bed the next day, that is. Felt like 25 getting on the board but felt like 75 getting out of bed two days later!
So why am I sharing this ramble? Maybe just to celebrate the small victories and remind myself (and maybe you too) of what we've all managed to overcome. If you've made it this far into my birthday reflection, thank you sincerely for sticking with me through this post and this year.
And for those asking what I want for my birthday—just help me keep the good vibes flowing! If you feel like treating me, I wouldn't say no to a birthday drink (or two 😉):
- **PayPal:** thornton@ArtistTillDeath.com
- **Venmo:** @ArtistTillDeath
- **Cash App:** $ATDStudios
- **Zelle:** thornton@ArtistTillDeath.com
If you want to treat yourself while being sweet to me - just grab something from my shop! Artisttilldeath.com/shop
Here’s to another year of learning, living, arting and maybe a little more surfing
I love you all
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