hello animal lovers and everyone... i think i've reached my limits...
for many years i've been trying to create a family community that makes the world a better place, if life is a prison, i always thought we can decorate it with flowers as we make a small heaven, encourage eachother to master the things we're passionate and stay open to improve in everything, to be creative and productive, to be a successful human knowing how we train ourselves and pass whatever world we're born in.
i've stopped on discord, now im stopping on YouTube, i've been trying to ressolve the growth issue here, the confusing logic around and the channel overall, i've became completely lost and mentally destroyed, finally understanding, that whatever i do will never succeed. due to my love for being progressive, its impossible for me to create a new image, no matter how much i try which i have, to hide the past and create the wanted vibes, all this to create something great, positive, enjoyable and inspiring... with my current mindset, or probably with ambitions, its impossible to become a Youtuber and manage a community on my own.
my audiance likes choreography, stick figures with a "good" simple stories, additionally tutorials too! why does my ambition to make something "great and original", doesn't let me see the beauty of the community im in and the things i have right now
i just dont know how to stop being clinked with the past, being isolated for a very long time, to start anew or proffessionally save the audiance i have, im not that creative or fun as many content creators i've seen around, all i know is how to be awkward in communications and be cringy in contents.
i want to be and to do better, and things will take its time. but this isn't a goodbye letter, thank you for being here 💖
The Conflicted One
hello animal lovers and everyone... i think i've reached my limits...
for many years i've been trying to create a family community that makes the world a better place, if life is a prison, i always thought we can decorate it with flowers as we make a small heaven, encourage eachother to master the things we're passionate and stay open to improve in everything, to be creative and productive, to be a successful human knowing how we train ourselves and pass whatever world we're born in.
i've stopped on discord, now im stopping on YouTube, i've been trying to ressolve the growth issue here, the confusing logic around and the channel overall, i've became completely lost and mentally destroyed, finally understanding, that whatever i do will never succeed. due to my love for being progressive, its impossible for me to create a new image, no matter how much i try which i have, to hide the past and create the wanted vibes, all this to create something great, positive, enjoyable and inspiring... with my current mindset, or probably with ambitions, its impossible to become a Youtuber and manage a community on my own.
my audiance likes choreography, stick figures with a "good" simple stories, additionally tutorials too! why does my ambition to make something "great and original", doesn't let me see the beauty of the community im in and the things i have right now
i just dont know how to stop being clinked with the past, being isolated for a very long time, to start anew or proffessionally save the audiance i have, im not that creative or fun as many content creators i've seen around, all i know is how to be awkward in communications and be cringy in contents.
i want to be and to do better, and things will take its time.
but this isn't a goodbye letter, thank you for being here 💖
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