I know I've been missing in action since around March 17th or so.
I had obligations through 40 days of the Lenten season, followed by Holy week, the Triduum, and currently ..... The Octave of Divine Mercy.
I've had virtually no interest in doing YouTube videos, due to those obligations, as I was very, very, very busy.
YouTube wasn't even on my radar, other than a couple of posts here and there.
I thought my lack of interest of YouTube was merely obligations of Easter as a devout Catholic woman.
But I was wrong.
I truly have no interest in coming back to YouTube.
I have decided, and declared today, I really have zero desire in doing Profiling Codependent Behavior videos anymore
Since I began this YouTube journey, I've had my Channel all over the place, but concentrating predominantly on the codependent behavioral aspects of abusive and toxic relationships.
And after all of the education into human behavior, profiling, and paralinguistics analysis, I thought the channel would go in a more positive direction.
I truly thought that teaching the aspects of codependency would be so helpful to victim survivors of abuse.
It's turned out to be nothing but a problem for me.
My YouTube channel, (whether it was through algorithms or not), didn't attract victim survivors of abuse.
It attracted many a predator, and far too many very unstable, mentally unwell people.
Between angry borderlines, narcissists, psychopaths, and very very very very very very unwell calling themselves survivors, (who are beyond codependent), and most likely......have personality disorders compounded with mental illness comorbidities.
I did not start this channel to be attacked every day, week, month... relentlessly to no end.
I had to literally close my comments down just to have a sense of sanity, and freedom from volatile abusers, non stop attacks, and relentless deranged weirdos.
I did not create this channel to be dealing with problematic people who cannot respect the meaning of STOP.
I didn't create this channel for people who don't understand the meaning of "Leave me alone".
And I certainly did not create this Channel so that I would constantly have to issue state, federal or international Cease and Desist orders do YouTube strangers who couldn't take stop or leave me alone as an answer.
I became exhausted, having to do the legal aspects, paperwork, meetings, phone calls, follow ups....of stopping people from their inability to stop themselves.
I spent more time protecting myself, dealing with law enforcement, legal paperwork, judiciary, and the like... In order to stop perfect strangers from YouTube.
My channel was geared to help others.
Geared to do this for victim survivors of abuse.
So to have to do this for myself for almost 3 years, was never the direction for this channel, let alone my own beautiful life.
I have done so much work to restore my life from traumatized to triumphant. Broken to brilliant. Rags to riches. And fearful to faith-filled fierce, that I built an extraordinary life.
An extraordinary Life free of toxic people in my personal space.
Only that my extraordinary life now had become YouTube strangers infiltrating into all aspects of my life.
No more. I'm done. I need to get back to my extraordinary life.
In order to do that, I need to get away from YouTube strangers that are abusive, creepy, toxic, relentless, and mentally deranged.
I've been through enough of that in my own life w ex husbands and bio fam.
My YT channel was designed to support victims Teach victims. To help victims who are dealing with this type of toxic abuse. To advocate, support, strategize for victims through the judiciary and law enforcement process.
I was supposed to be able to help other people get help through those types of abusive relentless people.
My YouTube channel was never supposed to be about me needing to protect myself for 3 years non-stop from perfect YouTube strangers who couldn't take no stop or leave me alone for an answer.
Ive spent more time protecting myself, then helping others.
So right now, I am declaring that I'm not coming back to YouTube.
Whether this will change in the future, I don't know.
All I know is I have better things to do with my life, then to legally ward off insane people who can't take no for an answer every day.
I'd be more than glad to help anyone else through that process, but I am never allowing that in my own personal life.
So today I declare I will not be back on YouTube.
I will keep my services available, if there is any victim Survivor out there seeking healing, change, Justice, and victory.
In the meantime: I want to thank the few co-dependent victim survivors, who did benefit from the information, and education I provided.
I do want to thank the few people that I personally had the honor to work with.
What a privilege working with you,, and a sincere honor to watch you break the codependency, and become extraordinary, independent, stoic incredible people,...... Knowing you're all thriving in your lives as independent Badasses.
As for the insane clown posse that I've had to deal with for what seems the last three years of my life on youtube, .....
I want to thank you too.
I want to thank you for showing me that I deserve SO MUCH BETTER than you, and your insane clown posse behavior.
Because you showed me inside the mind of each and every one of you.
Thank you. I learned a lot. You each gave me personal access into your minds, where I learned even more about your tactics.
You each showed me how absolutely miserable, dark, empty, and unwilling to take any accountability for that darkness.
You eat showed me how much you shudder in fear, insecurities, and vulnerabilities when truth is shined upon you.
You all showed me that I can actually have pity for how that must feel for you to live in such emptiness and insecurity.
You showed me that I can forgive you for your emptiness, and lack within for yourself.
But don't confuse forgiveness with allowance, or the right to infringe on me, your dark insecurity and emptiness.
You all showed me that I can easily pray for your lost souls, & your repentance, just as much as I can pray for your victims beautiful hearts, safety and salvation.
Profiling Codependency - Not Just The Narcissist
Hi everyone.
I know I've been missing in action since around March 17th or so.
I had obligations through 40 days of the Lenten season, followed by Holy week, the Triduum, and currently .....
The Octave of Divine Mercy.
I've had virtually no interest in doing YouTube videos, due to those obligations, as I was very, very, very busy.
YouTube wasn't even on my radar, other than a couple of posts here and there.
I thought my lack of interest of YouTube was merely obligations of Easter as a devout Catholic woman.
But I was wrong.
I truly have no interest in coming back to YouTube.
I have decided, and declared today, I really have zero desire in doing Profiling Codependent Behavior videos anymore
Since I began this YouTube journey, I've had my Channel all over the place, but concentrating predominantly on the codependent behavioral aspects of abusive and toxic relationships.
And after all of the education into human behavior, profiling, and paralinguistics analysis, I thought the channel would go in a more positive direction.
I truly thought that teaching the aspects of codependency would be so helpful to victim survivors of abuse.
It's turned out to be nothing but a problem for me.
My YouTube channel, (whether it was through algorithms or not), didn't attract victim survivors of abuse.
It attracted many a predator, and
far too many very unstable, mentally unwell people.
Between angry borderlines, narcissists, psychopaths, and very very very very very very unwell calling themselves survivors, (who are beyond codependent), and most likely......have personality disorders compounded with mental illness comorbidities.
I did not start this channel to be attacked every day, week, month... relentlessly to no end.
I had to literally close my comments down just to have a sense of sanity, and freedom from volatile abusers, non stop attacks, and relentless deranged weirdos.
I did not create this channel to be dealing with problematic people who cannot respect the meaning of STOP.
I didn't create this channel for people who don't understand the meaning of "Leave me alone".
And I certainly did not create this Channel so that I would constantly have to issue state, federal or international Cease and Desist orders do YouTube strangers who couldn't take stop or leave me alone as an answer.
I became exhausted, having to do the legal aspects, paperwork, meetings, phone calls, follow ups....of stopping people from their inability to stop themselves.
I spent more time protecting myself, dealing with law enforcement, legal paperwork, judiciary, and the like... In order to stop perfect strangers from YouTube.
My channel was geared to help others.
Geared to do this for victim survivors of abuse.
So to have to do this for myself for almost 3 years, was never the direction for this channel, let alone my own beautiful life.
I have done so much work to restore my life from traumatized to triumphant. Broken to brilliant. Rags to riches. And fearful to faith-filled fierce, that I built an extraordinary life.
An extraordinary Life free of toxic people in my personal space.
Only that my extraordinary life now had become YouTube strangers infiltrating into all aspects of my life.
No more. I'm done. I need to get back to my extraordinary life.
In order to do that, I need to get away from YouTube strangers that are abusive, creepy, toxic, relentless, and mentally deranged.
I've been through enough of that in my own life w ex husbands and bio fam.
My YT channel was designed to support victims
Teach victims.
To help victims who are dealing with this type of toxic abuse.
To advocate, support, strategize for victims through the judiciary and law enforcement process.
I was supposed to be able to help other people get help through those types of abusive relentless people.
My YouTube channel was never supposed to be about me needing to protect myself for 3 years non-stop from perfect YouTube strangers who couldn't take no stop or leave me alone for an answer.
Ive spent more time protecting myself, then helping others.
So right now, I am declaring that I'm not coming back to YouTube.
Whether this will change in the future, I don't know.
All I know is I have better things to do with my life, then to legally ward off insane people who can't take no for an answer every day.
I'd be more than glad to help anyone else through that process, but I am never allowing that in my own personal life.
So today I declare I will not be back on YouTube.
I will keep my services available, if there is any victim Survivor out there seeking healing, change, Justice, and victory.
In the meantime:
I want to thank the few co-dependent victim survivors, who did benefit from the information, and education I provided.
I do want to thank the few people that I personally had the honor to work with.
What a privilege working with you,, and a sincere honor to watch you break the codependency, and become extraordinary, independent, stoic incredible people,......
Knowing you're all thriving in your lives as independent Badasses.
As for the insane clown posse that I've had to deal with for what seems the last three years of my life on youtube, .....
I want to thank you too.
I want to thank you for showing me that I deserve SO MUCH BETTER than you, and your insane clown posse behavior.
Because you showed me inside the mind of each and every one of you.
Thank you.
I learned a lot.
You each gave me personal access into your minds, where I learned even more about your tactics.
You each showed me how absolutely miserable, dark, empty, and unwilling to take any accountability for that darkness.
You eat showed me how much you shudder in fear, insecurities, and vulnerabilities when truth is shined upon you.
You all showed me that I can actually have pity for how that must feel for you to live in such emptiness and insecurity.
You showed me that I can forgive you for your emptiness, and lack within for yourself.
But don't confuse forgiveness with allowance, or the right to infringe on me, your dark insecurity and emptiness.
You all showed me that I can easily pray for your lost souls, & your repentance, just as much as I can pray for your victims beautiful hearts, safety and salvation.
Take care of everyone.
I wish you well.
JoJo
April 23 2025
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