Hey everyone… I don’t usually talk about my personal life, but I want to be honest with the people who support me every day.
Lately, I’ve been going through a lot mentally — anxiety, stress, and constant pressure at home. It’s been affecting my mood, my confidence, and sometimes even my ability to create edits. Even though I try to stay strong, some days just hit harder.
I also have an elder brother whose behaviour towards me is… really difficult to deal with. Not physical things, but things like:
He misunderstands me easily, no matter how calmly I try to explain.
He treats my words as arguments, even when I just want to talk.
He tells relatives only the negative side of me, so they think I’m the problem.
He never tries to understand my feelings, but expects me to understand his.
Whenever I try to express myself, he shuts me down or blames me.
I’m not saying this to create drama or hate. I’m saying this because sometimes the people we love the most hurt us without even realizing it.
I’m still fighting my anxiety. I’m still trying to understand myself. And I’m still trying to grow — both as a person and as a creator.
But even on the worst days… YOU guys — your comments, your support, your love — keep me going.
I just want to say thank you for being here. Thank you for watching my edits. Thank you for giving me a place where I actually feel heard.
I promise I’ll keep improving, keep creating, and keep growing. Just… stay with me. 💙
SHADY VERSE
Hey everyone…
I don’t usually talk about my personal life, but I want to be honest with the people who support me every day.
Lately, I’ve been going through a lot mentally — anxiety, stress, and constant pressure at home. It’s been affecting my mood, my confidence, and sometimes even my ability to create edits. Even though I try to stay strong, some days just hit harder.
I also have an elder brother whose behaviour towards me is… really difficult to deal with.
Not physical things, but things like:
He misunderstands me easily, no matter how calmly I try to explain.
He treats my words as arguments, even when I just want to talk.
He tells relatives only the negative side of me, so they think I’m the problem.
He never tries to understand my feelings, but expects me to understand his.
Whenever I try to express myself, he shuts me down or blames me.
I’m not saying this to create drama or hate.
I’m saying this because sometimes the people we love the most hurt us without even realizing it.
I’m still fighting my anxiety.
I’m still trying to understand myself.
And I’m still trying to grow — both as a person and as a creator.
But even on the worst days…
YOU guys — your comments, your support, your love — keep me going.
I just want to say thank you for being here.
Thank you for watching my edits.
Thank you for giving me a place where I actually feel heard.
I promise I’ll keep improving, keep creating, and keep growing.
Just… stay with me. 💙
— Shady
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