Holly Honjo

Trigger Warning: Miscarriage/D&C
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My husband and I have been trying to have a 3rd baby for over a year now. Last May I miscarried very early, and last week I miscarried again at 9 weeks. I had a D&C procedure on Friday to remove any tissue left in my uterus.

Both times I found out that I was pregnant I was filled with joy and excitement, and when I miscarried I expected to feel sad and depressed, but those feelings never came.

This is a sensitive subject to talk about, not because I’m sad, but because I’m not. There is an expectation of grief when you have a miscarriage. I am supposed to feel sad. I find myself feeling guilty for accepting condolences for my loss. I’m not putting on a brave face or being strong. I’m OK and I feel bad for not feeling worse. It doesn’t seem right to feel fine, when so many people don’t, but it is OK to be OK and it’s definitely OK to NOT be OK. All feelings are valid.

There is no right or wrong way to experience miscarriage. Around 10-20% of known pregnancies end in miscarriage. I think this helped me to process my miscarriages, but I recognise that there’s a myriad of reasons why miscarriage affects others more profoundly (multiple miscarriages, infertility etc.). I just wanted to let you know that however you deal with it is OK and you are not alone. Sending love to everyone one who has gone through it.

3 years ago | [YT] | 295



@rebeccamaxwell1653

Glad to hear your feeling OK, your truly inspiring I was 172lbs, I started doing your videos just after Christmas and I'm down to 152lbs

3 years ago | 7  

@stephaniepeer3787

You’re right, Holly. All feelings are valid and there is no right or wrong way to deal with loss. Glad you’re ok and hope you continue to be so. 💜

3 years ago | 8  

@beckiezra

Sorry for your loss, my cousins have struggled with infertility for years, speaking up about it rather than people being left feeling like it’s a dirty secret they can’t share is so important.

3 years ago | 2  

@sarahlouise1983

Your optimism and strength to get through this current hurdle in your life are nothing short of amazing girl ♥️♥️ , Keep smiling that beautiful smile Holly , xo

3 years ago (edited) | 2  

@jessicasanders9885

All miscarriage experiences are different. I have had three and my feelings were different after each one. Whatever you feel is okay. The important thing is that if you feel like you're struggling and need help, that you reach out for help. Help is there for those that need it. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

3 years ago | 1  

@SucculentBabies

I had some myself Holly I always know in my heart how i feel about it noone else can feel the same ,I am here for you as a member of your channel and I have followed for along time and I Know in my heart That you are amzing to come on here on this platform and talk and give us the information and that each one of us will feel different then the other but I feel you have taken yourself to help us in manys ways to believe in yourself who you are and what your needs are and how you feel about life,And as a friend I want to say I am sorry for your loss and That I love your heart and courage .hugs.

3 years ago | 1  

@malamaurer4043

Everything is going to be okay ❤️ listening to you now 🌹

3 years ago (edited) | 1  

@peggystoltie7719

Holly, your just such a amazing and strong person. I had six before my son, now 30, then three more. The before were harder of course because we had no children yet, the afters were hard too, yet the last one I was like you disappointed, but ok. Still sorry for your loss, have a cyber hug and know you are a beautiful gift to this world.

3 years ago | 0  

@shellycane5302

God bless ya little woman 😇

3 years ago | 0  

@aliciacasias5382

you really are an awesome inspirational person i'm just glad you're ok and feeling better see you when you feel better no rush 😍

3 years ago | 0  

@happyheidi747

Hugs and healing 🤗

3 years ago | 0  

@KingAdamPaul2025

Virtual HUG Holly. The Lord works in mysterious ways. ❤🙏

3 years ago | 0  

@maryamjadoon1616

When you already have kids... Then miscarriages does not effect that much. You may feel OK But when you don't..at that time your feelings are worse I have experienced both

3 years ago | 1

@kazbaz8645

I was ok years ago after two. Then the third one i was a bit more upset and fed up. Also i had to have two d and cs for the last one and antibiotics via drip ... though nhs hadnt a spare drip so they came along to inject me instead. Then we had a live baby who died at six weeks due to kidneys not developing properly. Now that was more than upsetting and life changing. Each pregnancy is different so good luck for the future

3 years ago | 1