bro I feel you. I love to make music and I think one of the big reasons I wanted to do music is because of lag train (and of course your deep analysis on lag train) left such a deep impression on me. I get where you're coming from at first, I tried my best and gave it my all and I think my first song is quite okay and after I wanted to work on my second song a mental blocked just settled in. at first, I had no real excuses and when I did try to work on that second song, I just felt so bad. it never really sounded right, and it was never up to my standards and mean whilst I heard at work all these great producers and it made me feel even worse and so I never really tried to make music. which is just a downward spiral, I only could get better if I tried to make music, if I master the craft just little by little. in the end all those songwriters and producers also needed to master the skill. but even if I tried to understand the music theory, the basic and all that I just couldn't wrap my head around it. and so, I let my second song to rot on my storage space right along with Fl studio. after a while after I became unemployed i gradually improved my bad habits and I came after another one of those videos: 10 mistakes rookies make... and number one having a high standard. and honestly it just clicked probably just because I was in a better healthier mindset and I just said fuck it and now, I'm doing my second song, and I don't feel like I suck that much anymore I mean there is still that overwhelming gigantic skill gap between me and many producers but yeah it still disheartening but yeah. So, I'm just trying to make music and the results won't really matter to me. In the end I like the process and of course a good result is nice but right now what's way more important than a good result is a result I think in the end I only found lag train because of you for which I'm thankful and I can really sympathies with you and your problem and I hope I could give you back even if a little bit for what you’ve done for me
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guys i’m predicting a comeback soon…. i don’t know maybe i’m psychic…. i have a feeling……..
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Melty Solid
Happy Kagerou Project Day everyone!! (channel update below)
I'm so sorry for the radio silence on my end for the last year or so. Things have just been pretty crazy for me for a little while, and at some point this channel and my creative spark got lost in the shuffle as my life began changing really quickly. I've been doing alright, but it's been a process, I guess. That's just growing up for you though.
Anyway, I've teased and promised a lot of videos and projects during my accidental hiatus over the last year, with one of the most notable being a video about the Kagerou Project that I wanted to release on August 15th of last year. Unfortunately, it never ended up panning out completely, even to this day. I had gotten about 75% of the script completed or so, but eventually became unhappy with the format I had chosen. I've worked on retooling it into a handful different scripts on and off for the last year, but I've just never been able to finish them. The same goes for a lot of other scripts I started about other topics. I'd still love to talk about the Kagerou Project in a video someday, but I'm not sure if or when that might happen.
I've struggled with burnout and have put a lot of pressure on myself for my work be "perfect," but of course standards that high for myself are completely unreasonable and it has led me to hitting a wall creatively for the last year. I'm not sure when I'll be back to making videos or what they'll look like in all honestly, but I haven't given up on Melty Solid.
I'd also like to thank all of you for supporting me, even with my absence for the last year. Even without uploading in so long, this channel has passed 4K subscribers and still consistently receives a bunch of really nice comments to this day. I appreciate you all so much and I'm grateful everyday for the kindness and and support I've been shown for so long online.
I can't promise anything as far as content goes in the near future, but whatever happens happens, I suppose. I'll keep trying, and I'm hope someday I'll have something fun to share with you all. Until then, thanks again for everything so far. I'm looking forward to the future, even if I'm not quite sure what it will end up looking like.
Thank you if you read all of this. Take care, and I hope you have a wonderful day!
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