Don't be too hard on yourself. I'm 20. Things are slow moving, and I'm no where near who I thought I'd be. I had it all figured out at 16.savings, a job, Progress isn't forward moving. And you're going to continue to change in all the ways you aren't thinking of. Do this when it feels right. Force it, and you'll be burnt out for longer. Congratulations on 4.5 k subscribers. You're doing great 👍
1 year ago
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nisha☁︎⋆｡ #westandwithgaza
Despite the pic, I’m as much as conflicted as this whole world. I don’t deserve my new subscribers who subscribed me even though i stopped creating contents, ily. I kept coming, venting, promising to re start and then disappear. and despite all these months passed without touching the “upload video” button, this was the only safe place of mine. But sometimes you can’t have the energy to do it. Something. Anything. Forgive me for my empty promises and those who asked for a playlist and couldn’t get any answers or even the playlists. For the person who asked me for a playlist a long time ago. I feel the guilt from the bottom of my heart and didn’t forget about you. You’re in my to do list. I promise I didn’t. But when you don’t feel something, you can’t act or do anything related to that something. I’m doing my best to put everything in place. Trying to fix it. I don’t even think somebody would read it. But if you’re still reading it and you know me(maybe you don’t, it’s okay) thank you.
A lot has changed in a year. A lot. Can’t explain. Sometimes you feel like you can’t breath but it’s okay. Time makes you realize. Maybe maturing. I’m 16 now. I was 13? When i started a youtube channel. My first video was roblox stuff? Or editing some harry potter:)
It’s okay. I was a kid. I’m proud of myself for not givin up. I’ll make sure to come back so soon. And when i do it, I’ll be worthy of that 4k subscribers. Ily all. I really do. My safe place.
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