In my young life I was subject to a cult, there was no end of punishment for, speaking, playing with other children, even dressing wrong, spare the rod and spoil the child. My mum, didn't spare anything, she became a master torturer, jug cords, riding crops, rope, fence pickets, she had a toolkit. Not to mention the mental f*ckery. So I was a staunch atheist for most of my life. As I grew, it got worse, one day I was able to stop her from hurting me. Physically I restrained her arms and she absolutely lost it, she ran up and down the hill we lived on training our dogs for showing at the kennel club. She was 9 months pregnant. My sis got the cord around her neck and it choked the unborn baby. I effectively killed my little sis and my mum never recovered from losing her only daughter. It killed her too. The damage I did is yet untold. Not to mention letting the demon I created to survive, run amok hurting everyone I love. + the mundane pains of meatbag world. During meditation I was snatched up by,, a light, 🌞 I thought it was inspecting me, and it sucked out 40 years of emotions in about 4 secs. I was fried, laughing, crying, angry, joyous, everything at once. I didn't know my physical meatbag was also experiencing my meditation. The 🌞 which is not blinding and the warmth of the love of a bajillion grandmothers "felt" emotions to me, these words are my own, you're not ready yet, get outside and play, smiles, ya doin' great! " boom I got kicked out of meditation, crying, laughing, everything all at once, I thought WTF was that, OMG, " yes exactly", this is a shocking revelation for an atheist and a demon, and it was not inspecting anything, it showed me me, what I was on arrival and what I had become and ALL the great little things I've done, and so I had to face myself, heart vs mind , spirit vs belief systems. Just like Clark fights dark Superman in the junkyard. The last demon you have to face, is you. You win by forgiving yourself and everyone else that you perceived to be "evil", because without the horrible stuff and the darkness I wouldn't have been able to recognize the difference. No mud, no lotus 🪷. Everything seemed like the most terrible thing! it was not the end of the story, I was never in the wrong place at the wrong time, I only made meatbag decisions and I didn't know how to think with the heart. The heart can't talk, you feel it. Right in the feels. It doesn't make bad decisions, the meatbag brain does and tells you it's logic. There's no way to make anything logic because we see one day at a time. It's always now. The past is a collection of them. The future nows we remember later. My fam is with God/Source/ any multitude of meatbag mouth noises for it🌞 and frankly, I could be a little bit jealous since I got outta game knowledge. EXACTLY when I needed it and not before. So its best not to place judgement on folks, God has it sorted before you even arrived. This? is why you can love everyone and everything, there's no amount of things you can't love. You just have to see the character arc. The hero's journey, all the characters here are going home too. They're integral to the creation even if you think they're not. Meditate, you can hear the Angels on the God phone in you, if you listen quietly. Just like a "real" phone.
💚 Love conquers all. Peace starts within.
Brent. Feel free to share my experience with anyone struggling, I think it helps in my small way. A little bit of hopium for everyone who would need some. It's free 😊
Brent Struber🇦🇺
In my young life I was subject to a cult, there was no end of punishment for, speaking, playing with other children, even dressing wrong, spare the rod and spoil the child. My mum, didn't spare anything, she became a master torturer, jug cords, riding crops, rope, fence pickets, she had a toolkit. Not to mention the mental f*ckery. So I was a staunch atheist for most of my life. As I grew, it got worse, one day I was able to stop her from hurting me. Physically I restrained her arms and she absolutely lost it, she ran up and down the hill we lived on training our dogs for showing at the kennel club.
She was 9 months pregnant. My sis got the cord around her neck and it choked the unborn baby.
I effectively killed my little sis and my mum never recovered from losing her only daughter. It killed her too. The damage I did is yet untold. Not to mention letting the demon I created to survive, run amok hurting everyone I love.
+ the mundane pains of meatbag world.
During meditation I was snatched up by,, a light, 🌞 I thought it was inspecting me, and it sucked out 40 years of emotions in about 4 secs. I was fried, laughing, crying, angry, joyous, everything at once. I didn't know my physical meatbag was also experiencing my meditation. The 🌞 which is not blinding and the warmth of the love of a bajillion grandmothers "felt" emotions to me, these words are my own, you're not ready yet, get outside and play, smiles, ya doin' great! "
boom I got kicked out of meditation, crying, laughing, everything all at once, I thought WTF was that, OMG,
" yes exactly",
this is a shocking revelation for an atheist and a demon, and it was not inspecting anything, it showed me me, what I was on arrival and what I had become and ALL the great little things I've done, and so I had to face myself, heart vs mind , spirit vs belief systems. Just like Clark fights dark Superman in the junkyard. The last demon you have to face, is you. You win by forgiving yourself and everyone else that you perceived to be "evil", because without the horrible stuff and the darkness I wouldn't have been able to recognize the difference.
No mud, no lotus 🪷.
Everything seemed like the most terrible thing! it was not the end of the story, I was never in the wrong place at the wrong time, I only made meatbag decisions and I didn't know how to think with the heart. The heart can't talk, you feel it. Right in the feels. It doesn't make bad decisions, the meatbag brain does and tells you it's logic. There's no way to make anything logic because we see one day at a time. It's always now. The past is a collection of them. The future nows we remember later.
My fam is with God/Source/ any multitude of meatbag mouth noises for it🌞 and frankly, I could be a little bit jealous since I got outta game knowledge. EXACTLY when I needed it and not before.
So its best not to place judgement on folks, God has it sorted before you even arrived. This? is why you can love everyone and everything, there's no amount of things you can't love. You just have to see the character arc. The hero's journey, all the characters here are going home too. They're integral to the creation even if you think they're not.
Meditate, you can hear the Angels on the God phone in you, if you listen quietly. Just like a "real" phone.
💚 Love conquers all.
Peace starts within.
Brent.
Feel free to share my experience with anyone struggling, I think it helps in my small way. A little bit of hopium for everyone who would need some. It's free 😊
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