Emotional and mental abuse (from a parent) started when I was a child then morphed into control and manipulation into adolescence and adulthood and then it affected my marriage and being a parent myself. Also having our oldest child move out of our home and cut off myself and his dad.
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Going thru narcissistic abuse for the past 7 years.. facing homelessness yet again. Ugh. 😩
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Experiencing domestic abuse and abuse in the church, growing up without a father, and having a mother who is still young, recently had a rare, near-fatal medical event. 😢
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Wow where do I start? 1: Not so much a bad thing;practically being raised by my grandparents until the age of 6. When my mom decided to take responsibility and it was time for me to live with her. Didn’t know then but because i remember how I felt and what I was going through on the inside helped me to recognize and understand the behavior of one of my boys when he started pre-k. Separation anxiety. 2: Learning to Create a safe space. Being the oldest & 2 younger sisters. Mom always made sure we had a roof over our head. We had many different babysitters!! I thank God that at an early age I was very observant, aware. I often felt I had to be their protector. As I got a little older I had become the babysitter more often than I wanted to be. If mom wasn’t working she was going out. ALWAYS had good home cooked meals, food in the house. Always had clean clothes on our back. A clean house :) We NEVER Opened the door to our home if we were alone DAY or NIGHT!!! We moved A LOT. Went to many different schools. Lived with other people in their home. It was either family, mom’s friends. No matter where we were i always had my eyes on my sisters! I remember feeling like I was such a big helper. I helped iron mom’s clothes she wore to go out in!! I felt like I was the boss!! I pretended to play house while she was gone. I cleaned the house, started experimenting with makeup and wearing it way too early!! Before I knew it we were living on the side of the bar my mom worked at. Before it would open I would help her clean the bar. It was fun! I mean the BAR was a mobile home. The only difference was the living room. It had a dance floor, a real bar like a bar room, DJ area. The kitchen area was nice. They cooked and served food. I pretended to work at a bar or restaurant!! I even pretended to work in a hotel!! I enjoyed cleaning and helping my mom and having fun pretending. Yes all of this helped me to adapt to change easily at an early age. Some had positive impact but the negative that I later had to learn was this. The safe space i created protected me from knowing and realizing the type of environment we were actually in!! Trust me I had many questions and often knew when something was not right. The answers I would get just didn’t line up with what my eyes could see. So I just let them believe that they were telling me the truth. 3:Being Bullied or witnessing someone being bullied. 4:The words from my mom”When you get older you will understand” 5:Domestic Violence. My mom was murdered when I was 13. 6:Becoming a mom at 17. 7: Mental, physical, emotional, verbal abuse Awareness 8:Addictions The list goes on. Thank God that through everything I can now say I’m understanding the why’s of the past. I know that I need and want God everyday to be with me and my family. He is our Miracle, the way maker. He is our Lord and Savior! Amen
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Neglect, abuse and rejection in childhood, death of parents at a very young age, involuntary and voluntary no contact from family of origin, 30 years of covert narcissist abuse in marriage, being the only invested present parent for 5 children, health struggles, deep betrayal in many church settings, job loss and isolation, surgery, trying to reinvent myself, staying relevant and being able to reconnect with my innate musical ability and step back into my purpose here in midlife. All this whilst trying to navigate if I should leave my.marriage which seems to be in limbo, but not in a financial place to do so. Pouring my summarized story out in a youtube comment feels so desperate and cringe..but if it helps anyone who may be suffering the same.issues...so be it. Bless
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I feel like too much of a mess and too triggered by my past pains to being open to God using my testimony.
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Childhood abuse, domestic violence, and abortion recovery and healing. ❤️
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Tragedy of sudden loss of several loved ones, abusive relationships and anxiety and depression
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Proverbs 31 Ministries with Lysa TerKeurst
"You've been through so much... now let God use it."
What's something you've been through that you're praying God will use in an impactful way?
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