ji_mothy

My dad never fully understood what I do.
I told him--he just never wanted to understand or enjoy computers much, and used them begrudgingly as a tool rather than a source of joy.

Video games weren't completely unknown to him, but it's been a while since he raced cars on Gran Turismo 2 with me and my sister. Deep games full of stories, lore, and art weren't a thing he knew much about, though I have a feeling he might have enjoyed some of the more "literary" horror games, like Silent Hill or Amnesia, if he was more in the habit.

In fact, I have him to thank for my love of the horror genre. My parents were so careful about ESRB/MPAA ratings--I had to beg to play The Sims cause of its T rating thanks to the heart bed--but my dad bent that rule specially for horror movies. He watched Jurassic Park and Jaws with me repeatedly as a toddler, then Poltergeist, The Thing, and Blair Witch once a little older.

X-files and Twilight Zone were common in the house too, giving me a taste for paranormal content.
Pokémon was a little too Out There for him though, and the idea that anyone would be entertained _watching someone else talk about video games on the Internet_ never really clicked.

My dad passed away this month after a years-long battle with cancer, but only this summer did it really start slowing him down or hurting. He supported me in spirit, even if my jobs (youtube or elsewise, in tech) never made sense to him.
But he made me the smart and funny person that I am--he'd kill me for starting sentences with conjunctions--and there's a piece of him in everything I write. Perhaps a little moreso, now.

Miss you, Pop.

P.S. Video production obviously slowed to a stop this last month, but we've now had some time to process, so channel activities should pick up in October. -Mothy

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@ianm4n

Sorry for your loss mothy. Speaking from my own experience I know your old man would be proud of you regardless if he truly ”got” you or the things you liked!

3 weeks ago | 13  

@Player-10

Bless you. That's hard. Good fathers, even if they don't understand everything about your world, are a priceless treasure. All that really matters is your relationship, that he cared, and that he knew you were happy doing those things.

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@thodkats

My condolences brother. I lost my father to cancer when I was 12, which was 25 years ago. I understand how you feel. All the best to you and your family. We have a saying in my native language, which roughly translates to : I wish you many years of life ahead of you, so you will remember/not forget him.

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@Ryxbar

I went through this a few years ago (actually yesterday was my dad's birthday) and it takes time to be okay. Don't be afraid to take all the time you need, income allowing, and come back when you're good and ready. Much love, brother.

3 weeks ago | 3  

@RobertMatoRec

All the best to you, dude. I'm sorry for your loss. That was a very nice writeup honoring your dad. Take care of yourself and your loved ones, as that's the priority.

3 weeks ago | 3  

@Shawnzy1

Sorry for your loss, I lost my dad last year. It’s def hard, my best advice is to take a little time for yourself, grieve it, and go to therapy if needed

3 weeks ago | 1  

@deejmeht2338

Im so sorry for your loss. Your dad will continue to support you 100%! Big love

3 weeks ago | 0

@XxbelligerentxX

We love you mothy. Your videos have been some of my favorite pieces of media in the past year or so. I never knew my father. It’s always nice to hear someone like you share your relationship of yours. At least he’s no longer in any pain and left a big fingers print in the form of you as the person you are. Keep your head up and always remember you have a large numbered crew here by your side mothy!!

3 weeks ago | 1

@mmtherapy2517

I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m glad you’ve had the chance to carve some time out for yourself to process.

3 weeks ago | 1  

@SonOfKilgor

My condolences. As someone who lost their dad at 15 there’s so much my dad didn’t get to see. But despite his early departure he still made one hell of a mark on me, and I truly have him to thank for so many things in my life. All you can really do now is try and remember him through the marks and scars he imparted into you and your sister. It’s through them that he keeps living on.

3 weeks ago | 1  

@moonlightwarrior96

From one grieving son to another, my heart goes out to you.

3 weeks ago | 2  

@gornark

Big condolences dude, I don't have any words except that he obviously was a good dude and that the world is lesser without him but also greater due to what he made and left behind.

3 weeks ago | 0

@mike_gevers

Sorry for your loss man. Please take all the time you need to process it

2 weeks ago | 0

@thedarkflameknight7942

Your dad sounded like a wonderful person. I'm sorry for your loss. Keep him close in your heart and he will never be far from you.

2 weeks ago | 0

@TeoFirenze

Really sorry for your loss man, take the time <3 love to you and your family

3 weeks ago | 0  

@brandoncobbins7624

Sorry for your loss my friend. All the best and take your time. It looks like you’ve fostered a very supportive and understanding community here that’ll be around when you’re ready

3 weeks ago | 0  

@josh8901

Sorry for your loss. I can‘t Imagine how hard it must have been this summer to see your Pops go. Tho I‘m sure that he will keep supporting you whatever you do from the other side^^

3 weeks ago | 0  

@fluffycuteish

So sorry for your loss 😔 sending good vibes your way

3 weeks ago | 0  

@joeljuoni4589

I'm so sorry for your loss Mothy. You do what you gotta do and we'll be here for ya still. You got this brother ❤️

3 weeks ago | 0  

@alexsanbr

Sorry for your loss, man. Years ago, during pandemy, I lost my uncle to stomach cancer, it was devastating since he was the only "father" I had when I was growing up. In Portuguese, we have a word for the feeling of missing someone, somewhere or something: Saudades. Someday, somehow, the pain will slowly decrease until it becomes "saudades". He will live through the memories you built with him and through his legacy and the people that miss him. Hope you feel better soon. Thanks for sharing and for your awesome content, I know he is proud of you, dude!

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