It's probably been a while since you've heard from me, and you may have been wondering what happened.
I write to you now nearing the completion of a Dark Night of the Soul that came in like a tornado, blowing up a life I knew well, but resented inside.
Last November, I suffered a sudden deterioration of my physical health. I am a private person when it comes to certain matters and will not share any more details, but the extreme physical health challenge led me very suddenly on a deep journey of healing and rediscovering myself.
For years, I had worked an absolutely insane amount of hours. I was hyperfixated on becoming successful in my career as a Spiritual Teacher, and on making a positive impact on as many people as I could. I largely ignored taking care of my body--and myself in general. I put my joy and true desires aside and became a workaholic. I wasn't happy inside, but I rationalized it by telling myself that I was here to serve a mission and help as many people as I could, and that was more important than my own happiness and well-being. Thank God that that in fact isn't true.
Inside, I desperately wanted to take a break. I had been wanting to take a break for years, ever since my father's passing in 2022. People close to me warned me that I needed to find work-life balance. But my mind was stubborn, and I didn't know how to speak up for myself and say no to clients and platforms that I was featured on.
So, the Universe (really, my soul) forced me to take a break. That's kind of how life goes.
During the past eight months, I've delved into some of my deepest remaining karma. I can't tell you that I'm through all of it, but I have released a significant amount of density through this Dark Night.
I've gotten so much better at listening to myself, honoring myself, and nourishing myself. I have gotten used to what it feels like to put myself first, and what it feels like to say "no". I am learning to appreciate myself just as a regular person, without my role in the world.
That being said, I do have a very special and important role in the world. I have known that ever since I can remember.
While I was going through the toughest, darkest, and scariest times this past winter, I knew that everything I was going through was for a very important purpose. I knew that I would be very different on the other side of this.
And I knew that my public name would change. I knew that I was being molded into the next version of my role as a sacred teacher--Guru Matthew John.
You see, I was a guru in India in a past life. When I befriended a wonderful Indian guru named His Holiness Vasanth Vijayji Maharaj last year (you can see my interview with him here), it activated something very deep within me. Although I am a guru of the West, and not of the yogic lineages, I realize now that my meeting with His Holiness was in a way a meeting with an archetype of myself, both from a past life, and from the future in this life.
But I needed to go through an intense Dark Night of the Soul as an initiation.
When I was a guru in a past life, I let the intoxicating allure of power get to me, as has been the downfall of many gurus in the modern day. Part of stepping into being the guru in this life is making right on where I went wrong in that life, and bringing this archetype to completion in my journey as a soul.
I completely understand that I am going out on a limb here as I express myself in a way that aligns with the truth of the new self that I am stepping into. Guru is a powerful term, and I believe I am the first guru from the West to use the word guru in his name (if I am wrong, please correct me on this). I also understand that some newcomers to me could assume that I am a guru of the yogic lineages--but I am hoping my Western name will diffuse most cases of that type of confusion.
I am fully prepared for bridges to be burned, if certain people or platforms aren't accepting of my new public name. I no longer care who invites me on their show and who doesn't. It has actually been so liberating to not be on any shows or podcasts the past eight months, and just be with myself.
I understand that the term guru has a generally negative connotation in the West, unlike in India. In the West, most people think of scammers and abusers when they hear the word guru. Part of my mission as being a guru from the West is to bring Light to the term in the West. Guru means teacher in Sanskrit. More in-depth, it quite literally means one who brings Light where there is darkness. Guru describes me (and my role) perfectly.
You don't have to call me Guru. You can if you want to. I will not treat anyone differently based on what they call me. You can call me Matthew, Matthew John, Guru Matthew John, Guru, or even "dude". It doesn't matter.
I was worried that once I adopted this name, it would get to my ego. But so far, it has been quite the opposite. As I have honored my truest self without fear, by coming out with my new public name, I have felt my ego become less prominent than ever before. You'll see me and hear me again in videos and podcasts soon enough, when the time is right. And you'll see the same goofy, loving, light-hearted guy you are used to--just an upgraded version of him. The wisdom I carry now is so much deeper and more complete than what I carried prior to this transformation.
This represents a very exciting blank slate in my role. I am excited to see how I will fill this newly blank canvas. I'm no longer going to be Matthew John "the Starseed guy". That was a niche that was financially lucrative and brought me fame, but it's not me anymore. I've evolved past that. I am still going to discuss Starseed topics, but it will be just one aspect of what I teach. In a nutshell, I am here to teach Ascension. And right now, where I'm at, I am much more interested in teaching how to go through the nitty-gritty of alchemizing the density of your karma and vibrationally ascending. But I'll still also teach astrology and tarot and mediumship and all that too. We'll see how it all fits together.
If the term guru makes you uncomfortable, I completely understand. Before you decide to step away from my path and unsubscribe, I would ask you to consider whether your feeling toward the term comes from the lies, abuses, and misdeeds of others--and if you could consider giving me a chance to show you that there is such thing as a true guru in the West in the 21st century.
Where I write to you now, I am on the tail end of an incredible shamanic journey of self-discovery that has taken me from New Moon to New Moon, from the Pacific to the Atlantic--and from my moon line to my sun line (astrocartographically).
Spiritually, I have evolved at a rapid rate--however, physically I am very much in the process of healing and strengthening. I will be getting back to doing classes and private sessions as I feel ready to. My calendar is currently open for new private session bookings, with the implication that I will get to private sessions as I am ready to.
I do not wish to come back to working full-time just yet, nor is my body ready for it. As I continue to strengthen, I will take on more workload, but on my own terms. I will continue to put myself first. And I hope that my putting myself first inspires you to put yourself first in your own life. Don't ever tell yourself--like I did--that other people's expectations are more important than your own joy and well-being.
For now, my website and other social media will still reflect much of what the old version of Matthew John was doing, but in due time everything will be updated to reflect the journey of Guru Matthew John.
Divinely timed with my 'coming out' process, I have a new bestselling compilation book that is out NOW on Amazon called Awakened Hearts: Stories Embracing Light, Love and Limitless Possibilities. My chapter is called Hotel Bedouin--it is a fun and fascinating tale of my journey of Awakening through heartbreak in the middle of the Jordanian Desert way back in 2010, years before I even became Matthew John.
It is available for a limited time only on Kindle for just $1.99. It is also available in paperback and hardcover. It has quickly become an Amazon bestseller in three categories (and counting!)
PURCHASE THE AWAKENED HEARTS BOOK AT www.awakenedheartsbook.com
Please leave a 5-star review if you enjoyed it! And please mention my name if you enjoyed my chapter! <3
I'll have more details with further updates and announcements over the coming weeks. Please comment below or e-mail me at youareadivinehuman@gmail.com with any questions or comments.
Guru Matthew John
Dear friend,
It's probably been a while since you've heard from me, and you may have been wondering what happened.
I write to you now nearing the completion of a Dark Night of the Soul that came in like a tornado, blowing up a life I knew well, but resented inside.
Last November, I suffered a sudden deterioration of my physical health. I am a private person when it comes to certain matters and will not share any more details, but the extreme physical health challenge led me very suddenly on a deep journey of healing and rediscovering myself.
For years, I had worked an absolutely insane amount of hours. I was hyperfixated on becoming successful in my career as a Spiritual Teacher, and on making a positive impact on as many people as I could. I largely ignored taking care of my body--and myself in general. I put my joy and true desires aside and became a workaholic. I wasn't happy inside, but I rationalized it by telling myself that I was here to serve a mission and help as many people as I could, and that was more important than my own happiness and well-being. Thank God that that in fact isn't true.
Inside, I desperately wanted to take a break. I had been wanting to take a break for years, ever since my father's passing in 2022. People close to me warned me that I needed to find work-life balance. But my mind was stubborn, and I didn't know how to speak up for myself and say no to clients and platforms that I was featured on.
So, the Universe (really, my soul) forced me to take a break. That's kind of how life goes.
During the past eight months, I've delved into some of my deepest remaining karma. I can't tell you that I'm through all of it, but I have released a significant amount of density through this Dark Night.
I've gotten so much better at listening to myself, honoring myself, and nourishing myself. I have gotten used to what it feels like to put myself first, and what it feels like to say "no". I am learning to appreciate myself just as a regular person, without my role in the world.
That being said, I do have a very special and important role in the world. I have known that ever since I can remember.
While I was going through the toughest, darkest, and scariest times this past winter, I knew that everything I was going through was for a very important purpose. I knew that I would be very different on the other side of this.
And I knew that my public name would change. I knew that I was being molded into the next version of my role as a sacred teacher--Guru Matthew John.
You see, I was a guru in India in a past life. When I befriended a wonderful Indian guru named His Holiness Vasanth Vijayji Maharaj last year (you can see my interview with him here), it activated something very deep within me. Although I am a guru of the West, and not of the yogic lineages, I realize now that my meeting with His Holiness was in a way a meeting with an archetype of myself, both from a past life, and from the future in this life.
But I needed to go through an intense Dark Night of the Soul as an initiation.
When I was a guru in a past life, I let the intoxicating allure of power get to me, as has been the downfall of many gurus in the modern day. Part of stepping into being the guru in this life is making right on where I went wrong in that life, and bringing this archetype to completion in my journey as a soul.
I completely understand that I am going out on a limb here as I express myself in a way that aligns with the truth of the new self that I am stepping into. Guru is a powerful term, and I believe I am the first guru from the West to use the word guru in his name (if I am wrong, please correct me on this). I also understand that some newcomers to me could assume that I am a guru of the yogic lineages--but I am hoping my Western name will diffuse most cases of that type of confusion.
I am fully prepared for bridges to be burned, if certain people or platforms aren't accepting of my new public name. I no longer care who invites me on their show and who doesn't. It has actually been so liberating to not be on any shows or podcasts the past eight months, and just be with myself.
I understand that the term guru has a generally negative connotation in the West, unlike in India. In the West, most people think of scammers and abusers when they hear the word guru. Part of my mission as being a guru from the West is to bring Light to the term in the West. Guru means teacher in Sanskrit. More in-depth, it quite literally means one who brings Light where there is darkness. Guru describes me (and my role) perfectly.
You don't have to call me Guru. You can if you want to. I will not treat anyone differently based on what they call me. You can call me Matthew, Matthew John, Guru Matthew John, Guru, or even "dude". It doesn't matter.
I was worried that once I adopted this name, it would get to my ego. But so far, it has been quite the opposite. As I have honored my truest self without fear, by coming out with my new public name, I have felt my ego become less prominent than ever before. You'll see me and hear me again in videos and podcasts soon enough, when the time is right. And you'll see the same goofy, loving, light-hearted guy you are used to--just an upgraded version of him. The wisdom I carry now is so much deeper and more complete than what I carried prior to this transformation.
This represents a very exciting blank slate in my role. I am excited to see how I will fill this newly blank canvas. I'm no longer going to be Matthew John "the Starseed guy". That was a niche that was financially lucrative and brought me fame, but it's not me anymore. I've evolved past that. I am still going to discuss Starseed topics, but it will be just one aspect of what I teach. In a nutshell, I am here to teach Ascension. And right now, where I'm at, I am much more interested in teaching how to go through the nitty-gritty of alchemizing the density of your karma and vibrationally ascending. But I'll still also teach astrology and tarot and mediumship and all that too. We'll see how it all fits together.
If the term guru makes you uncomfortable, I completely understand. Before you decide to step away from my path and unsubscribe, I would ask you to consider whether your feeling toward the term comes from the lies, abuses, and misdeeds of others--and if you could consider giving me a chance to show you that there is such thing as a true guru in the West in the 21st century.
Where I write to you now, I am on the tail end of an incredible shamanic journey of self-discovery that has taken me from New Moon to New Moon, from the Pacific to the Atlantic--and from my moon line to my sun line (astrocartographically).
Spiritually, I have evolved at a rapid rate--however, physically I am very much in the process of healing and strengthening. I will be getting back to doing classes and private sessions as I feel ready to. My calendar is currently open for new private session bookings, with the implication that I will get to private sessions as I am ready to.
I do not wish to come back to working full-time just yet, nor is my body ready for it. As I continue to strengthen, I will take on more workload, but on my own terms. I will continue to put myself first. And I hope that my putting myself first inspires you to put yourself first in your own life. Don't ever tell yourself--like I did--that other people's expectations are more important than your own joy and well-being.
For now, my website and other social media will still reflect much of what the old version of Matthew John was doing, but in due time everything will be updated to reflect the journey of Guru Matthew John.
Divinely timed with my 'coming out' process, I have a new bestselling compilation book that is out NOW on Amazon called Awakened Hearts: Stories Embracing Light, Love and Limitless Possibilities. My chapter is called Hotel Bedouin--it is a fun and fascinating tale of my journey of Awakening through heartbreak in the middle of the Jordanian Desert way back in 2010, years before I even became Matthew John.
It is available for a limited time only on Kindle for just $1.99. It is also available in paperback and hardcover. It has quickly become an Amazon bestseller in three categories (and counting!)
PURCHASE THE AWAKENED HEARTS BOOK AT www.awakenedheartsbook.com
Please leave a 5-star review if you enjoyed it! And please mention my name if you enjoyed my chapter! <3
I'll have more details with further updates and announcements over the coming weeks. Please comment below or e-mail me at youareadivinehuman@gmail.com with any questions or comments.
With Love,
Guru Matthew John
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