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After a reflective clean up of my list, the biggest lesson is that what I felt was something urgent or must-not-forget-to-watch-later in the past turned out to be irrelevant right now. So much for feelings of emergency and absolute necessity.
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I noticed I stopped adding to the list completely after adding hordes of stuff for years which I never went back to watch. It coincided with my belief that I had done enough learning and intellectualizing and realized it was time for implementing and embodying the material. Becoming more present and becoming it.
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What a coincidence - few days ago I decided to clean up my "WATCH ASAP" list where I hoarded 600+ videos... I decided to leave only the stuff that I'd still like to watch and I managed to cut it down to around 250 videos. Still too many but at least they are distilled down to topics that are really fascinating. Sometimes I feel like we store these videos/books because we subconsciously believe that we will never die and will have time to do everything - deeper level cope. I'm happy that as the time goes by, I'm realizing what is the most important and meaningful to consume and I narrow down dramatically topic I engage with.
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Not me unironically thinking “yeah that’s super cool, not up for it now tho, how do I save this post to remind myself later” 💀
3 days ago | 1
That’s really funny because I’m on the no new books vibe as well haha. It just hit a point of wtf am I even looking for atm? My girlfriend helped point out the ridiculousness of my pattern ❤️ I love reading and probably always will haha but my searching for more is pointless as of now. Literally have already read hundreds and still have more to go. I’m off to just stare at some ants with pure curiosity. Love what you’re doing here Jordan :)
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Just today I decided to clean up my computer folders for the same reason - too much file hoarding for "later" or "just in case". I noticed a feeling of holding on to something, mentally clinging to notes, videos, pictures, old work files etc. Very unpleasant feeling. And a few days ago I deleted over 400 pictures and videos from my phone spanning years 2016-2025 - the best feeling ever! I realise time and again that there is nothing you can add to reach a state of happiness, it's about pruning things away
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Haha good topic. My watch later got full 5k videos. So now I do a monthly watch later. And I’ll go back and scroll as I feel guided. Sometimes I like those videos that say stop watching self help it’s just dopamine hits. A lot of the videos I watch later are bc it’s a lot to implement but I don’t want to lose it incase I feel guided to do it at a later time
4 days ago
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OMGOODNESS the shoe fits perfectly! I feel called out (into action) and genuinely appreciate it! ❣️✨
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This exercise is brilliant. Going to do this now. Thank you!
4 days ago | 1
Very interesting. I just checked my “Save for Later” playlist — I’ve got 1.4K videos in there. The pattern is pretty consistent: mostly YouTube and business, psychology, philosophy, and spirituality. The only difference is that I used to save entertainment videos like Minecraft gameplay — now I don’t. What this means to me: intellectual hunger and pattern seeking. illusion of progress and control, without the discomfort of confronting uncertainty or slowness. (If I just learn enough… I’ll finally feel ready / healed / fulfilled like there is a cheatcode to life and business that I need to find.) Away from Minecraft videos (gaming was my entire childhood) to more deep and intellectual topics = a bit of ego maturation
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Ooh, good one. Just checked, I have only 18 (I expected more considering my raging ADHD but maybe I cleaned up a while back and don't remember it, lol) and most of them are autism sound therapy, meditation and ASMR videos. I have one game-related video.
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Oh yes, I'm familiar with this, haha, oh gosh. As a self professed collector of things, though not by any means overwhelmed anymore. Digital hoarding is a nice compromise, which staves off physical hoarding. It both satisfies and keeps in check my love of organising things into categories, and feeds my insatiable curiosity. At 1,964 unwatched videos however, it might just be time to ask - what am I truly getting out of this? 😅 The pattern...well...there are many categories that range from also how to start a YouTube channel, through to various interviews, documentaries, psychological/spiritual/energetic explorations, how to's, homesteading, slow living, music and some lighthearted, meaningless junk content for fun. Almost all hold an energy of self improvement. Even the "junk" content as the creators themselves are obvious extremely hard working seekers also. Ways to move beyond that which I already am aware of. Not because of not being at peace already, but because I suppose, I do feel peaceful, and am feeling a longing to know, learn and do 'more,' simply because we can. Fascinating...
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Because I realize that my answers, after decades of absorbing wisdom from others are but breadcrumbs that toggle my inner-journey, and that true awareness of self is personified.
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Sometimes when you heal for so long and spend time learning, you keep going, not sure what to do with yourself when you stop. Your whole meaning was around healing. Then when you stop, does that mean confrontation with a new death and rebirth of a personality built around certain activities.
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2,221. I stopped adding to it YEAR’S ago 😂 Sounds like it could be an insightful exercise - but ugh, that’s just SO many videos… think I’d rather just let the past go & focus forward… I will say a lil prayer tho 🙏🏼 may yall RIP 🪦 all 2221 of you 😂 I too have been on high consume mode for years… been thinking lately maybe it’s not enough to dial it back - maybe I should just go full 180 and switch into mad creator mode.. if I put off my dreams much longer, one day soon I’ll be burying them next to my watch later l
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I stopped adding to my watch later list a while back when I realised I never watched any of them later. My digital hoarding happens/ed in my emails and bookmarks. Been working my way through deleting some and organising others into folders that make sense and are useful. It's taken a long time but I'm pleased with myself, I've got rid of so much and I'm about 70% finished with the process - and working to not add in more 😅
4 days ago | 0
I find that over 100 videos on my watch later list means I need to make decisions on what I’ll actually watch. There are several videos I’ve saved multiple times but never watched. I’ve learned that it helps me reduce FOMO, watching out of obligation, and decision fatigue.
2 days ago
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"Digital hoarding!" I was laughing so hard 😅 Surprisingly, I have 61 videos saved on my watch later list. I was expecting more. I have a tendency to discard digital an material things periodically. I feel overwhelmed when I hold too much in my physical or digital space. 🤔
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Jordan Thornton - Inner Work
I’ve got 1476 videos on my watch later list… that’s RIDICULOUS. Let’s talk about digital hoarding - it’s a niche topic, and I’ve got three questions I want you to answer:
1. Look at your list… does it follow a pattern?
2. Why did you never watch the videos later?
3. Most importantly, what are the shadow psychology implications of your digital hoarding and digital stockpiling tendencies?
Homework:
Confront your shadow, retrace your digital footprint - scroll to the bottom of your watch list, pay attention to the patterns and how your passions change with the seasons, and give yourself the gift of self reflection.
Your unwatched digital history is a virtual tapestry of your psychological evolution, here’s a peek at mine:
2019: “How to stay sober” / “sobriety psychology”
(Early days, but now I’m six years sober.)
2020: “barefoot walks” / “best grounding exercises”
(Global pandemic, good time to abandon shoes)
2021: “How to start a YouTube channel”
(Dozens of videos on this theme, hundreds of hours of research, and now YouTube feels easy and natural)
My watch later list goes back to 2019, or at least it did until earlier today when I felt inspired to clean up my digital home.
Digital detox: 44 unwatched videos now.
Cleaning out the cobwebs, and I’m glad to have found some gold that slipped through the cracks.
Check your watch later list after checking the comments - you’ll learn something about yourself. Take a scroll through your shadow steps, and enjoy the special feeling of reflecting on how much your psychology has changed over the last few years.
Share your story in the comments,
Jordan
P.S. I know whats happening with my sudden surge of digital hygiene. I recently placed myself on book ban until September 21st 2025 - “no books exist beyond this library” - this is my mantra: no new books, zero novelty.
It’s been 66 months of 3+ psychology books per week - at least 1000 pages per week, non-stop learning since the end of 2019 - and I think I’ve got what I need to have an honest attempt at creating the most definitive trauma and self actualisation curriculum on the internet.
There is nothing to watch later.
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