Wow I admire this like no other bro! Someone once told me " I heard you got rid of your addiction" I smirked and said no addiction doesn't work that way, once you're an addict, you will always be an addict, I just choose not to feed it
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Bro this actually helped me a lot For comming out of my addiction and focusing on my studies, just like your song "whiskey in my veins" 💖
5 months ago
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That's very much how it feels to be borderline with the abyss in your chest and the monster trying to get out, whispering in your mind all the time. Very descriptive, great, if tragic, writing brother.
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I am over 30 years clean and sober, however, I am still an addict. It never goes away, unfortunately. Somedays I wake wanting to be back in those days. I have to fight the temptation. It's easier, after all the time, but, still hard as hell. I guess what I'm trying to say is, don't look back. It's worth it to not do that. You aren't alone.
5 months ago
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I also tell people the difference between an addict and a non addict is, An addict knows who and what the devil is personally, a non addict just assumes.
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Set it free sweetheart in joy life what makes you happy..life can be beautiful if you let it ..power over mine am 58 still holding it today sure 👍 d
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It is neither inside or outside of me. Yet I am my own addiction , addiction is a Large word ," I consider no control, for without what the addiction is you don't feel as if you can function,as well addiction is beyond drugs for they are in various forms of self pleasure. I have been both dealer and occasional consumer, not by necessity or need nor weakness or desire. But by choice from time to time ,these occasional periods may be of choice from 1 time a month or 6 months or even yrs apart. Always keeping my priorities first and blessed with the strength to just quit any sec I choose or to even be around ppl that are addicts n not use but by humanity and knowledge of a human, a mother, father, streets or ECT , I have seen all sides of the blocks from addiction to occasional user to no self control and no life , to hope and understanding . 1st though shall not judge they are no better than I . You may still have other faults to your self that you refuse to accept , but truth is power and strength once you finally accept and forgive but you can not forgive until you understand or recognize why you do whatever it is you do or your imperfections are / may be. Stop nagging the friend or spouse or sibling for it may be of your partial fault and it was unrecognized or addressed. Stop bitching or faulting , stop trying to control the person you call addiction , maybe try to recognize things by observation , don't listen to gossip don't talk about someone until you have communicated the issue with ask questions . Possibilities are you and others may be exaggerating and always remember to check the reflection in the mirror past and present before judging and talking about someone when you truly are clueless . Check your inside and outside. You are not perfect I promise.
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Portrait of perfection, forsaken conception. Twisted deception, delays the resession. Compounding truths like pyramids in the Nexus. Master of any, the creator unresting. Even In sleep, progressing, always decoding, Never refreshing. But sovereign with the lesson of attaining crystalline perfection. Gateways open because I command. The fortress around me built not handed With hands so clean, the angels are jealous. The devil's recoil, just from the word of my presence. The one that became infinite. The first immortal flesh. The compound spirit, the star of unity. The voice of the broken, the Forest of Cedar. the heart of hope. The Form of forever. I Am.
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Back in the social ableness again...long min it took to twist and bend...but bck at ME...woo woo YEAYA can't wait to see...glad your soul has relit...never stop never bck down never quit...get what you were meant...own it slay it dominate you words will never be spent...your a lyrical legend and slave to none... conquer your shii and come undone...wanna see what casts that sounds that rings my dreams...not wishing not asking str8 saying what I want what I mean...ownin my VOCALS and usin them as preached once ago... listenin waitin watching aching to know...show me your demon n I'll show you mine... choose to accept the offer this time???
5 months ago
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I just followed you on FB. I've been sharing a bunch of your music on twitter too.
5 months ago
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AnonymousZell
Addiction is not outside me.
It is me
a twin born in the marrow,
a ghost chewing my veins like rosary beads.
It doesn't chase me.
It waits inside every silence,
curled behind every heartbeat,
patient when I'm winning,
laughing when I'm weak.
It knows my voice better than my prayers.
It doesn't need the door open
it is the door.
And every day I walk past it,
pretending I'm free,
it sharpens the knives and smiles.
Not hunting.
Not chasing.
Just waiting for the moment, I breathe wrong
and call it home again.
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