Remember that you mean a lot to your family even if it isn't expressed directly, if you can't live for yourself try living for them and you could find your own purpose along the way <3
1 day ago | 0
I have been feeling the same for quite a while now. Can we talk? I think it could benefit both of us.
19 hours ago | 0
Yeah, shit feels ass. At first I thought it was just ansomnia, thats part of it. Ansomnia can lead to self hatred at times, I find myself worthless, Try to be happy but when there's nothing but my thought, I get pissed at myself like fucking failed at being something, No matter what tge fucking headache won't leave, so I do whatever, play games, workout, eat, but in the end I'm back to hating. I've always had anger issues and shits a pain especially when I regret being a dick. I always try focusing on happy shit but thats just temporary, ya know? In the end, I don't think you can just automatically stop feeling this way, I've been feeling better when I try to improve, to be better, to be somebody betterthen who I am. Yeah shit's a pain but in the end we all gotta do something with all this time, might as well be better. It ain't a stress thing most of the time, its more of a mindset that engraves into you. It ain't an excuse to stop, its a reason to keep going, to top feeling like shit. You don't seem to hate yourself, you seem to be more alone then anything else, communicating with people while being an introvert can be difficult, you feel anxious just talking to somebody. You're thoughts seem to wind to the path of self pity and loneliness, You might feel like nobody really feels the same as you do. Gotta tell you that even when you feel shitty happy moments can happen, just try to look at shit in a positive light and you got that.
51 minutes ago (edited) | 0
Bebo Senpai YT
It's Crazi how I feel sleepy all day. . .
But during nights, I don't feel sleepy at all. . .
It's really annoying, can't even stay awake or can't even sleep. . .
I wonder why, probably because I stay up all night like until 7 am. . .
So maybe my body thinks I'm supposed to stay up during night and sleep during the day. . .
But whatever, I really can't take naps during the day because it will completely mess up my routine. . .
I thought during school days, I will fix it. . .
But here I am sleeping at 5 am, even though I have school at 7 am. . .
Y'all be wondering, how I'm even alive atp. . .
And I'm wondering that too, maybe I might be guest of some days. . .
Because as you can see, my health is really messed up rn. . .
All that because of loneliness that i feel at night. . .
I honestly never felt this until nowadays. . .
This all started to happen since I'm kept on getting traumatic occurrence. . .
Whether it's lost of someone, or something idk. . .
But atleast i dont feel it all day, only during the night time. . .
And I doesn't stop eating like I stopped back then. . .
So yeah I'm just rn idk what I am rn, but it what it is ig. . .
I'm just hoping next year is be good because this year is now might be my last year. . .
Anyways, have a nice day/night ~ ✨
1 day ago | [YT] | 936