Theme song plays, lights come up. Ed sits at a desk holding a coffee with a mic on an arm in front of him. Over his shoulder, on the work bench, three boxes labaled "BEANS, baked....BEANS, Garbanzo....BEANS, Jelly."
Hey yall! Welcome to Crazy Ed's Bomb Shelter! I'm your whacky over-the-top host, Crazy Ed, and this here is MYYY bomb shelter! Welcome to Crazy Ed"s Bomb Shelter! Now as you've probably noticed, this is actually not a video, but just the script for one. Don't let my glib affect fool you, I am genuinely and deeply disturbed by the emotions I'm feeling inside! The reason for that is the my fucking phone has STOPPED WORKING. It used to work...now it doesn't Well when i say it used to work, I mean it used to to something useful. I don't mean it WORKED, you know, like rich people mean when they say THEIR shit works. It came to me second hand, after two weeks of me simply not having a phone at all. The front cam only worked if you smacked it on your palm just right, but hey, free phone! That's what hustlin' is all about! Do what you can with what you got! And by strikintg while the iron was hot, i was able to film and upload two whole videos! Before the front cam died. And then I started filming everything in selfie mode. Sure, it's a little hard to see what you're shooting when it's physically impossible to shoot the thing and see it at the same time, but that's just minor details! That was a great little sub-manic episode, just perfect. I got so much filming done! But now it seems my computer and my iPhone, which have been working together perfectly this whole time....stopped working together. I can only speculate that one has been cheating on the other with a different device. All i can get them to say about it is that they no longer "Trust" each other. It used to work...now it doesn't.
Same story with my printer/scanner. Except that it's never worked in the first place. "No computer found" is all it says in the screen. Not found? Well gee,i dunno, have you tried looking for a computer on the other end of the USB cable that is currently SHOVED UP YOUR ASS? And yes. I've tried unplugging it. AND, I have tried plugging it back in again. And yes, I tried doing it again. Several times actually. I tried. I tried. I tried. Don't let my glib affect fool you, I am genuinely and deeply disturbed by the emotions I'm feeling inside!
The reason for that is because technology fuckin' SUUCKS! Or maybe just MY tech sucks...maybe I suck at using tech...or MAYBE, Firefox and Ubuntu didn't actually de-stratify society like it was supposed to, and now the technological divide is intentionally maintained and cultivated as a means of distraction and control. Maybe the elites' tech -- which works -- and my tech -- which sucks-- are both working as intended by the Puppet Masters of the world.
But, even if that is the case, I'm not gonna get myself out of this system by just complaining about it. My Therapist gave me a piece of truth I didn't really want recently. Which is the best kind, truly, and that's why I was so thankful to her.
She told me I'm not ready to have a Youtube channel. And once she explained it to me, I see she is right. The reason I couldn't find satisfaction was nothing to do with technical difficulties. I just can't stand to do anything that involves delayed gratification. Aaaaand yeah. that's a problem i gotta work on. Instant gratification is fun, but delayed gratification is the only kind that leads to anything useful. it's true what they say, if it was fun they wouldn't call it work! And I have GOT to do some "work" on myself. That sense of fulfillment we all need...and some of us tragically chase it all the way to Hell, looking for it in the wrong place....well, it doesn't come from just chasing "fun". If you come into life with an entitled attitude and spend all your time obsessively laser hyperfocused on what feels "fair" to you from your own selfish perspective, then you aren't thinking about being of service to others. And being TRULY of service to others, is what TRULY brings purpose.
So, as of today, I'll be putting the Crazy Ed's Bomb Shelter project on hiatus, maybe until forever, or maybe not quite that long. The one thing I'm sure of is I'm not coming back until I know how to do it right.
And I'm not making the post to try and play for sympathy or make people call me some kind of guru or something, I'm not one of those kinds of people....just sharing some experiences I had...so maybe I can give my pain some meaning by letting other people learn from it...
To anyone who happens across this channel from my Reddit posts or other socials, Thanks for coming! I hope you enjoy the work I've posted here, and feel free to subscribe. Maybe one day I can come back to my childish hobby, as a treat, after I have learned how to put away childish things...
Crazy_Ed
Theme song plays, lights come up. Ed sits at a desk holding a coffee with a mic on an arm in front of him. Over his shoulder, on the work bench, three boxes labaled "BEANS, baked....BEANS, Garbanzo....BEANS, Jelly."
Hey yall! Welcome to Crazy Ed's Bomb Shelter! I'm your whacky over-the-top host, Crazy Ed, and this here is MYYY bomb shelter! Welcome to Crazy Ed"s Bomb Shelter! Now as you've probably noticed, this is actually not a video, but just the script for one. Don't let my glib affect fool you, I am genuinely and deeply disturbed by the emotions I'm feeling inside! The reason for that is the my fucking phone has STOPPED WORKING. It used to work...now it doesn't Well when i say it used to work, I mean it used to to something useful. I don't mean it WORKED, you know, like rich people mean when they say THEIR shit works. It came to me second hand, after two weeks of me simply not having a phone at all. The front cam only worked if you smacked it on your palm just right, but hey, free phone! That's what hustlin' is all about! Do what you can with what you got! And by strikintg while the iron was hot, i was able to film and upload two whole videos! Before the front cam died. And then I started filming everything in selfie mode. Sure, it's a little hard to see what you're shooting when it's physically impossible to shoot the thing and see it at the same time, but that's just minor details! That was a great little sub-manic episode, just perfect. I got so much filming done! But now it seems my computer and my iPhone, which have been working together perfectly this whole time....stopped working together. I can only speculate that one has been cheating on the other with a different device. All i can get them to say about it is that they no longer "Trust" each other. It used to work...now it doesn't.
Same story with my printer/scanner. Except that it's never worked in the first place. "No computer found" is all it says in the screen. Not found? Well gee,i dunno, have you tried looking for a computer on the other end of the USB cable that is currently SHOVED UP YOUR ASS? And yes. I've tried unplugging it. AND, I have tried plugging it back in again. And yes, I tried doing it again. Several times actually. I tried. I tried. I tried. Don't let my glib affect fool you, I am genuinely and deeply disturbed by the emotions I'm feeling inside!
The reason for that is because technology fuckin' SUUCKS! Or maybe just MY tech sucks...maybe I suck at using tech...or MAYBE, Firefox and Ubuntu didn't actually de-stratify society like it was supposed to, and now the technological divide is intentionally maintained and cultivated as a means of distraction and control. Maybe the elites' tech -- which works -- and my tech -- which sucks-- are both working as intended by the Puppet Masters of the world.
But, even if that is the case, I'm not gonna get myself out of this system by just complaining about it. My Therapist gave me a piece of truth I didn't really want recently. Which is the best kind, truly, and that's why I was so thankful to her.
She told me I'm not ready to have a Youtube channel. And once she explained it to me, I see she is right. The reason I couldn't find satisfaction was nothing to do with technical difficulties. I just can't stand to do anything that involves delayed gratification. Aaaaand yeah. that's a problem i gotta work on. Instant gratification is fun, but delayed gratification is the only kind that leads to anything useful. it's true what they say, if it was fun they wouldn't call it work! And I have GOT to do some "work" on myself. That sense of fulfillment we all need...and some of us tragically chase it all the way to Hell, looking for it in the wrong place....well, it doesn't come from just chasing "fun". If you come into life with an entitled attitude and spend all your time obsessively laser hyperfocused on what feels "fair" to you from your own selfish perspective, then you aren't thinking about being of service to others. And being TRULY of service to others, is what TRULY brings purpose.
So, as of today, I'll be putting the Crazy Ed's Bomb Shelter project on hiatus, maybe until forever, or maybe not quite that long. The one thing I'm sure of is I'm not coming back until I know how to do it right.
And I'm not making the post to try and play for sympathy or make people call me some kind of guru or something, I'm not one of those kinds of people....just sharing some experiences I had...so maybe I can give my pain some meaning by letting other people learn from it...
To anyone who happens across this channel from my Reddit posts or other socials, Thanks for coming! I hope you enjoy the work I've posted here, and feel free to subscribe. Maybe one day I can come back to my childish hobby, as a treat, after I have learned how to put away childish things...
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