GROUNDED CRINGE

Hello everyone, I just thought I’d come on here to share a life story of mine which some may relate to, and also use this space for you to open up as well.
A few months ago, I met this girl. She was really nice and we had a good conversation. I go home and think nothing of it, the next week I see her again and she comes up to me and asks for my socials which I give to her. She then started messaging me throughout the day and I was doing the same. I thought we would just end up being friends however a few weeks later I caught feelings and she said she had feelings for me. We start getting to know each other more, sharing deep and personal stuff about our lives which made me feel a connection I hadn’t had in ages. I then decided to ask her out on a date. She said yes and we went out. It was a great date, we were sitting on a bench, she went in for a cuddle and we just talked about our lives. After that everything was amazing, she was this really amazing girl I dreamed of having in my life, she talked about plans for the future, what we’d do for Christmas and all that stuff, and she made me feel good about myself, supported me with things such as my YouTube channel and the Gym and even said “I love you”.However, she slowly starts to become distant, I ask her if she’s okay but she just replies that she’s busy and is stressed. I think nothing of it, I just think to myself we all get like that sometimes she’ll go back to being her usual self soon. I even think about asking her to be my girlfriend and even her friends said I should. So I decide, wait til she’s in a good mood and then go ask her. But then, her texts get dryer and dryer, to the point where it’s one sided. I feel like I’d been love bombed, but I still had that bit of hope that she’d go back to being her usual self around me. And then a week later, she posted something on her Instagram story, and it was her with another guy. But the thing is, even tho she was being dry the past week, she was still texting me, she knew I had genuine feelings for her. She even called me the night before I looked at the story, but the phone call didn’t last as I had no signal where I was. I felt betrayed, belittled, and humiliated finding out the way I did. I wished she would’ve at least told me that she didn’t have feelings rather than drag it out. In fact, I wished she would’ve just left me alone and never bothered talking to me, but I can’t change that. Even though we never actually got past the talking stage, it still hurt me, because I was promised great things and was willing to give the same back but it was just words.
TL;DR I was in a talking stage with a girl, it was going really great, she even said “I love you” she gives me the cold shoulder, found out a week later it was because she chose another guy over me

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