My life got so much worse after he left. So many things have gone wrong. And I could only try to live with it. On the 16th, I had a dream that he was alive. That the death announcement was fake, that he was secretly released into the Okhotsk Sea, and there he was - fully grown and more beautiful than ever. And then I woke up. What I wouldn't give for that dream to be true.
I tried to make an edit for this day, but it doesn't feel right. Nothing feels right. I can't even stand him being mentioned as .... anywhere. He should still be here. I try to be fine, to live on, but I don't know how to accept this still. I just don't.
And I can't describe the feeling that appears every time I look at the name of my channel.
ForeverNord
It's been a month.
My life got so much worse after he left. So many things have gone wrong. And I could only try to live with it.
On the 16th, I had a dream that he was alive. That the death announcement was fake, that he was secretly released into the Okhotsk Sea, and there he was - fully grown and more beautiful than ever. And then I woke up. What I wouldn't give for that dream to be true.
I tried to make an edit for this day, but it doesn't feel right. Nothing feels right. I can't even stand him being mentioned as .... anywhere. He should still be here. I try to be fine, to live on, but I don't know how to accept this still. I just don't.
And I can't describe the feeling that appears every time I look at the name of my channel.
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