Dude, from what I saw in the house video and others your father was the coolest. Laidback, hard-working with a super creative mind. His ideas for the house were so original and interesting. I lost my dad to cancer in 2015. He was at peace though. Thanks for sharing your story - I can relate... Your dad's figuring out another cool house where he's at now. Looking forward to the next video!! ✌️🌟 - John Giaccon
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Take your time and grieve, Len. My Dad has been gone 16 years. I still miss him. Mittens in the 70s and 80s with him were great.
1 year ago
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I’m sorry for your loss. My dad passed from suicide 3 years ago and the world has been gray since then. Your feelings make sense and are totally valid. Enjoy your trip. 💜
1 year ago | 30
I'm so sorry, Len! Take you time. I'll be always around cause your videos bring me joy and help me get through hard moments. 💙
1 year ago | 5
I'm so sorry, Len. I can tell he was very important to your life and I know how it feels to lose someone. I hope you feel a lot better - don't feel rushed to post anything. Love ya!!!
1 year ago | 10
Sorry to hear your loss. hats off to your dad. I like your channel and always follow you. We love 80s rebel the legendary Len Enders ♥️
1 year ago
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So sorry for your loss, Len. The house project video is one of my favorites. Sending you a big hug 🤗
1 year ago | 0
Dude I love your channel. Your lifestyle is truly inspiring. We’re certainly glad to hear from you. Thanks Len!🤘
1 year ago | 3
I'm so terribly sorry for the loss of your dad, unfortunately, I've lost more than my fair share of family to cancer as well. In 2016 I lost my mom pretty quickly to ovarian cancer, she was only 62, then it just snowballed from there with both my grandmother's and my aunt and then just lost my uncle a month ago to lung cancer. The pain of losing a parent is like no other. Enjoy your road trip and be safe! We'll see you when you get back! 🥰🥰
1 year ago | 3
Thanks for all you give us with your videos. Healing takes time. I hope your trip helps you begin the process. My dad and I were not that close. He wasn't in my life at all until I was 15. He died in 2009 at only 60 years of age. I wish I could have had the close relationship you had with your dad. You probably have so many good memories of spending time with him. You'll always have those.
1 year ago | 0
I give my condolences to you Father, And I also wanted to thank you for a taste of the 80s as I, a GEN z cannot experience such awesomeness. Best of luck to you on the road too recovery, man. 🤙
1 year ago | 1
Sorry for your loss. Your dad left behind one hell of a cool son.
1 year ago | 0
Damn man I'm so sorry about your dad mine passed away from the same thing in 2019. I know how hard that must've been :( seeing my dad like that was just horrible, something I'll never forget. I've been a long time subscriber for probably about 4 years now or so but I hope you're doin good brother. Much love
7 months ago | 1
You guys looked happy. I think thats priceless. Take your time.. ☮
1 year ago | 0
May your father rest in peace, Len. I'm so sorry. My deepest heartfelt condolences for your loss. I lost my last grandparent, my maternal grandfather, my mother's father, last August as well, and it sadly and eerily reminded me of my own mortality. I pray that you heal and pull through this. Keep it coming, my friend. Your videos are quite the entertainment, especially the one where you and your friends were hanging out at the Sunset Strip.
1 year ago | 1
So sorry to hear about your father. I lost my grandpa 22 years ago due to a stroke and a few days later after slipping into a coma. He was an English teacher then a vice principal in Middle school. Sad that I never got to know him. Our hearts go out to your father and May he Fly High
1 year ago
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Enjoy your trip as much as you can brother. We all will pass away eventually may be today or tomorrow. Your dad is without pain now and hopefully there is a place where we can all be together again. Very sorry for your loss dude..
1 year ago | 1
Len Enders
I don’t really share super personal things about my current life here but since this is something that has had an effect on my YouTube upload output over the last year I thought it relevant.
If you’ve been a subscriber for a while then you know I only upload when I’m inspired to do so. From the beginning I made the conscious decision that I would not try to “make the algorithm happy” or upload on a super regular schedule just so people wouldn’t forget about me, etc.
So my uploads have always been somewhat sporadic but much more so over the last six months or so.
Late last year my father was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer that had spread to other organs. As many of you know this is essentially a death sentence.
He fought extremely hard but lost his battle after ten months on August 17th of this year.
At the very end he was in and out of knowing where he was and what was going on but I was fortunate to happen to be at his home on his last day. I got to sit with him and comfort him, hold his hand and tell him I loved him during some brief moments of clarity only a few hours before he left us. (I was his only child)
Some people get more creative during times of emotional hardship and dive head first into their art or craft but for me this has never been the case.
As I watched my father deteriorate over the last ten months my attitude towards creating for and uploading to YouTube drifted more and more into “who gives a f*ck?” and “what does this stuff even matter?” territory. This has included posting on other social media and responding to messages and comments.
Basically things that brought me joy had become kind of joyless.
Even going through the archives of my old home videos from the 80s and 90s to find something to upload became painfully depressing as most of those videos are from happy times living with my father.
If you are familiar with the video I posted about the strange and amazing house that my dad had been building all by himself since 1995: no, it was not completed. Not even close.
And no, I will not be taking it over to finish it.
It is in the hands of his widow and, since he had no money to leave, will probably eventually be sold as is so that she may support herself.
As many of you know, when you’re not feeding YouTube regularly with “amazing content that drives viewer engagement” etc. etc. you will be punished or at the very least sent to the sidelines. At this point my channel has essentially flatlined, which doesn’t bother me as I have never been on a mission to make YouTube my job, but it certainly doesn’t help to reinvigorate my excitement to jump back into creating videos.
All of this is to say that I’m definitely not going to stop creating or uploading videos, it’s just going to be a minute before I get back to the feeling of joy I had for it before my dad’s diagnosis.
In a few days I’m going to take a roadtrip for a few weeks or more to clear my head and reflect. Upon my return home I have plans for a very nostalgic, upbeat and fun video about my life as a metalhead in the 80s.
Thanks to everyone who has reached out in any form with kind words or support. I apologize for my delayed or total lack of responses over the last few months or more. I’m sure you understand.
If you haven’t seen the video I made about my father and his decades long, over-the-top house project there will be a link at the bottom of this post.
I uploaded it on the morning of his 70th birthday but since he didn’t use YouTube or have a computer, I had to create a single DVD copy and bring it to his house for him to see it.
A month or so later I actually printed out all of the comments the video had received just so he could read them.
This brought him great joy and numerous times he asked me when I was going to come over to do a follow up video.
Sadly I never got the chance to.
I promise I’ll be back to myself soon! Thanks so much for sticking around and being patient. It really means a lot to me. <3
-L3N
Here's the video about his house project- https://youtu.be/mijuIr7g6Is?si=SC2ZS...
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