My whole life!!! Currently crying because I am in such emotional pain! I always told myself, love doesn’t love me or I will never be enough
2 weeks ago | 8
Every moment of my miserable life. My rare smiles and the appearance of a pleasant life are nothing but smoke and mirrors. My suffering, only God is witness to it.
2 weeks ago | 2
A lifetime of self loathing…. Still can’t find relief in my 60’s.
2 weeks ago | 7
I do definitely a lil sheepish and embarrassed when I do something kinda crappy or too goofy or whatever and it gets pointed out (rightfully so). And healthy guilt when I do something really crappy, regardless of whether or not it gets brought up to me. I'm ngl when narcissism first started getting really popular in the "pop psychology" realm, I spent some time wondering if I was a "narc" because I don't feel overtly insecure about any aspect of myself but my various triggers definitely let everyone know that there are for sure insecurities lurking below the surface. Which I guess (aka HOPE lol) is normal.
2 weeks ago | 0
Yes, my whole life. I feel like I just won’t ever be happy in my life that it’s just not in the cards for me.
2 weeks ago | 1
Not that I can recall. And I think that comes down to a) having good enough parents & caregivers and b) feeling very confident about my appearance as a teen/very young adult, especially the fact that it didn't take extra effort or stress to maintain as it was a side effect of being an athlete which was something that I loved doing. Why appearance and not something else? Because, as a female in the 2000s/2010s in the US, I was constantly bombarded with the message that looking this specific way was the most important aspect of myself & being female. Which, in hindsight I can now see is fully preposterous and misogynistic. Even media that purported to send the opposite message, like the 2003 film _Mean Girls_, actually reinforced the idea that so much of my value came from looking enough like the "Queen Bees". Adolescence/very young adulthood is such a crucial time in the development of your sense of self that feeling like you don't measure up to whatever standard is dictated to you can be very detrimental to your sense of self long term. And I don't want to take for granted that I happened to get really lucky with both my family of origin and my social experiences. CPTSD most commonly gets discussed in the context of families of origin. But social experiences, like being bullied or otherwise ostracized at school, are also an extremely important cause. As your peers become your primary attachment figure when you enter school.
2 weeks ago | 0
Most days, especially today. I was set to meet with a pro in my chosen area of competition for a little coaching. I fucked it up, maybe on purpose.
2 weeks ago | 1
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