Just realized it's been two months since my last real video, figured I'd give a (somewhat long) update - I finally moved into my own apartment! Even the buildup to actually moving took a lot of time and energy, and beyond that, having to maintain the place and cook my own meals and stuff has me pretty wiped out each and every day, so I haven't really had the mental space or time to work on my videos. I'm also not sure the walls are thick enough around here to where I can narrate or yell "BAYONGA" without feeling like a weirdo... I'm thinking I'll just narrate in my car then, but even that is kinda "public", so I dunno.
To be totally honest, with this final step out of my childhood home and into adult life having to do all the stuff to support myself, I just haven't really felt the need to create anything. I'm surprisingly content to just do my work, spend some leisure time with myself or friends, and go to bed.
I know that's kind of sad in a way, but I've noticed myself wanting to reject the idea that in order to be something, you have to make something on the Internet. Getting big online and "making money just doing what I love" was an idea that's motivated me pretty much my whole life and especially when I was younger, but given the current state and trajectory of the Internet... yeah, I do NOT wanna become anything on here and don't think I could handle it if I did. I don't really feel cut out to survive as a creator on the modern Internet, I mean look at me - I'm longposting. Nobody does this crap anymore.
Not that I'll NEVER MAKE A VIDEO AGAIN or that I only make videos to get famous. I'm making the Bayonga Bandits series with the knowledge that the vids are probably never going to crack 1k views since I'm an obscure YouTuber talking about a not-often-discussed game series... I'm just saying, despite this being a series, don't expect any series-like upload schedule.
Just wanted to provide context as to why videos might take so long to come out even if they aren't that long. I'm not sure if anybody really cares but I just wanted to throw a bone in case anybody does, because I know the feeling of an obscure YouTuber I like suddenly disappearing without a goodbye. It sucks, lol. But yea, don't worry I'm still alive and DEVELON is in my heart LMAO, just need to find the right time and headspace.
PJOrange
Just realized it's been two months since my last real video, figured I'd give a (somewhat long) update - I finally moved into my own apartment! Even the buildup to actually moving took a lot of time and energy, and beyond that, having to maintain the place and cook my own meals and stuff has me pretty wiped out each and every day, so I haven't really had the mental space or time to work on my videos. I'm also not sure the walls are thick enough around here to where I can narrate or yell "BAYONGA" without feeling like a weirdo... I'm thinking I'll just narrate in my car then, but even that is kinda "public", so I dunno.
To be totally honest, with this final step out of my childhood home and into adult life having to do all the stuff to support myself, I just haven't really felt the need to create anything. I'm surprisingly content to just do my work, spend some leisure time with myself or friends, and go to bed.
I know that's kind of sad in a way, but I've noticed myself wanting to reject the idea that in order to be something, you have to make something on the Internet. Getting big online and "making money just doing what I love" was an idea that's motivated me pretty much my whole life and especially when I was younger, but given the current state and trajectory of the Internet... yeah, I do NOT wanna become anything on here and don't think I could handle it if I did. I don't really feel cut out to survive as a creator on the modern Internet, I mean look at me - I'm longposting. Nobody does this crap anymore.
Not that I'll NEVER MAKE A VIDEO AGAIN or that I only make videos to get famous. I'm making the Bayonga Bandits series with the knowledge that the vids are probably never going to crack 1k views since I'm an obscure YouTuber talking about a not-often-discussed game series... I'm just saying, despite this being a series, don't expect any series-like upload schedule.
Just wanted to provide context as to why videos might take so long to come out even if they aren't that long. I'm not sure if anybody really cares but I just wanted to throw a bone in case anybody does, because I know the feeling of an obscure YouTuber I like suddenly disappearing without a goodbye. It sucks, lol. But yea, don't worry I'm still alive and DEVELON is in my heart LMAO, just need to find the right time and headspace.
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