I need to point something out because I’m actually tired of this. Yes I don’t respond if you make a post about me being a horrible person because you think I try to avoid peoples problems, well I’m not, I don’t respond because it ruins everything that I built with the friendship I made with them, I feel humiliated, every time when I read one I feel a lump in my throat, and I feel like I’m gonna cry. Besides, what is there to say? You have like ten paragraphs that would make me feel horrible for not doing so, and I’m not fighting with you, why should I? You’re correct about thinking I was not there for you, I wasn’t comforting you enough, I know what you thought about me before, I know what everyone thinks about me. No one gets me, lie that you do, I know you don’t get me, no one knows how much times I lock myself in my room and just rip my thoughts out of my brain but I can’t, it’s hopeless. I try over and over again to make people satisfied but I can’t, sometimes I don’t get them. You can’t help anyone no matter how hard you try, they do it over and over. I feel like I’m drowning in a abyss of loneliness. Laugh at me all you want but I’m a human too, I feel things like you. No one knows anything about me, I change my personality everyday and hope I can find myself, but it doesn’t work. I feel ugly every time I do this, and I feel horrible. I don’t want to be a mistake, I just want to belong somewhere without having to hide who I really am, and it hurts. I look in the mirror and think I look hideous and I make fun of myself. Notice you could comfort me, but I won’t heal. It’s all my fault. I cry randomly just because I remember those horrible thoughts of what I said to someone, and I know they hate me. They think I’m overreacting because of it, and I’m sick of it. So let me make some things clear, I’m not trying to be the center of attention, I’m not growing out of this, and I will always remember what you said and did to me.
LUMINOSITY(break for like one day ig)
I need to point something out because I’m actually tired of this. Yes I don’t respond if you make a post about me being a horrible person because you think I try to avoid peoples problems, well I’m not, I don’t respond because it ruins everything that I built with the friendship I made with them, I feel humiliated, every time when I read one I feel a lump in my throat, and I feel like I’m gonna cry. Besides, what is there to say? You have like ten paragraphs that would make me feel horrible for not doing so, and I’m not fighting with you, why should I? You’re correct about thinking I was not there for you, I wasn’t comforting you enough, I know what you thought about me before, I know what everyone thinks about me. No one gets me, lie that you do, I know you don’t get me, no one knows how much times I lock myself in my room and just rip my thoughts out of my brain but I can’t, it’s hopeless. I try over and over again to make people satisfied but I can’t, sometimes I don’t get them. You can’t help anyone no matter how hard you try, they do it over and over. I feel like I’m drowning in a abyss of loneliness. Laugh at me all you want but I’m a human too, I feel things like you. No one knows anything about me, I change my personality everyday and hope I can find myself, but it doesn’t work. I feel ugly every time I do this, and I feel horrible. I don’t want to be a mistake, I just want to belong somewhere without having to hide who I really am, and it hurts. I look in the mirror and think I look hideous and I make fun of myself. Notice you could comfort me, but I won’t heal. It’s all my fault. I cry randomly just because I remember those horrible thoughts of what I said to someone, and I know they hate me. They think I’m overreacting because of it, and I’m sick of it. So let me make some things clear, I’m not trying to be the center of attention, I’m not growing out of this, and I will always remember what you said and did to me.
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