I have gone through to so much lately, as some of you already know by my last video, the ever so joyful dog you have seen so many times at the end of my videos got incredibly ill in a matter of a day, this 2nd of June I woke up and I found vomit on the carpet that was under her bed, she was looking very healthy the last day and we started doing a change of her food so I thought it was that and I didn’t think much of it. However, later that same day I found out she wasn’t recovering her appetite and only wanted to sleep, I looked at her and found out that her tummy and eyes were looking yellow, she had jaundice… which meant liver problems, the reasons could be several, so I took her to the vet and he told me it could be something very bad, but because it was late the people that did the blood tests weren’t there and that they could do it the next day, I had to go back to my house, luckily is was near, because I couldn’t hold my tears, I was so afraid of what could happen to her, I was really thinking of the worst and I felt helpless and I wasn’t going to wait, I called many places, but no one was offering blood tests and no one even told me where I could find a place to do it, they just told me to wait to the next day and reserve a date for the exams… luckily in my search I found a clinic that did all the test my dog needed, the blood tests showed that she was indeed having a liver problem and also her kidneys were not looking good either, they recommended me to leave her at the vet so they could try to treat her and check better what did she have, I was so heartbroken because I felt I was leaving her, but it was what I had to do, she needed to be in better hands in other to get better. Later, they called me and told me that she had gallbladder stones and could be operated, but because of her state and her age it was too risky and she could die while being operated, so they needed to stabilize her first and she wasn’t eating or drinking. Sadly, even though they tried, this Saturday 4th of june, they called me and told me she was doing really bad, so I ran over the clinic as fast as I could, it was raining and I was thinking that it could be the last time I saw her, I didn’t want to not be there with her in her last moments so I didn’t stop running even when I was losing my breath and the rain was pouring over my face. I managed to get in time, I saw her, she didn’t even looked at me but I saw and felt all the pain she was going through. I realized at that moment that I needed to take the hardest decision, I started crying and barely could ask the vet to put her to sleep, because she was suffering too much. The vet let me be with her a few minutes before, I couldn’t hold my tears, I told her that I was sorry, that I did all that I could… but I put myself in her place, I tried to imagine what she was looking, I didn’t want her to see me sad, I tried to pull myself together and started talking to her gently, trying to comfort her like when I used to pet her, she deserved that kind of goodbye…
Then the vet came and asked me if she could start the process, I said yes, because even though I really didn’t want to, my dog didn’t deserve to continue suffering. The drugs put her to sleep pretty quickly so at least her pain ended quickly, but that exact moment was the last time I saw life in her eyes…
I am sorry, I was doing a bit better now, but writing this made me cry again so much… it pains me so much to think that I couldn’t be with her all the time I wanted when she was at the vet… I miss her so much, my only consolation is that she is finally resting in peace
GiovyHobby
I have gone through to so much lately, as some of you already know by my last video, the ever so joyful dog you have seen so many times at the end of my videos got incredibly ill in a matter of a day, this 2nd of June I woke up and I found vomit on the carpet that was under her bed, she was looking very healthy the last day and we started doing a change of her food so I thought it was that and I didn’t think much of it. However, later that same day I found out she wasn’t recovering her appetite and only wanted to sleep, I looked at her and found out that her tummy and eyes were looking yellow, she had jaundice… which meant liver problems, the reasons could be several, so I took her to the vet and he told me it could be something very bad, but because it was late the people that did the blood tests weren’t there and that they could do it the next day, I had to go back to my house, luckily is was near, because I couldn’t hold my tears, I was so afraid of what could happen to her, I was really thinking of the worst and I felt helpless and I wasn’t going to wait, I called many places, but no one was offering blood tests and no one even told me where I could find a place to do it, they just told me to wait to the next day and reserve a date for the exams… luckily in my search I found a clinic that did all the test my dog needed, the blood tests showed that she was indeed having a liver problem and also her kidneys were not looking good either, they recommended me to leave her at the vet so they could try to treat her and check better what did she have, I was so heartbroken because I felt I was leaving her, but it was what I had to do, she needed to be in better hands in other to get better. Later, they called me and told me that she had gallbladder stones and could be operated, but because of her state and her age it was too risky and she could die while being operated, so they needed to stabilize her first and she wasn’t eating or drinking. Sadly, even though they tried, this Saturday 4th of june, they called me and told me she was doing really bad, so I ran over the clinic as fast as I could, it was raining and I was thinking that it could be the last time I saw her, I didn’t want to not be there with her in her last moments so I didn’t stop running even when I was losing my breath and the rain was pouring over my face. I managed to get in time, I saw her, she didn’t even looked at me but I saw and felt all the pain she was going through. I realized at that moment that I needed to take the hardest decision, I started crying and barely could ask the vet to put her to sleep, because she was suffering too much. The vet let me be with her a few minutes before, I couldn’t hold my tears, I told her that I was sorry, that I did all that I could… but I put myself in her place, I tried to imagine what she was looking, I didn’t want her to see me sad, I tried to pull myself together and started talking to her gently, trying to comfort her like when I used to pet her, she deserved that kind of goodbye…
Then the vet came and asked me if she could start the process, I said yes, because even though I really didn’t want to, my dog didn’t deserve to continue suffering. The drugs put her to sleep pretty quickly so at least her pain ended quickly, but that exact moment was the last time I saw life in her eyes…
I am sorry, I was doing a bit better now, but writing this made me cry again so much… it pains me so much to think that I couldn’t be with her all the time I wanted when she was at the vet… I miss her so much, my only consolation is that she is finally resting in peace
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