I haven't been posting on here because this channel and the character I play in the videos is the embodiment of rejection and self hatred. I started making these videos over the summer when I was bored and I had nowhere else to put my energy. With the way I grew up, I always dealt with stress in my life by making jokes and acting like I was indifferent to everything. How I act in these videos is the embodiment of that emotion, just laughing at everything and trying to make the situation less serious. I used words and phrases like geekcity to numb myself and it got to the point where I would just start saying it in my head throughout the day. Rap culture was how I escaped from the pain, the music was loud which let me get my energy out, and rappers were always cool and nonchalant (or presented themselves that way.) I wanted to be like that, so I started to copy their mannerisms and phrases, and wrapped that with the feeling of masking my pain with humor to make the character/persona I am in these videos.
I’ve always felt like I was just a little too old, or serious, or just not like the people around me. That’s why I make these occasional motivational posts. I don’t want anyone to feel like I did back then. I had never really had that many friends, so the energy that would have gone to them went to the videos instead which is why we were able to make so many at one point. But this year I met someone who completely changed my life, and introduced me to all her friends, and I finally felt like I really had a great group of people who I wanted to give value to. This was around late august to the middle of September when making the videos became a lot harder.
When I was yelling at the rain in the Andrew Tate video, I was genuinely losing my mind because I felt like my energy was trapped making these videos rather than giving it to my friends. When we tried to record the Kris Tyson video the first time, my recording software bugged out and only recorded the first frame and I completely crashed out. It felt like a battle between the old way I lived where I was sedentary and stuck on a screen vs. the serene person I knew I could be. If you really want a quick summary of this, listen to track 9 on my new album “Who is Noble?” Finally meeting these people gave me a responsibility to be human and be present in the world because I felt like I could use that creative and uplifting energy to make them feel loved instead of channeling it into youtube videos. It was hard on Sauce and Radish as well, sauce especially. I just can’t bring myself to be that old person I used to be in these videos. My whole new album is basically about how I've really found myself and never want to go back to who I used to be. I finally feel real in this world and through the love I found for others, I destroyed the hate that I used to make these videos.
This is current Noble signing off, this will either be the end of the channel, or i’ll come back in a healthier form and we’ll continue. I’m still weighing what we should do. Thank you guys for all the support, I’m happy that these videos made you laugh and could have helped act as an escape from the troubles of life. We actually have a couple videos planned for Noble- that should be up by the end of the month too, so this isn’t the end.
Happy Holidays
Noble+
I haven't been posting on here because this channel and the character I play in the videos is the embodiment of rejection and self hatred. I started making these videos over the summer when I was bored and I had nowhere else to put my energy. With the way I grew up, I always dealt with stress in my life by making jokes and acting like I was indifferent to everything. How I act in these videos is the embodiment of that emotion, just laughing at everything and trying to make the situation less serious. I used words and phrases like geekcity to numb myself and it got to the point where I would just start saying it in my head throughout the day. Rap culture was how I escaped from the pain, the music was loud which let me get my energy out, and rappers were always cool and nonchalant (or presented themselves that way.) I wanted to be like that, so I started to copy their mannerisms and phrases, and wrapped that with the feeling of masking my pain with humor to make the character/persona I am in these videos.
I’ve always felt like I was just a little too old, or serious, or just not like the people around me. That’s why I make these occasional motivational posts. I don’t want anyone to feel like I did back then. I had never really had that many friends, so the energy that would have gone to them went to the videos instead which is why we were able to make so many at one point. But this year I met someone who completely changed my life, and introduced me to all her friends, and I finally felt like I really had a great group of people who I wanted to give value to. This was around late august to the middle of September when making the videos became a lot harder.
When I was yelling at the rain in the Andrew Tate video, I was genuinely losing my mind because I felt like my energy was trapped making these videos rather than giving it to my friends. When we tried to record the Kris Tyson video the first time, my recording software bugged out and only recorded the first frame and I completely crashed out. It felt like a battle between the old way I lived where I was sedentary and stuck on a screen vs. the serene person I knew I could be. If you really want a quick summary of this, listen to track 9 on my new album “Who is Noble?” Finally meeting these people gave me a responsibility to be human and be present in the world because I felt like I could use that creative and uplifting energy to make them feel loved instead of channeling it into youtube videos. It was hard on Sauce and Radish as well, sauce especially. I just can’t bring myself to be that old person I used to be in these videos. My whole new album is basically about how I've really found myself and never want to go back to who I used to be. I finally feel real in this world and through the love I found for others, I destroyed the hate that I used to make these videos.
This is current Noble signing off, this will either be the end of the channel, or i’ll come back in a healthier form and we’ll continue. I’m still weighing what we should do. Thank you guys for all the support, I’m happy that these videos made you laugh and could have helped act as an escape from the troubles of life. We actually have a couple videos planned for Noble- that should be up by the end of the month too, so this isn’t the end.
Happy Holidays
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