When I was eight years old, my life changed forever. I was assaulted by people I trusted—two of them, my own family. At the same time, I was exposed to disgusting content that no child should ever see. It planted a darkness inside me that I didn’t fully understand for years. Growing up, I carried this trauma like a weight I couldn’t shake. It affected everything. I became insecure, doubting myself and feeling too broken to connect with others. I was too shy to speak up, too afraid to establish relationships, and even when I tried dating, my past held me back. It even affected me physically, leading to ED at a young age, which only added to the shame and insecurity. Long story short, P*rn destroys your brain and body.
One day, I decided to open up to someone I was dating, thinking maybe sharing my truth would help. But when I didn’t give her what she wanted, she used my trauma against me in anger, throwing it back in my face. That was when my hatred for people grew, and I isolated myself. I felt betrayed and alone, like my pain was something to be weaponized. For years, I carried that anger, that bitterness, and it consumed me.
But now, at 25, I’ve faced the demon that did this to me. I confronted the trauma, and it felt like a massive weight lifted off my shoulders. It wasn’t easy—there were moments when I didn’t think I could do it. But I realized that the only way to reclaim my life was to confront the pain, not run from it. I learned that healing starts when you decide to take back the power that was taken from you. When you choose to face the truth, no matter how painful it is, you free yourself from the chains that hold you back.
To anyone reading this who’s been through something similar—whether you’re dealing with abuse, addiction, or the aftermath of trauma—you are not alone. I know how hard it is to carry that pain and how it feels to doubt yourself and isolate from the world. But I want you to know that there is strength inside you that you haven’t even tapped into yet. The same energy that pain uses to hold you down can be transformed into fuel for your recovery and growth.
Here’s what helped me, and I hope it helps you too:
Acknowledge the Pain: Stop running from it. Allow yourself to feel and acknowledge what happened. It’s not about blaming yourself or anyone else—it’s about owning your story and recognizing that it doesn’t define you.
Find a Healthy Outlet: For me, it was fitness. Every time I felt overwhelmed, I put that energy into lifting weights or running. It was a way to channel my anger into something productive. Find what works for you, whether it’s exercise, art, writing, or something that helps you release that built-up tension.
Set Boundaries: Surround yourself with people who support your healing journey and cut off those who use your vulnerability against you. You deserve to have people around who lift you up, not tear you down.
Seek Support: Whether it’s a therapist, a trusted friend, or an online community, don’t be afraid to reach out. You don’t have to go through this alone, and there is strength in asking for help.
Be Patient with Yourself: Healing isn’t linear. There will be ups and downs, but every small step counts. Celebrate the progress, no matter how small it seems.
You have the power to transform your pain into something meaningful. You’re stronger than you know, and you’re not alone in this journey. Keep pushing forward. It’s time to reclaim your life, find your strength, and become the person you were always meant to be.
Flex God
From Pain to Power: Reclaiming My Life
When I was eight years old, my life changed forever. I was assaulted by people I trusted—two of them, my own family. At the same time, I was exposed to disgusting content that no child should ever see. It planted a darkness inside me that I didn’t fully understand for years. Growing up, I carried this trauma like a weight I couldn’t shake. It affected everything. I became insecure, doubting myself and feeling too broken to connect with others. I was too shy to speak up, too afraid to establish relationships, and even when I tried dating, my past held me back. It even affected me physically, leading to ED at a young age, which only added to the shame and insecurity. Long story short, P*rn destroys your brain and body.
One day, I decided to open up to someone I was dating, thinking maybe sharing my truth would help. But when I didn’t give her what she wanted, she used my trauma against me in anger, throwing it back in my face. That was when my hatred for people grew, and I isolated myself. I felt betrayed and alone, like my pain was something to be weaponized. For years, I carried that anger, that bitterness, and it consumed me.
But now, at 25, I’ve faced the demon that did this to me. I confronted the trauma, and it felt like a massive weight lifted off my shoulders. It wasn’t easy—there were moments when I didn’t think I could do it. But I realized that the only way to reclaim my life was to confront the pain, not run from it. I learned that healing starts when you decide to take back the power that was taken from you. When you choose to face the truth, no matter how painful it is, you free yourself from the chains that hold you back.
To anyone reading this who’s been through something similar—whether you’re dealing with abuse, addiction, or the aftermath of trauma—you are not alone. I know how hard it is to carry that pain and how it feels to doubt yourself and isolate from the world. But I want you to know that there is strength inside you that you haven’t even tapped into yet. The same energy that pain uses to hold you down can be transformed into fuel for your recovery and growth.
Here’s what helped me, and I hope it helps you too:
Acknowledge the Pain: Stop running from it. Allow yourself to feel and acknowledge what happened. It’s not about blaming yourself or anyone else—it’s about owning your story and recognizing that it doesn’t define you.
Find a Healthy Outlet: For me, it was fitness. Every time I felt overwhelmed, I put that energy into lifting weights or running. It was a way to channel my anger into something productive. Find what works for you, whether it’s exercise, art, writing, or something that helps you release that built-up tension.
Set Boundaries: Surround yourself with people who support your healing journey and cut off those who use your vulnerability against you. You deserve to have people around who lift you up, not tear you down.
Seek Support: Whether it’s a therapist, a trusted friend, or an online community, don’t be afraid to reach out. You don’t have to go through this alone, and there is strength in asking for help.
Be Patient with Yourself: Healing isn’t linear. There will be ups and downs, but every small step counts. Celebrate the progress, no matter how small it seems.
You have the power to transform your pain into something meaningful. You’re stronger than you know, and you’re not alone in this journey. Keep pushing forward. It’s time to reclaim your life, find your strength, and become the person you were always meant to be.
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