This woman in this picture right here, I don't deserve her because I'm a big ass. Some know but most don't know but me and Aya got into it over something she said. Short version, she said if this country goes to Hell, at least she has the option to go back to France. That's how she worded it, she didn't say she would go or she definitely will go but at the time, it's how I took it. How I reacted was pretty stupid too. It got so bad that I left and have been staying at my sister's place the last 3 or so weeks. I feel like an even bigger ass because I left her at home by herself and she's still dealing with her broken fibula and needs/needed my help with a lot of stuff she can't do until her docs clear her. When I was in the hospital a long while back, she was there at my bedside and wouldn't ever leave. She was there when I needed her and did so voluntarily and here I am, when she needed me, I bailed on her over something that may or may not happen. That makes me feel like an even bigger ass because of that. I failed her.
I was never good at these relationship things which is partly why I got into the life I got into. It was simpler that way. Then Aya comes along and ends up turning all of that on its head. I still remember the night we met. She comes into the club and she caught my eye right away. Two reasons, 1, the woman is just absofuckinglutely gorgeous and 2, her outfit made her stick out like a sore thumb. In a dance club, the outfit was perfect and it hugged every flawless curve on her gorgeous thick body. But for the club we were at, she was overdressed. The look on her face was priceless, she had this, "What the fuck did I just walk into?" look on her face. I chuckled at that thought. I hadn't spoke s single word to her at this point and she already was making me smile. I decided I was going to keep an eye on her throughout the night because 1, she was definitely new there and two, she's too gorgeous to take my eyes off of her. That kind of beauty deserves to be drank in. The Gift Of Aya, drink it in maaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnn! 😂 So that was my plan, to just watch her for the night. Things changed quickly because another gal approached her to talk to her. This particular gal is pretty unsavory in our community, pretty extreme, takes things too far and had a tendency to ignore safewords. Collectively, we all had an agreement that if she was seen trying to acquire a new sub, we were to intercept them and save them from her. Nobody deserves the shit that woman put people through. Somehow I was the only one that noticed this, how, I'm not sure but at this club, there's always something going on. So I made my move, got Aya away from her and the rest is history. I remember getting her away, being close enough to smell the combination of her shampoo, conditioner, body wash and perfume...,I can close my eyes and still remember smelling that for the first time all over again.
I've prided myself for the things I've taught her in this life I/we've chose for ourselves and she has taught me so much. One lesson I didn't put to good use. Her staying with me in the hospital, never bailing on me when I needed her the most...., I hate that I apparently didn't learn that's lesson because I didn't return the favor of sticking by her when she needed me. Since we've been together, yesterday was the first Valentine's Day we didn't spend together which sucks because I did get her some stuff I know she would enjoy. I sent her a few messages but she never messaged me back..., I don't blame her, I wouldn't message me back either. I don't know what the future holds for me and Aya or if there is a future at all. If there isn't, I wouldn't blame her. She has the big ass and I am the big ass
Mistress Mischa Stoner-Raines
This woman in this picture right here, I don't deserve her because I'm a big ass. Some know but most don't know but me and Aya got into it over something she said. Short version, she said if this country goes to Hell, at least she has the option to go back to France. That's how she worded it, she didn't say she would go or she definitely will go but at the time, it's how I took it. How I reacted was pretty stupid too. It got so bad that I left and have been staying at my sister's place the last 3 or so weeks. I feel like an even bigger ass because I left her at home by herself and she's still dealing with her broken fibula and needs/needed my help with a lot of stuff she can't do until her docs clear her. When I was in the hospital a long while back, she was there at my bedside and wouldn't ever leave. She was there when I needed her and did so voluntarily and here I am, when she needed me, I bailed on her over something that may or may not happen. That makes me feel like an even bigger ass because of that. I failed her.
I was never good at these relationship things which is partly why I got into the life I got into. It was simpler that way. Then Aya comes along and ends up turning all of that on its head. I still remember the night we met. She comes into the club and she caught my eye right away. Two reasons, 1, the woman is just absofuckinglutely gorgeous and 2, her outfit made her stick out like a sore thumb. In a dance club, the outfit was perfect and it hugged every flawless curve on her gorgeous thick body. But for the club we were at, she was overdressed. The look on her face was priceless, she had this, "What the fuck did I just walk into?" look on her face. I chuckled at that thought. I hadn't spoke s single word to her at this point and she already was making me smile. I decided I was going to keep an eye on her throughout the night because 1, she was definitely new there and two, she's too gorgeous to take my eyes off of her. That kind of beauty deserves to be drank in. The Gift Of Aya, drink it in maaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnn! 😂 So that was my plan, to just watch her for the night. Things changed quickly because another gal approached her to talk to her. This particular gal is pretty unsavory in our community, pretty extreme, takes things too far and had a tendency to ignore safewords. Collectively, we all had an agreement that if she was seen trying to acquire a new sub, we were to intercept them and save them from her. Nobody deserves the shit that woman put people through. Somehow I was the only one that noticed this, how, I'm not sure but at this club, there's always something going on. So I made my move, got Aya away from her and the rest is history. I remember getting her away, being close enough to smell the combination of her shampoo, conditioner, body wash and perfume...,I can close my eyes and still remember smelling that for the first time all over again.
I've prided myself for the things I've taught her in this life I/we've chose for ourselves and she has taught me so much. One lesson I didn't put to good use. Her staying with me in the hospital, never bailing on me when I needed her the most...., I hate that I apparently didn't learn that's lesson because I didn't return the favor of sticking by her when she needed me. Since we've been together, yesterday was the first Valentine's Day we didn't spend together which sucks because I did get her some stuff I know she would enjoy. I sent her a few messages but she never messaged me back..., I don't blame her, I wouldn't message me back either. I don't know what the future holds for me and Aya or if there is a future at all. If there isn't, I wouldn't blame her. She has the big ass and I am the big ass
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