i lowkey wish i was suicidal like wtf is the point of having depression when i can't kms like ive wanted to for a long time but im scared of kms so no matter how on the edge i am ill literally still be alive i js wna ask a family member to stab me in the stomach but then wht if they sya im insane nd spread rumors to the rest of te family n i live being called an ayuma (it means crazy woman/gorl) im so sick of ppl in my life literally the only living thing tht makes me smile js by looking at her is my cat n like evenif i wanted to kms i'd need a gun cus ion wna feel physical pain i js wna get it over with i have the urge to open the window n jump but my house has two floors or wtv u call it so ill prb break my bones n like cry bc it hurts like how tf do u die i wanted to overdose w pills but my cat's prb preg again im seeing the same symptoms so ill stay n maybe if the kittens grow up n actually live ill be happier but another part of me i think im going crazy bcs they died n im seeing things tf someone js send me to a mental hospital or smth
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i lowkey wish i was suicidal like wtf is the point of having depression when i can't kms like ive wanted to for a long time but im scared of kms so no matter how on the edge i am ill literally still be alive i js wna ask a family member to stab me in the stomach but then wht if they sya im insane nd spread rumors to the rest of te family n i live being called an ayuma (it means crazy woman/gorl) im so sick of ppl in my life literally the only living thing tht makes me smile js by looking at her is my cat n like evenif i wanted to kms i'd need a gun cus ion wna feel physical pain i js wna get it over with i have the urge to open the window n jump but my house has two floors or wtv u call it so ill prb break my bones n like cry bc it hurts like how tf do u die i wanted to overdose w pills but my cat's prb preg again im seeing the same symptoms so ill stay n maybe if the kittens grow up n actually live ill be happier but another part of me i think im going crazy bcs they died n im seeing things tf someone js send me to a mental hospital or smth
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