I'd like to apologize for the deafening silence this last week, and to say that I'm okay, I haven't suddenly dropped off the face of the Earth or something. I'd also like to say that I'm not *just* sulking over the audiolog thing, this is something that's been building for a long, long time, and the audiolog problem just sort of underlined it for me.
I've been subjecting myself to a completely unfair amount of stress over the Let's Plays, putting so much pressure on myself that it's crippling my ability to do this.
Let me be ABSOLUTELY clear: I am not throwing in the towel or saying goodbye, I do NOT want to stop doing this, I just want to get my head into a healthier place so that the LPs can be lighthearted, charming, and most of all FUN again! I don't want to find myself procrastinating a recording session as if it were my job or homework or something, I want to be super impatient to get to the next recording session so I can jump back into a cool, fun experience and continue sharing it with you guys.
When I pick the next game to LP, I try to pick one with different characteristics from the previous one so that I, the player, and you, the audience, don't get burned out on some aspect of it. Like not following a horror game with a different horror game, or trying to avoid a first-person shooter immediately after another FPS.
I mention that part because as an example of the pressure, at some point, picking the "right" game, with different characteristics from the previous one, unconsciously became more important than which game I *wanted* to play next, which one excited me most or seemed the most fun. And that doesn't feel right at all.
I considered putting Halo 3: ODST directly after Spider-Man, for example, but got caught up in the fact that both games take place primarily in sprawling, urban cities, and that one thematic similarity was somehow more important than the fact that I love the Halo franchise, and that an FPS is extremely different from a third-person superhero game.
I'm not entirely sure what the solution is, so I'm taking it one day at a time and trying to be very aware of my thought processes surrounding the Let's Plays, since this whole problem built up so gradually I didn't even notice until it got bad. I like to think I've already taken important steps, like showing myself that this isn't a quota, it doesn't have deadlines, because here we are, almost a full week without uploads, and you're all being very understanding, with no complaints! Thanks for that, by the by.
So I'm gonna keep trying to find my way through this, and when the time is right (hopefully very soon!), I'll return to finish off ODST, and then jump into, frankly, whatever the hell I want to play next!
Until then, know that you've got my support and that I'm thinking of you, and have yourselves a fantastic day, BurningDogFans!
BurningDogFace
Hey there, BurningDogFans!
I'd like to apologize for the deafening silence this last week, and to say that I'm okay, I haven't suddenly dropped off the face of the Earth or something. I'd also like to say that I'm not *just* sulking over the audiolog thing, this is something that's been building for a long, long time, and the audiolog problem just sort of underlined it for me.
I've been subjecting myself to a completely unfair amount of stress over the Let's Plays, putting so much pressure on myself that it's crippling my ability to do this.
Let me be ABSOLUTELY clear: I am not throwing in the towel or saying goodbye, I do NOT want to stop doing this, I just want to get my head into a healthier place so that the LPs can be lighthearted, charming, and most of all FUN again! I don't want to find myself procrastinating a recording session as if it were my job or homework or something, I want to be super impatient to get to the next recording session so I can jump back into a cool, fun experience and continue sharing it with you guys.
When I pick the next game to LP, I try to pick one with different characteristics from the previous one so that I, the player, and you, the audience, don't get burned out on some aspect of it. Like not following a horror game with a different horror game, or trying to avoid a first-person shooter immediately after another FPS.
I mention that part because as an example of the pressure, at some point, picking the "right" game, with different characteristics from the previous one, unconsciously became more important than which game I *wanted* to play next, which one excited me most or seemed the most fun. And that doesn't feel right at all.
I considered putting Halo 3: ODST directly after Spider-Man, for example, but got caught up in the fact that both games take place primarily in sprawling, urban cities, and that one thematic similarity was somehow more important than the fact that I love the Halo franchise, and that an FPS is extremely different from a third-person superhero game.
I'm not entirely sure what the solution is, so I'm taking it one day at a time and trying to be very aware of my thought processes surrounding the Let's Plays, since this whole problem built up so gradually I didn't even notice until it got bad. I like to think I've already taken important steps, like showing myself that this isn't a quota, it doesn't have deadlines, because here we are, almost a full week without uploads, and you're all being very understanding, with no complaints! Thanks for that, by the by.
So I'm gonna keep trying to find my way through this, and when the time is right (hopefully very soon!), I'll return to finish off ODST, and then jump into, frankly, whatever the hell I want to play next!
Until then, know that you've got my support and that I'm thinking of you, and have yourselves a fantastic day, BurningDogFans!
-BurningDogFace
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