I respect that you take full responsibility for your actions, however well intended they were at the time, and recognize that what happened was inexcusable and harmful to the other person
2 years ago | 126
I wasn't going to make a comment but... I found your channel years ago back when I was younger and going through tough times. You videos made me laugh... They opened my eyes to the world of theorizing about shows and such. To know this was going on behind the scenes hurt me, I really do wish the victim is doing okay now and is recovering well I can't really say how I feel about this fully but I am disappointed very much so
2 years ago | 306
Hey guys what’s up how’s the party going? I brought the pizza, the candy, and WHAT THE FU-
2 years ago | 8
I'm shocked and upset but its very brave and takes a lot of courage to fess up to a mistake. I'm sad to see your content go but i respect and understand the decision. It doesn't make any of this ok but it is a good start to fixing your mistakes. I honestly hope the victim is doing alright and i praise the mother for her realization of what was going on and stepping in to help a young teen who didn't know what was happening wasn't ok. I definitely know some parents who don't monitor their children's social media at all so its nice to see someone making sure there kid is safe. The internet is awesome but also gross, scary, extremely inappropriate and dangerous if you aren't careful. To the victim i wish them best of luck and support and one day i hope they find a real relationship. To Sawtooth im not going to say much other than Its not ok what you did and its definitely never ok to peruse romance with a minor unless also a minor yourself. And I hope you can sort out your problems and come to peace with the victim, the mother, the viewers and the mistakes. You Cant change what you did Sawtooth but i do wish you best of luck.
2 years ago (edited) | 194
This hurts even more that they were doing this, while making my little pony videos.
2 years ago | 5
I-I can’t even comprehend what just happened you were my childhood and I wish so deeply that this wasn’t true and we could just go back to how it was. your posts always made me and others so happy. so I’m sad to hear this happening. But I’m glad you told your fandom instead of lying I really hope the victim is feeling better and getting better and I hope as well you heal too. Because it hurts me and other to see you this way. I hold my condolences to the victims. Good bye sawtooth.
2 years ago (edited) | 305
You either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the villain...
2 years ago | 25
Thank you for your honesty.. It's sad to see all your content gone and the once happy pony creator leave this community.. but i do understand why you had to do so and i fully support this decision.. i hope all the best for the victim, and i hope you do better in life as well. This is a big step for both of you. Please please do better..
2 years ago | 245
Just in the future. DON’T TALK TO MINORS. You can still heart their comments and say “thank you” or say that you’re appreciative of their support. THAT’S IT. Nothing more. Just keep it short and sweet and don’t go too far on what you did to the 15 year old Stay humble and learn from your mistakes
2 years ago | 388
For once I thought I had found a MLP creator that wasn't annoying or toxic... You aren't that. But something else. Thank you for apologizing for what you have done and confessing. If you feel suicidal, or these attractions again, pls seek medical help. Please.
2 years ago | 93
A part of me wants to search up every video you’ve ever taken even a small part in but another part of me finds it too sickening to even hear your voice again. I’m sorry something so horrible had to happen and I hope you two can both move on and live better lives after all this settles down and become a thing of the past. Goodbye Sawtooth Waves.
2 years ago (edited) | 7
Idk what to say. I don't know..... I hope the victim and you both can heal. Idk if ur truly sorry but if you are I hope that you can find help and maybe peace.
2 years ago | 16
Honestly...all I can say is, I'm hoping you'll get proper help in the future.
2 years ago | 7
Sawtooth Waves
confession and apology (2 of 2)
because of my arrogance, i used up the most formatively important years of their life on a connection that didn't have a chance of being healthy. if this had happened to me at 15, i can only begin to imagine how much worse i'd be for it. i realize now that staying close was a continued abuse of my power. once i realized how serious, i should have immediately worked towards dismantling our connection, not trying to make it a healthy one. i should have questioned whether that goal was good or even possible. i'm not sure how i would have gone about dismantling something so big, but even if it took months to do, that's still better than the years of their life that i wasted instead.
they're still grappling with the many consequences of what i've done, and they will be for a long time. one of the ways they've decided to deal with this is by making their story public. they have good reasons for doing this and i support them fully. they've had time to reflect on what happened and it was getting harder to heal as my influence grew, watching more and more people unknowingly praise the person who hurt them so deeply. coming forward has been truly scary and emotionally grueling for them so i ask that you respect their privacy and show them nothing but love and support.
it shouldn't have to be said, but since this is the internet, if anyone wants to defend me against them, just don't. you’re wrong, i should've been the responsible adult and public figure, full stop. i want absolutely nothing to do with victim blamers or anyone like that. the fault is on me for wronging them, not on them for exposing my wrongs. whatever happens to me is literally just the consequences of my actions.
i also recognize that this news will hurt more than just me. i want to make clear that absolutely none of the people i've worked with knew anything about what i had done. to those creators, i'm so terribly sorry. you're all wonderful people who deserve better, and i hope the memory of our past association doesn't hurt your reputation beyond repair.
i'm sorry to everyone else who will be hurt by this, to everyone who has to reckon with previously happy memories of me going sour, to anyone who now can't help but associate me with their own pain from abuse. i know this will really sting as a community. you've had to watch it too many times and i can't describe how ashamed i am to be a part of that ugly history.
i'm also sorry for hiding this for as long as i have. i knew that if word ever got out, i could never be trusted again. i didn't want that for obvious reasons, but also because i know i'm not a threat. i understand the weight of the responsibilities i have as an adult and public figure, and like any healthy adult, i've long since grown out of that possibility of attachment and attraction in the first place. however i understand that only those close to me can know that for certain. this community needs to be hypervigilant against abuse, and i get that it's better safe than sorry. i dont know what exactly this means for me going forward but here are some of the steps i'll be taking regardless.
-i'm leaving youtube indefinitely. for the foreseeable future, all videos have been removed from public viewing.
-i'm closing my discord server and deactivating my youtube discord account.
-i'm shutting down my patreon. i cannot blanket refund everyone, but upon request i will send back via paypal to everyone who regrets supporting me in light of what i did. please send your paypal in patreon dms from the account you used to pledge. if you want a refund for tshirts, bandcamp purchases, or discord turbos, dm me on twitter or instagram with your paypal and any proof of purchase.
-once refunds are sorted out, i'm closing all dms on all accounts. if i ever speak as sawtooth waves again, it will all be in the public eye.
i sincerely apologize to all affected by this, but most of all, i humbly apologize to the victim. they deserve so so much better, and i feel truly immense regret, guilt, and shame for what i did. i'm so very sorry, and my greatest hope is that they find the healing they deserve. they're the only one who can truly forgive me, and i hope one day they do.
2 years ago | [YT] | 1,557