This is just a little vent from me about things, if you dont mind...
My life feels like an absolute mess at the moment. There is so much change, my mum could have my baby brother any day now, im suddenly also having a lot of anxiety im trying to manage. Issues in the world are making me awfully stressed and just... Angry - if anything.
Im having struggles with hiding things from my parents, like how i identify myself as genderfluid, and how im most likely pansexual, but of course, im scared as to what they would say (My dads pretty chill tho, more my mums side of the family...). Ive also converted from my mums religion of being a catholic, to being a lokian (Happy to explain what that is for anyone if wondering <3), and am struggling with her not catching the hints that im not interested...
There are so many other things that i wont go into, but overall, there is just a lot going on right now.
And on top of all that, i feel like my channel is dying. Im not posting much, and while im not stopping and will still post when i can, its really disheartening to see the videos i make go from the usual 200 - 1000 views, to only 60 views. Not many people comment any more, not many people like anymore, not many people watch anymore to appreciate editors hard work, and it just feels terrible. Its baffling to me how i can have 1050 subscribers, but only 50 - 100 of that 1050 actually watch. Of course, we all have busy lives, but mentally, its just a bit frustrating.
My latest video, for example, took me 3 - 4 weeks to complete, due to lack of motivation, being busy, and a range of other things. Its safe to say i worked really hard on it, and as of when im typing this, it stands at:
- Views: 129 (used to be only 70 just a day ago lol) - Likes: 10 - Dislikes: 1 (Luckily!)
Anyways, sorry for the vent guys <3 Hope your all ok! Especially @Quit, hope your doing alr girly, ill miss u!
𝑉𝑖𝐿४𝑘𝑖𝑑𝑜𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑟
Hey my wondrous Mischief Makers,
How are you all?
This is just a little vent from me about things, if you dont mind...
My life feels like an absolute mess at the moment. There is so much change, my mum could have my baby brother any day now, im suddenly also having a lot of anxiety im trying to manage. Issues in the world are making me awfully stressed and just... Angry - if anything.
Im having struggles with hiding things from my parents, like how i identify myself as genderfluid, and how im most likely pansexual, but of course, im scared as to what they would say (My dads pretty chill tho, more my mums side of the family...). Ive also converted from my mums religion of being a catholic, to being a lokian (Happy to explain what that is for anyone if wondering <3), and am struggling with her not catching the hints that im not interested...
There are so many other things that i wont go into, but overall, there is just a lot going on right now.
And on top of all that, i feel like my channel is dying. Im not posting much, and while im not stopping and will still post when i can, its really disheartening to see the videos i make go from the usual 200 - 1000 views, to only 60 views. Not many people comment any more, not many people like anymore, not many people watch anymore to appreciate editors hard work, and it just feels terrible. Its baffling to me how i can have 1050 subscribers, but only 50 - 100 of that 1050 actually watch. Of course, we all have busy lives, but mentally, its just a bit frustrating.
My latest video, for example, took me 3 - 4 weeks to complete, due to lack of motivation, being busy, and a range of other things. Its safe to say i worked really hard on it, and as of when im typing this, it stands at:
- Views: 129 (used to be only 70 just a day ago lol)
- Likes: 10
- Dislikes: 1 (Luckily!)
Anyways, sorry for the vent guys <3 Hope your all ok! Especially @Quit, hope your doing alr girly, ill miss u!
- Vi
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