For Anyone Who Is Wondering Why I Have Not Been Active Lately:
At the moment, I’m struggling with my mental health. Over the last year, I’ve been run down and very depressed at work. For anyone who doesn’t know, I drive 8 wheel tipper trucks for a large haulage company in Ireland (I’m not going to mention the name of it for obvious reasons). I work and live in the truck from Monday to Friday at the moment. Since February, I’ve been put on a big road project in the middle of nowhere. There’s little to no facilities (toilets, showers, places to eat, etc). To add to this, the people on this job don’t treat me right. The men over the trucks on this project makes me feel I’m the worst driver in the place, despite being with the company longer than most lads (most are locals who joined the job when the project began). Then the machine drivers are roaring and shouting at us all because we might be literally an inch in the wrong place for them to unload rock, muck, chipping, etc. All these contributions has led to me being very low, stressed out and depressed. I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety for many years. I get extremely stressed out about silly little things. Since being moved there, I feel sick going to work every Sunday night / Monday morning. I’m always worried what’s going to happen this week. Also, back in May, the doctor told me I may have high blood pressure. This too has been stressing me out as I would fear I could lose my HGV license. I like driving trucks and it’s the only thing I know. The almost two and a half years with the company I’ve been with has been good, apart from this year. In turn, it’s caused me to lose interest in video making and editing. I’m really struggling at the moment. I don’t know when things will get better. I fear it could a long time before things get better. 2024 has been a horrible year for me. Apart from the trips to Glasgow and Manchester, there’s been little to say good that’s happened this year. I’ve been doing the odd bit of filming, but it has been a struggle to get the enthusiasm to do it.
Apologies for being miserable in this festival season, but I feel I had to clarify the situation I’m going through at the moment. Someone has commented on why I’ve been inactive lately.
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For Anyone Who Is Wondering Why I Have Not Been Active Lately:
At the moment, I’m struggling with my mental health. Over the last year, I’ve been run down and very depressed at work. For anyone who doesn’t know, I drive 8 wheel tipper trucks for a large haulage company in Ireland (I’m not going to mention the name of it for obvious reasons). I work and live in the truck from Monday to Friday at the moment. Since February, I’ve been put on a big road project in the middle of nowhere. There’s little to no facilities (toilets, showers, places to eat, etc). To add to this, the people on this job don’t treat me right. The men over the trucks on this project makes me feel I’m the worst driver in the place, despite being with the company longer than most lads (most are locals who joined the job when the project began). Then the machine drivers are roaring and shouting at us all because we might be literally an inch in the wrong place for them to unload rock, muck, chipping, etc. All these contributions has led to me being very low, stressed out and depressed. I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety for many years. I get extremely stressed out about silly little things. Since being moved there, I feel sick going to work every Sunday night / Monday morning. I’m always worried what’s going to happen this week. Also, back in May, the doctor told me I may have high blood pressure. This too has been stressing me out as I would fear I could lose my HGV license. I like driving trucks and it’s the only thing I know. The almost two and a half years with the company I’ve been with has been good, apart from this year. In turn, it’s caused me to lose interest in video making and editing. I’m really struggling at the moment. I don’t know when things will get better. I fear it could a long time before things get better. 2024 has been a horrible year for me. Apart from the trips to Glasgow and Manchester, there’s been little to say good that’s happened this year. I’ve been doing the odd bit of filming, but it has been a struggle to get the enthusiasm to do it.
Apologies for being miserable in this festival season, but I feel I had to clarify the situation I’m going through at the moment. Someone has commented on why I’ve been inactive lately.
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