*warning, suicidal, possible curses and harmful topics*
Am so done with life. Am so done trying. I try so hard to make my mother happy, my father happy, everyone happy. I try to edit and post what am passionate about but I can’t anymore. I just want to go back home. My real home, before I was born. To God. The words of my mother saying ‘your not my child’, ‘how aren’t you not my child’ and ‘your a fucking disappointment kid’ when she thought I wasn’t awake anymore ringing in my ear every time I have to do something. I have the words of my father saying ‘you’re a man, men don’t cry. Act your age and gender.’ … I was 7-13 when this all started. I can’t cry, I can’t show emotion, I can’t be who I am to my parents or household or family, I can’t even go to social media because ‘men are meant to be the stronger one in a relationship’ fuck off, the people who say that are people who are mostly girls and don’t get criticized for emotion. I just want to end it honestly, I don’t want to be here. I got told by a teacher, ‘your only at a C+ in my class, do better’ (last school year) but just a few weeks before that I had a 40 in that class. What’s the point of being a man.
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*warning, suicidal, possible curses and harmful topics*
Am so done with life. Am so done trying. I try so hard to make my mother happy, my father happy, everyone happy. I try to edit and post what am passionate about but I can’t anymore. I just want to go back home. My real home, before I was born. To God. The words of my mother saying ‘your not my child’, ‘how aren’t you not my child’ and ‘your a fucking disappointment kid’ when she thought I wasn’t awake anymore ringing in my ear every time I have to do something. I have the words of my father saying ‘you’re a man, men don’t cry. Act your age and gender.’ … I was 7-13 when this all started. I can’t cry, I can’t show emotion, I can’t be who I am to my parents or household or family, I can’t even go to social media because ‘men are meant to be the stronger one in a relationship’ fuck off, the people who say that are people who are mostly girls and don’t get criticized for emotion. I just want to end it honestly, I don’t want to be here. I got told by a teacher, ‘your only at a C+ in my class, do better’ (last school year) but just a few weeks before that I had a 40 in that class. What’s the point of being a man.
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