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Forsaken made me realize theres not a single game where i could say im “Decent” at.

Literally theres games ive played for years, im talking 7-8 years of gameplay and i still play like a newbie.

Why is it that my skills will never be enough. No matter the amount of hours, no matter the time i spend studying about the game, no matter how many insults are thrown at me. Its never enough.

I seriously HATE, my inability to be good at things im passionate about. Storytelling is an extremely obscure thing now due to the concept of AI, and making a story out of AI is so easy its barely a struggle.

And yet, Its the only thing im good at. Ive spent hours of my life, lost hours of my life trying to be the best at a game i love, even if its not Forsaken, its never enough.

I HATE when ive played something for years, learned everything by myself. Just to have someone who has never heard of the series to be better than me, even if they weren’t taught by someone else.

It doesn’t matter in the end. Im only good at watching and teaching others, yet its impossible for me to get better at the very things i teach.

Sometimes i wonder if i should just give up gaming as a whole and just stick with just laying in bed and watch others be successful.

Its worse knowing i have to keep my complaints to myself. Everytime ive voiced my complaints, i get insults hurled at me.

Does it truly matter anymore?

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