Well I do… because tonight, my love blocked me and now (I think) wants nothing to do with me bc a 15 year old person was sending me weird things but I didn’t block them and I kept the goddamn chat going, I could've blocked them right there, But i didn’t, ya wanna know why? Cuz I was basically a pathetic idiot who wanted to have someone to say they gave a shit about me before I finally realized this shit wasn’t okay
I'm a fucking disgrace of a person, and I wish I killed myself when I first announced it, and now everyone is going to hate me all because I couldn't do anything but take my dumb fucking time, now I had ruined every good thing in my life all for the sake of being a fucking idiot
I don’t want anyone’s sympathy, I just want people to know that I feel absolutely remorseful and shitty for everything I’ve done
I’ve been taking therapy and I’ve been seeking so much help for myself
I don’t want to be this way, not now, not ever
To those who have read all this, thank you for everything, and to those who I have hurt, or broken trust… I am so sorry and I don’t seek anyone’s forgiveness
I genuinely feel nothing but remorse and disgust with how I was In the past, I genuinely wish nothing but good things for all of you and I wish to change my ways for the better
I may come back someday but I need a long break from this site, you all genuinely have the right to feel whatever about me, cuz now? I don’t care about my image anymore, I only want everyone to know this: I am disgusted in myself and I’m genuinely trying to change, I cannot keep doing shitty things and feel bad about them like it makes it okay, I need to be better
I'm sorry if this whole thing is worded improperly and in a very shitty manor, i'm very stressed and the whole thing is written in a very shitty and very stupid manor... i am genuinely sorry for this whole thing
Thank you, have a merry Christmas, and goodbye to all of you
Pedram Does Stuff
…you ever get the feeling of hating yourself?
Well I do… because tonight, my love blocked me and now (I think) wants nothing to do with me bc a 15 year old person was sending me weird things but I didn’t block them and I kept the goddamn chat going, I could've blocked them right there, But i didn’t, ya wanna know why? Cuz I was basically a pathetic idiot who wanted to have someone to say they gave a shit about me before I finally realized this shit wasn’t okay
I'm a fucking disgrace of a person, and I wish I killed myself when I first announced it, and now everyone is going to hate me all because I couldn't do anything but take my dumb fucking time, now I had ruined every good thing in my life all for the sake of being a fucking idiot
I don’t want anyone’s sympathy, I just want people to know that I feel absolutely remorseful and shitty for everything I’ve done
I’ve been taking therapy and I’ve been seeking so much help for myself
I don’t want to be this way, not now, not ever
To those who have read all this, thank you for everything, and to those who I have hurt, or broken trust… I am so sorry and I don’t seek anyone’s forgiveness
I genuinely feel nothing but remorse and disgust with how I was In the past, I genuinely wish nothing but good things for all of you and I wish to change my ways for the better
I may come back someday but I need a long break from this site, you all genuinely have the right to feel whatever about me, cuz now? I don’t care about my image anymore, I only want everyone to know this: I am disgusted in myself and I’m genuinely trying to change, I cannot keep doing shitty things and feel bad about them like it makes it okay, I need to be better
I'm sorry if this whole thing is worded improperly and in a very shitty manor, i'm very stressed and the whole thing is written in a very shitty and very stupid manor... i am genuinely sorry for this whole thing
Thank you, have a merry Christmas, and goodbye to all of you
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