Bebo Senpai YT

Random 3AM — YAP POST. . .

Not gonna lie, my persuading and convincing skills are so bad. . .

I can't convince Or persuade anyone. . .

So most of times, I always end up being in trouble for no reasons. . .

Or people end up thinking I'm lying all the time. . .

And another fact is that no one ever listens to me. . .

I try to tell them something, and they just ignore. . .

That's why I stopped talking because I realized no one ever listened to me. . .

Even in online, i often get ignored when I'm trying to talk. . .

So yeah, I just stopped talking and it wasn't really a bad choice. . .

Even now, talking to people feel bothersome. . .

At same time, it's feels really great to talk depending on the person. . .

Either I feel like I'm stuck with you because you are just having some boring talk with me. . .

Or I just want time to slow down so I can talk with you more. . .

The first one mostly happenes when I'm talking to someone new for some reason. . .

Being completely, it's happens with everyone. . .

Since it's just straight talk and boring, if it's been freaky talk. . .

Then sure you piqued my interest, but just some boring hi, hello type shi. . .

Then yeah, it's definitely one of the most boring thing I will encounter in my day. . .

But ofc, mostly those who contacted it's been always about pfp. . .

So ofc rarely anyones talk to me, and since I stopped doing pfps. . .

Numbers drops to 1-3 per day, fair enough since I don't want people who just use me for their own benefit. . .

Idc wheter it's business, you should just contact me in YT instead. . .

But not all are like this, some are actually stayed with me till now. . .

Even though we contact very less, it's still better than nothing. . .

And by the way, I'm not doing this for some attention or smtg. . .

Idc if you talk with me or not, I'm not a interesting person now anyways. . .

I won't be sharing any of my privacy, nor I have any interesting story to tell. . .

So it will be just awkward, but if you able to make me work up then we probably Hold up a good convo. . .

And btw I'm mostly a listener, I will listen wha u say but i wont be able to response better. . .

Maybe you feel like you're just bother me, although could be depending on the convo. . .

But mostly I don't feel bored or bothered by someone since I'm a good listener. . .

Although, my talks not suggest this fact. . .

But trust on me, I'm the one who listened to teacher while everyone's talking. . .

And I will be the one listen to you, while you are yapping. . .

Sounds kinda romantic, something I would say to my gf. . .

But then again even though I have a gf, she rarely talks to me. . .

Like once in a 1-2 months, and yk what we talk even after meeting for so long?. . .

Hi, hello, hru fine blah blah blah, that's all. . .

So technically, she's not a gf rather than just a stranger who u will say hi to. . .

But ofc she thinks I'm a boring person, that's why she appear rarely. . .

But ofc I won't be the one putting all the efforts, she should at least start talking about something. . .

So I might be able to at least carry it, but whatever it's her thinking. . .

Not willing to talk it's alright, no one around is begging to talk you. . .

I also wonder, why I'm sounding so rude rn?. . .

Honestly yeah, I did having lots of issues and kinda becoming a red flag. . .

I used to be kind, gentle and caring person. . .

Not bragging about it btw, but now I'm just someone who bothered by anything And hav anger issues. . .

All because of these traumatic events I had in the past few months. . .

But I'm stil not toxic, I'm still the same person. . .

It's just when I needed little care, everyone just showed me distance. . .

No one understand what was going on with me, nor I told anyone. . .

Although I did tried showing it, but yeah in the end no one is truly a good person. . .

Not me, nor anyone..... It's okay to be like this. . .

U should let the suffering person endure and Cope on his own. . .

So he/she won't need anyone, when he/she suffering again in the future. . .

And that's is the right choice, although sometimes it's okay to help. . .

Not okay but crucial, since who knows if that person could be able to endure that. . .

So you either see that person thanking you or either hating you. . .

Both cases requires understanding, mutual understanding between both. . .

I know I'm sounding like some psychological Dr. . .

Or maybe not, who knows for me I think I am. . .

I think I understand peoples, not fully but maybe at some point. . .

Ik who is real and who is fake, who to trust and who to not. . .

I understand this, the more I talk the more I understand. . .

Maybe I'm not talentless after all, and ofc I'm not being narcissistic. . .

But being honest, yeah I'm a narcissistic person. . .

Something I think I'm the only right person in the room full of wrong person. . .

And sometimes it's true, only if they listened to me that time. . .

You wouldn't have suffering this wit me now. . .

Although, there was risk but there is no bigger reward if there isn't risk. . .

But the in the end and as always idc. . .

Wish I could say that, I think Idc but I'm always the one who cared. . .

And the only one who got hurted, i hate bow God made me like this. . .

Although, I don't hate because I think. . .

If I wasn't there on that day of that person life. . .

That person life would have been harder. . .

And vice versa, I also made someone life harder as well by doing nothing. . .

Anyways, I yapped too much today. . ..

But it's all to cover up the missing yapped post. . .

Well anyways friends, hav a sweet dreams ~ ✨

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