The first drink of the day.....that warm feeling from mouth to belly....there was nothing like it. From the first sip to the last gulp before I fell asleep, the ordinary was extraordinary and life was a little more exciting. Booze made me happy, and who doesn't want more happiness in life?
But happiness had a price. Happiness meant drinking more booze and after a few times of drinking a 750ml bottle of gin in a sitting and not feeling happy, I knew I had a problem. In fact, the last time I did that, I felt nothing - just emptiness. Then the self-loathing and sadness kicked in. There was nothing happy about any of it. That was nine months ago for me.
Do I miss drinking? Sure I do, but I don't miss tripping over my own feet and falling on the bathroom floor, needing a loved one help me up; the brainfog and lethargy from hangovers; the possibility getting my wig split in a fight while under the influence; or the inevitable DUIs, accidents and loss of career I was destined to have if I kept drinking. Sound like happiness?
Listen, alcohol unleashes the beast of bad decisions inside you. If you are reading this and you've had the thought that maybe it's time to slow down or quit altoghether - then it is. You can do this, and by the strength of your conviction and will. But you need a starting point, and now is as good a time as any. You don't have to wait until you reach rock bottom.
Faccia Brutta
The first drink of the day.....that warm feeling from mouth to belly....there was nothing like it. From the first sip to the last gulp before I fell asleep, the ordinary was extraordinary and life was a little more exciting. Booze made me happy, and who doesn't want more happiness in life?
But happiness had a price. Happiness meant drinking more booze and after a few times of drinking a 750ml bottle of gin in a sitting and not feeling happy, I knew I had a problem. In fact, the last time I did that, I felt nothing - just emptiness. Then the self-loathing and sadness kicked in. There was nothing happy about any of it. That was nine months ago for me.
Do I miss drinking? Sure I do, but I don't miss tripping over my own feet and falling on the bathroom floor, needing a loved one help me up; the brainfog and lethargy from hangovers; the possibility getting my wig split in a fight while under the influence; or the inevitable DUIs, accidents and loss of career I was destined to have if I kept drinking. Sound like happiness?
Listen, alcohol unleashes the beast of bad decisions inside you. If you are reading this and you've had the thought that maybe it's time to slow down or quit altoghether - then it is. You can do this, and by the strength of your conviction and will. But you need a starting point, and now is as good a time as any. You don't have to wait until you reach rock bottom.
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