hello angels! first off, i just want to apologise for going missing aka mia for so long. it’s been what? how many weeks? i already forgot. but i really, really, really needed that break — i wasn’t in the best mental state. with the passing of my grandpa a few months ago, everything’s been chaotic, and starting a new semester at university just added to the mess. everything’s moving so fast. i’ve just been feeling extremely tired. i know it’s unfair and sort of… not sure how to word it, but i should’ve informed all of you earlier, especially the paid requesters.
it’s only week 4/5 but i already have an exam next week for one of my subjects — this semester ends in august. i know. too quick. everything feels so rushed. i’ve spent most of my days in bed, reflecting, daydreaming, staring at my channel and the amount of angels subscribing. reading y’all’s comments, dms, emails asking where i’ve been and how i’m doing. i slept a lot. studied. napped. just… tired.
but yesterday, i had the best day ever. literally. it’s been so long since i felt like that. i realised that no matter where i go, i’m just… damn, i’m genuinely loved. my friends — i love my girls so much. honestly, it’s the same way i feel about most of y’all here. i know there’s been a ton of drama lately (another reason i disappeared — i felt so drained reading all that mess), but y’all have been the SWEETEST. i swear. always wishing me the best in everything i do, always praying for my dreams to come true ♡
so as i was laying in bed, scrolling through tiktok after that long series of events, i saw a post that reminded me of my goals — my 2025 resolution, who i wanted to be, everything. i kept scrolling and boom, another one pops up. then another. and another. the whole night was just filled with collages, edits, picture compilations of my dream self — new york, money, my dream life & career, me becoming a successful lawyer, gossip girl energy, making my mom proud. it was crazy. like god was telling me, don’t give up, stop being lazy.
i prayed for so long that night. listened to “mirror” by justin timberlake the whole time. thought. sighed. daydreamed. all alone in bed. then i woke up today… with a fever. but even though i’m sick, i feel better? calm. peaceful. like i finally have motivation again.
sooo i’m back! that was dramatic, i know — i’ve always been dramatic my whole life. all paid reqs will be uploaded by today. after that, i’ll work on content to post here, then study for a few hours ♡ for now, i’m not taking any paid requests because i always end up delivering them later than expected, so maybe i’ll open them again in a week or two when i’m ready. but i am opening a gumroad / patreon soon to sell some of my subs at cheap prices! ($5–$25) that way you can support my studies too! lmk if that price range is okay!
sincerely, aleya — still on my bed, sick, listening to justin timberlake, but somehow still insanely motivated and excited
aleya ౨ৎ
diary entry 1 [UPDATE & YAP] :: disappeared, healing, dreaming, girlblogging (from bed) 🎀🪽🐰🧸👼🏻🌸
hello angels! first off, i just want to apologise for going missing aka mia for so long. it’s been what? how many weeks? i already forgot. but i really, really, really needed that break — i wasn’t in the best mental state. with the passing of my grandpa a few months ago, everything’s been chaotic, and starting a new semester at university just added to the mess. everything’s moving so fast. i’ve just been feeling extremely tired. i know it’s unfair and sort of… not sure how to word it, but i should’ve informed all of you earlier, especially the paid requesters.
it’s only week 4/5 but i already have an exam next week for one of my subjects — this semester ends in august. i know. too quick. everything feels so rushed. i’ve spent most of my days in bed, reflecting, daydreaming, staring at my channel and the amount of angels subscribing. reading y’all’s comments, dms, emails asking where i’ve been and how i’m doing. i slept a lot. studied. napped. just… tired.
but yesterday, i had the best day ever. literally. it’s been so long since i felt like that. i realised that no matter where i go, i’m just… damn, i’m genuinely loved. my friends — i love my girls so much. honestly, it’s the same way i feel about most of y’all here. i know there’s been a ton of drama lately (another reason i disappeared — i felt so drained reading all that mess), but y’all have been the SWEETEST. i swear. always wishing me the best in everything i do, always praying for my dreams to come true ♡
so as i was laying in bed, scrolling through tiktok after that long series of events, i saw a post that reminded me of my goals — my 2025 resolution, who i wanted to be, everything. i kept scrolling and boom, another one pops up. then another. and another. the whole night was just filled with collages, edits, picture compilations of my dream self — new york, money, my dream life & career, me becoming a successful lawyer, gossip girl energy, making my mom proud. it was crazy. like god was telling me, don’t give up, stop being lazy.
i prayed for so long that night. listened to “mirror” by justin timberlake the whole time. thought. sighed. daydreamed. all alone in bed. then i woke up today… with a fever. but even though i’m sick, i feel better? calm. peaceful. like i finally have motivation again.
sooo i’m back! that was dramatic, i know — i’ve always been dramatic my whole life. all paid reqs will be uploaded by today. after that, i’ll work on content to post here, then study for a few hours ♡ for now, i’m not taking any paid requests because i always end up delivering them later than expected, so maybe i’ll open them again in a week or two when i’m ready. but i am opening a gumroad / patreon soon to sell some of my subs at cheap prices! ($5–$25) that way you can support my studies too! lmk if that price range is okay!
sincerely,
aleya
— still on my bed, sick, listening to justin timberlake, but somehow still insanely motivated and excited
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