I haven't had it in me to upload lately. A lot of motivation and depression has kind of just held me back from really wanting to upload or work on stuff as of late and its been really bad. I haven't been happy with myself and my place in the world and really have not had it in me to pursue this as hard anymore. It doesn't fulfill me to spend months putting my soul into something just for it to basically get no traction. For years now it has felt like me screaming into the void in an attempt to find others who I can inspire and make happy with my content and yet after almost a whole half decade I have yet to find my audience. I am hoping my inspiration and drive to find my place in the world of Youtube comes with the release of Deadlock, hopefully making content for an audience around a game I really enjoy and am passionate about. Hell I may even still have some of that analysis drive in me that has sparked in me. I have tried scripting stuff here and there but just have not had that drive to continue forward with them. But for now I don't want to leave everyone in the dark as to where I've been and what has been going on with this channel. I am grateful for those who I've made happy with what I have made over the years, but for now I need to pause and reevaluate my relationship with content creation and my own purpose in this world.
SleepLIVE
I haven't had it in me to upload lately. A lot of motivation and depression has kind of just held me back from really wanting to upload or work on stuff as of late and its been really bad. I haven't been happy with myself and my place in the world and really have not had it in me to pursue this as hard anymore. It doesn't fulfill me to spend months putting my soul into something just for it to basically get no traction. For years now it has felt like me screaming into the void in an attempt to find others who I can inspire and make happy with my content and yet after almost a whole half decade I have yet to find my audience. I am hoping my inspiration and drive to find my place in the world of Youtube comes with the release of Deadlock, hopefully making content for an audience around a game I really enjoy and am passionate about. Hell I may even still have some of that analysis drive in me that has sparked in me. I have tried scripting stuff here and there but just have not had that drive to continue forward with them. But for now I don't want to leave everyone in the dark as to where I've been and what has been going on with this channel. I am grateful for those who I've made happy with what I have made over the years, but for now I need to pause and reevaluate my relationship with content creation and my own purpose in this world.
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