Every few months I go through an identity crisis about what it means to be me. It’s in the sense of what I can create, what I can imagine. I burn myself out so much by trying so hard to be the person I want to be, that I lose myself as the person I am right now.
I don’t ever talk in such a way on my channel, rarely ever. But seeing as I try to be here to give you guys my best shot, I feel it’s worth getting off whatever’s on my chest.
I’m tired. I hate everything I’ve been making. Every piece of art is bad or unsatisfactory, the things I’ve posted or things not making past the sketch phase despite me trying to get through the trust the process phase. Every word of my creative writing projects feels meaningless or not enough to get my point across the page. I’m getting lazy with videos to the point where I can’t bother doing an art trend right.
My point is simple. I’m hating everything I make. I’m hating everything I’m known to be. When I can’t even do what people expect to even try to attempt, it’s demoralizing because I’m failing at everything I’m trying. And taking breaks aren’t enough, switching mediums isn’t enough, switching projects aren’t enough. But what am I supposed to do? I can’t stop now, I have people depending on me to be there to show them what I can do, and when I can’t meet I then even a quarter way there, it hurts. I’m practically drowning…
🌟Princess_Rosalina🌟
Every few months I go through an identity crisis about what it means to be me. It’s in the sense of what I can create, what I can imagine. I burn myself out so much by trying so hard to be the person I want to be, that I lose myself as the person I am right now.
I don’t ever talk in such a way on my channel, rarely ever. But seeing as I try to be here to give you guys my best shot, I feel it’s worth getting off whatever’s on my chest.
I’m tired. I hate everything I’ve been making. Every piece of art is bad or unsatisfactory, the things I’ve posted or things not making past the sketch phase despite me trying to get through the trust the process phase. Every word of my creative writing projects feels meaningless or not enough to get my point across the page. I’m getting lazy with videos to the point where I can’t bother doing an art trend right.
My point is simple. I’m hating everything I make. I’m hating everything I’m known to be. When I can’t even do what people expect to even try to attempt, it’s demoralizing because I’m failing at everything I’m trying. And taking breaks aren’t enough, switching mediums isn’t enough, switching projects aren’t enough. But what am I supposed to do? I can’t stop now, I have people depending on me to be there to show them what I can do, and when I can’t meet I then even a quarter way there, it hurts. I’m practically drowning…
Am I finally losing my touch? Where do I go now?
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