I’m over most of this now, or at least I’ve made peace with it. But for a long time, I really felt like an outcast. It was hard to find my place. Every corner of Milwaukee felt like a dead end, just different flavors of cliques I couldn’t fit into, or didn’t even want to.
When you’ve spent most of your life on the outside, real friendship doesn’t come easy. Even when it finally finds you, your nervous system’s been trained to expect solitude. So you’re sitting there surrounded by people who genuinely care about you, and there’s still that little voice whispering:
“Hey, don’t get too comfortable. This could all disappear.”
You end up fighting that voice just to enjoy the moment to metaphorically take the demon behind the shed and smack it with a shovel.
But I don’t really mind that anymore. Because even now, meeting all these amazing people, I never want to forget where I came from. I grew up a weirdo. I was the outcast. And maybe that’s what keeps me grounded. I’d rather stay real, for myself and for everyone around me. Maybe you guys understand that feeling too.
Tantris Humble
I’ll rant for you guys a bit.
I’m over most of this now, or at least I’ve made peace with it. But for a long time, I really felt like an outcast. It was hard to find my place. Every corner of Milwaukee felt like a dead end, just different flavors of cliques I couldn’t fit into, or didn’t even want to.
When you’ve spent most of your life on the outside, real friendship doesn’t come easy. Even when it finally finds you, your nervous system’s been trained to expect solitude. So you’re sitting there surrounded by people who genuinely care about you, and there’s still that little voice whispering:
“Hey, don’t get too comfortable. This could all disappear.”
You end up fighting that voice just to enjoy the moment to metaphorically take the demon behind the shed and smack it with a shovel.
But I don’t really mind that anymore. Because even now, meeting all these amazing people, I never want to forget where I came from. I grew up a weirdo. I was the outcast. And maybe that’s what keeps me grounded. I’d rather stay real, for myself and for everyone around me. Maybe you guys understand that feeling too.
The worst crime is faking it.
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