I know in the last post I stated the next island would come out by the end of summer and it has become clear that I did not follow up on that and I believe it's in my best interest to give you all an explanation.
I... simply haven't been feeling well recently, at all. With school back in session, which at a base is keeping me busy, I've begun to feel depressed, because I've started to realize just how mistreated I've been by a lot of people there. That all came to a head on tuesday, where I puposefully excused myself form my final period of the day to talk things out with my counselor. I had tried to let everything roll off my back but every time I would get teased or harassed by someone new all those bad memories would come back to me, getting to the point where just being in the building surrounded me with this negative aura that made me depressed to even be there.
Motivation has also been low, I've been questioning what my endeavors mean to this community and I sometimes find myself making ill comparisons to other people and just feeling a great deal of envy. It's not that I want to quit, or wish for the downfall of others, I simply do not feel like I can do anything MSM right now, at least for my own channel. I haven't drawn anything in a month, I've been that unmotivated, and these recent developments aren't exactly helping.
As for when content wil return to this channel, that is officially TBA. I can not and do not want to give any exact dates, but trust me I always have things related to this channel on my mind. I am not leaving this channel to rot, I simply cannot and have not been able to pick myself up to make anything for it in a while. Do remember however, if you want to interact with me, I am active in my own discord (linked in every video) and the official Q Crew server.
I am sorry I've been so stagnant but please understand I am not going through the best of times right now. I will pick mysef back up eventually I'm sure but that doesn’t look like it'll be for a little while. Remember, I put my passion first and production second. I will not make or do something unless I feel up to the task and that it is worthy of being something I can put my name to. Quality always trumps quantity, that will always be the case, forever and always.
Stay safe, and please bare with me as I try to get back into the swing of things, you guys are awesome, and of course...
Bludderfly (MSM)
I'm still here.
I know in the last post I stated the next island would come out by the end of summer and it has become clear that I did not follow up on that and I believe it's in my best interest to give you all an explanation.
I... simply haven't been feeling well recently, at all. With school back in session, which at a base is keeping me busy, I've begun to feel depressed, because I've started to realize just how mistreated I've been by a lot of people there. That all came to a head on tuesday, where I puposefully excused myself form my final period of the day to talk things out with my counselor. I had tried to let everything roll off my back but every time I would get teased or harassed by someone new all those bad memories would come back to me, getting to the point where just being in the building surrounded me with this negative aura that made me depressed to even be there.
Motivation has also been low, I've been questioning what my endeavors mean to this community and I sometimes find myself making ill comparisons to other people and just feeling a great deal of envy. It's not that I want to quit, or wish for the downfall of others, I simply do not feel like I can do anything MSM right now, at least for my own channel. I haven't drawn anything in a month, I've been that unmotivated, and these recent developments aren't exactly helping.
As for when content wil return to this channel, that is officially TBA. I can not and do not want to give any exact dates, but trust me I always have things related to this channel on my mind. I am not leaving this channel to rot, I simply cannot and have not been able to pick myself up to make anything for it in a while. Do remember however, if you want to interact with me, I am active in my own discord (linked in every video) and the official Q Crew server.
I am sorry I've been so stagnant but please understand I am not going through the best of times right now. I will pick mysef back up eventually I'm sure but that doesn’t look like it'll be for a little while. Remember, I put my passion first and production second. I will not make or do something unless I feel up to the task and that it is worthy of being something I can put my name to. Quality always trumps quantity, that will always be the case, forever and always.
Stay safe, and please bare with me as I try to get back into the swing of things, you guys are awesome, and of course...
Sneezo Loves You.
- Bludder
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