Oh also to add on, I’m only one guy. I do not have a whole team making content with/for me. Everything you see on this channel is made solely by me barring a few concepts for monsters. That is simply the way I prefer to make things, because in my eyes to be able to look at something and wholeheartedly go “I made that” gives me great joy and is the main goal I strive for in making all this stuff.
1 year ago | 12
It's okay, buddy. I know exactly how you feel. I too, have had a problem like this back in middle school, where nobody believed me about my autism. But if people don't believe your problem, it's them that need to change. Not you. Take your time.
1 year ago | 2
I honestly get you, i've felt uncomfortable in my school being trans in a transphobic/homophobic school with the fear of being bullied with only my two cousins and Best Friends from my other school to trust. All I can do is wish you the best Bludder. You've been one of my main inspirations on this community back when I was like 10 (my current art style is literally based off of your old one) so it literally hurts so bad to see you in this state. I hope stuff get better in your life and just take your time and don't rush :]
1 year ago | 4
i'm sorry to hear that Bludder, i'm also always picked on by few people at my school too.
1 year ago | 1
damn i really hope you get better, it makes me kinda sad to see you like this. just know you can take your own time and go at your own pace.
1 year ago | 0
It's okay, if you want to leave this channel alone for a while, leave it alone. We're here for you.
1 year ago | 0
Bludderfly (MSM)
I'm still here.
I know in the last post I stated the next island would come out by the end of summer and it has become clear that I did not follow up on that and I believe it's in my best interest to give you all an explanation.
I... simply haven't been feeling well recently, at all. With school back in session, which at a base is keeping me busy, I've begun to feel depressed, because I've started to realize just how mistreated I've been by a lot of people there. That all came to a head on tuesday, where I puposefully excused myself form my final period of the day to talk things out with my counselor. I had tried to let everything roll off my back but every time I would get teased or harassed by someone new all those bad memories would come back to me, getting to the point where just being in the building surrounded me with this negative aura that made me depressed to even be there.
Motivation has also been low, I've been questioning what my endeavors mean to this community and I sometimes find myself making ill comparisons to other people and just feeling a great deal of envy. It's not that I want to quit, or wish for the downfall of others, I simply do not feel like I can do anything MSM right now, at least for my own channel. I haven't drawn anything in a month, I've been that unmotivated, and these recent developments aren't exactly helping.
As for when content wil return to this channel, that is officially TBA. I can not and do not want to give any exact dates, but trust me I always have things related to this channel on my mind. I am not leaving this channel to rot, I simply cannot and have not been able to pick myself up to make anything for it in a while. Do remember however, if you want to interact with me, I am active in my own discord (linked in every video) and the official Q Crew server.
I am sorry I've been so stagnant but please understand I am not going through the best of times right now. I will pick mysef back up eventually I'm sure but that doesn’t look like it'll be for a little while. Remember, I put my passion first and production second. I will not make or do something unless I feel up to the task and that it is worthy of being something I can put my name to. Quality always trumps quantity, that will always be the case, forever and always.
Stay safe, and please bare with me as I try to get back into the swing of things, you guys are awesome, and of course...
Sneezo Loves You.
- Bludder
1 year ago (edited) | [YT] | 54