I'm not always used to opening up to other people on YouTube and in real life
My last two years of high school was really rough for me because of the horrible bullying incident I had to go through and then after the group of girls that were treating me so badly in high school I was excluded from many special curriculums including choir and other activities and I couldn't get many opportunities because of what happened
And I also just found out @TheThreeIcons is taking a break for 3 weeks and I feel really bad for her
I didn't mean to overreact or anything it's just that I don't like being alone on this platform especially in real life
Yesterday I had a really terrible day where I had drama with my friend AJ although that I did apologize to her on Pinterest and everything I just don't want anybody getting angry at me because that is really a fear of mine
And @TheThreeIcons if you're seeing this I'm really really sorry for your lost and I'm sorry if I got upset or anything because I'm not used to always being by myself on YouTube because apparently on this platform a lot of people are not active and I wish we can talk during your break but I know you don't have Pinterest and I'm sorry for overreacting and I'm sad that I won't be able to do your sub season for a while please don't get mad at me and everything and I'm sorry for overreacting on you and I feel like that I'm going to die of loneliness now
Because I was fearing that people were going to leave me alone and block me forever and you know people are always taking advantage of my disability autism and I was recently accused of being a liar and I was also being accused of being a loser and I was called a bitch yesterday was really hurt my feelings
Because people on the sub seasons have also been calling me names and you know I was falsely accused of things that I never did and I was accused of drama that I never did and I don't like getting accused of stuff that I've never done and two of my former friends told me to shut up yesterday it was the girl fan and the ultimate PJ masks fan and I also had drama with AJ yesterday which caused our friendship to get even more sadder and broken than ever before
I feel so damn ashamed of overreacting and you know getting upset at people because I'm trying to get better at sub seasons but I guess the sub season community has really got the best of me
And I want to apologize again to @TheThreeIcons again for overreacting and getting upset because I'm not really used to being alone and one of the people told me to give you space when you know I am not used to giving people space so please forgive me and I really hope that you can get Pinterest because I'm going to be really lonely for 3 weeks which will really make me sad and I'm sorry again for your loss and I didn't mean to get upset with you
And one more thing you know I don't want people blocking me or you know leaving my YouTube channel for good and unsubscribing from me because that is a really bad fear of mine because you know my former friends have been accusing me of drama when you know I've never done that and yesterday I was accused of lying when you know I've never done that because I was accused of that when I was on my other channel Heather the TDI fan 2025 and that caused a lot of people to hate on me and get a lot of hate and everything and when that happened I was disqualified for many sub seasons for everything that happened and that's why I'm no longer friends with the girlfriend the ultimate PJ masks fan hawk and more people that accused me of things that I've never done when you know I am getting better as a person
So please don't get mad at me and everything because it's been a really hard month for me ever since losing my mamaw and it's been really hard for me to cope with it and I want to apologize for my anger yesterday and everything it wasn't at any of you guys it was at myself because I've been stuck living with my sister for 4 years and I haven't been able to connect with any other friends of mine in real life my life has been a real living hell and I was being called really inappropriate names on sub seasons which really hurt me as well and I'm really sorry for being a jerk lately to everyone because I can't even control my emotions right now because I normally get angry sad depressed I say things that I don't normally say and I can't take it back and I feel completely ashamed of myself for saying all that crap that I said back then and that's why I don't compete in Lucas sub season anymore because of what happened between me and hawk back then and I may step back from some sub seasons because of you know my anger and other stuff that's been going on
And you know I am really desperate to vent to someone as well for my issues but not many people want to hear about my problems or my losses in my family because I was also getting humiliated in a lot of sub seasons because of my autism and they were taking real advantage of it and I do want to apologize again for my actions recently because although I don't cause drama anymore as much as I used to and I'm trying to control my emotions in real life people are probably going to leave me
Thanks for understanding
And again @TheThreeIcons I apologize again for overreacting and I'm really wishing that I can talk to you during your break I'm heartbroken that you're leaving YouTube and everything and it really leaves a hole in my heart now because I relate to you when I lost family members when I lost my mamaw a few weeks ago because of old age she was really sick and I was really relating to you and I apologize again for overreacting when I know that you need space right now but I was wondering if you and I can talk privately before you go... And I hope that you're active on sub seasons because I like you being with me all the time as my buddy and again I'm really sorry for your loss
One more thing before I post this because I relate to a lot of people when I lost family because when I lost my mother back in 2021 I was in a deep depression for a year and I remember when I went back to school for my sophomore year I got emotional in front of my choir teacher for the very first time and I was just devastated and then when I lost my close friend of Mr Farley back in 2022 I was so heartbroken for a week I couldn't talk to anyone at the time because high School losing family members and depression really hurts me
Thank you for understanding my pain as well and I'm sorry for all the trouble I have caused
And again I like to apologize for my anger lately because I'm not getting angry at you guys I've been getting angry at myself in real life and not anybody on YouTube because I'm not used to always being the lonely one so please don't unsubscribe or leave me because I really don't want that and you know I've been in a really dark place for years ever since I lost my mom because I don't want to lose my friends over anything I do and high school was really traumatizing for me because of not fitting in and people taking advantage of my autism and my disability I was getting my heart broken I was getting manipulated I was getting used all the time I was getting left out I was you know left in the dust and I would like to apologize for not being active in the sub seasons anymore and for the love of God I don't want you guys leaving me alone because you guys are my friends on YouTube and I do want to apologize for not being active as much as I used to be because I am trying to get me a job and when I do I won't be as active as I used to be because there's been so much stress on me in real life that I can't even cope with my anger and depression right now because it's been really hard for me for the last month and a half and I don't want people taking it out on me and calling me names and taking advantage of me
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I guess I'm going to die alone now
I'm not always used to opening up to other people on YouTube and in real life
My last two years of high school was really rough for me because of the horrible bullying incident I had to go through and then after the group of girls that were treating me so badly in high school I was excluded from many special curriculums including choir and other activities and I couldn't get many opportunities because of what happened
And I also just found out @TheThreeIcons is taking a break for 3 weeks and I feel really bad for her
I didn't mean to overreact or anything it's just that I don't like being alone on this platform especially in real life
Yesterday I had a really terrible day where I had drama with my friend AJ although that I did apologize to her on Pinterest and everything I just don't want anybody getting angry at me because that is really a fear of mine
And @TheThreeIcons if you're seeing this I'm really really sorry for your lost and I'm sorry if I got upset or anything because I'm not used to always being by myself on YouTube because apparently on this platform a lot of people are not active and I wish we can talk during your break but I know you don't have Pinterest and I'm sorry for overreacting and I'm sad that I won't be able to do your sub season for a while please don't get mad at me and everything and I'm sorry for overreacting on you and I feel like that I'm going to die of loneliness now
Because I was fearing that people were going to leave me alone and block me forever and you know people are always taking advantage of my disability autism and I was recently accused of being a liar and I was also being accused of being a loser and I was called a bitch yesterday was really hurt my feelings
Because people on the sub seasons have also been calling me names and you know I was falsely accused of things that I never did and I was accused of drama that I never did and I don't like getting accused of stuff that I've never done and two of my former friends told me to shut up yesterday it was the girl fan and the ultimate PJ masks fan and I also had drama with AJ yesterday which caused our friendship to get even more sadder and broken than ever before
I feel so damn ashamed of overreacting and you know getting upset at people because I'm trying to get better at sub seasons but I guess the sub season community has really got the best of me
And I want to apologize again to @TheThreeIcons again for overreacting and getting upset because I'm not really used to being alone and one of the people told me to give you space when you know I am not used to giving people space so please forgive me and I really hope that you can get Pinterest because I'm going to be really lonely for 3 weeks which will really make me sad and I'm sorry again for your loss and I didn't mean to get upset with you
And one more thing you know I don't want people blocking me or you know leaving my YouTube channel for good and unsubscribing from me because that is a really bad fear of mine because you know my former friends have been accusing me of drama when you know I've never done that and yesterday I was accused of lying when you know I've never done that because I was accused of that when I was on my other channel Heather the TDI fan 2025 and that caused a lot of people to hate on me and get a lot of hate and everything and when that happened I was disqualified for many sub seasons for everything that happened and that's why I'm no longer friends with the girlfriend the ultimate PJ masks fan hawk and more people that accused me of things that I've never done when you know I am getting better as a person
So please don't get mad at me and everything because it's been a really hard month for me ever since losing my mamaw and it's been really hard for me to cope with it and I want to apologize for my anger yesterday and everything it wasn't at any of you guys it was at myself because I've been stuck living with my sister for 4 years and I haven't been able to connect with any other friends of mine in real life my life has been a real living hell and I was being called really inappropriate names on sub seasons which really hurt me as well and I'm really sorry for being a jerk lately to everyone because I can't even control my emotions right now because I normally get angry sad depressed I say things that I don't normally say and I can't take it back and I feel completely ashamed of myself for saying all that crap that I said back then and that's why I don't compete in Lucas sub season anymore because of what happened between me and hawk back then and I may step back from some sub seasons because of you know my anger and other stuff that's been going on
And you know I am really desperate to vent to someone as well for my issues but not many people want to hear about my problems or my losses in my family because I was also getting humiliated in a lot of sub seasons because of my autism and they were taking real advantage of it and I do want to apologize again for my actions recently because although I don't cause drama anymore as much as I used to and I'm trying to control my emotions in real life people are probably going to leave me
Thanks for understanding
And again @TheThreeIcons I apologize again for overreacting and I'm really wishing that I can talk to you during your break I'm heartbroken that you're leaving YouTube and everything and it really leaves a hole in my heart now because I relate to you when I lost family members when I lost my mamaw a few weeks ago because of old age she was really sick and I was really relating to you and I apologize again for overreacting when I know that you need space right now but I was wondering if you and I can talk privately before you go... And I hope that you're active on sub seasons because I like you being with me all the time as my buddy and again I'm really sorry for your loss
One more thing before I post this because I relate to a lot of people when I lost family because when I lost my mother back in 2021 I was in a deep depression for a year and I remember when I went back to school for my sophomore year I got emotional in front of my choir teacher for the very first time and I was just devastated and then when I lost my close friend of Mr Farley back in 2022 I was so heartbroken for a week I couldn't talk to anyone at the time because high School losing family members and depression really hurts me
Thank you for understanding my pain as well and I'm sorry for all the trouble I have caused
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And again I like to apologize for my anger lately because I'm not getting angry at you guys I've been getting angry at myself in real life and not anybody on YouTube because I'm not used to always being the lonely one so please don't unsubscribe or leave me because I really don't want that and you know I've been in a really dark place for years ever since I lost my mom because I don't want to lose my friends over anything I do and high school was really traumatizing for me because of not fitting in and people taking advantage of my autism and my disability I was getting my heart broken I was getting manipulated I was getting used all the time I was getting left out I was you know left in the dust and I would like to apologize for not being active in the sub seasons anymore and for the love of God I don't want you guys leaving me alone because you guys are my friends on YouTube and I do want to apologize for not being active as much as I used to be because I am trying to get me a job and when I do I won't be as active as I used to be because there's been so much stress on me in real life that I can't even cope with my anger and depression right now because it's been really hard for me for the last month and a half and I don't want people taking it out on me and calling me names and taking advantage of me
Thanks for understanding 🫶 ❤️ 🌼
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