Do what you think you should do. Don't ever feel like you're letting anyone down, though. If you want to be a content creator, do it because you want to be one. Not because you think it's expected of you. If this is bringing you down, then find something else to give you a sense of purpose. I've switched careers at 25 and it's the best decision I ever made. Not that it would be the same for you, but that's not the point. If you do what you like doing, people will be attracted to it. Also, I personally like content creators who aren't at the highest ranks. Sunless is a prime example. He attracts people because of the engaging videos and because he used to love the game. Things have changed for him, but that's life. Find what you like and try to make it work. :)
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Keep it up I think getting ssl is getting harder. I saw a video from Dice and it's true you have to find a way to make it fun. I'm not sure you can hit ssl if your not having fun. Did you try and get some coachings? I think the issue with 10 000hours might be that you have some bad habits engrained and it's harder to break. But consistency is key so keep going but have fun too it's a game after all. I don't want to be mean but your not a big youtuber so what would happen if you stoped everything.. not much. Don't burn yourself out and make sure your having some balance in your life. The mental is key to achieving a goal like this. Most people don't set a road to ssl when they know they are not close. Your actually the only youtuber I know that did and it's cool to see that it's taking you many Seasons. Do you have some SSLs friend helping you out? Playing in SSL lobbies could be important for you. Replay review would be more valuable than ones from GC lobbies. Keep it up man i hope you achieve your goal if not it's life move on it's essy to get caught in a suck cost fallacy.
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Oh yeah and I forgot I remember watching some videos about how to have a succesfull youtube channel or create content that's engaging. They were saying that you have yo like what your doing and it will show in your videos. This was an answer to the part where you talk about feeling like your making content based on what you like and not what's asked by your subscribers. We want the content that you want to make at least it's the best content that we'll get from you.
9 months ago
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bro take a break if u feel like it, or not if you dont feel like it. Do what you love and enjoy your time. You owe us nothing. Dont take this hobby so deep, drive around in the Scarab instead and laugh your ass off while having fun! 😂
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RL Coach Shazanwich
Sometimes I feel like I’m letting my community and my friends down. I feel at times I’m not a good enough content creator or Rocket League player.
The videos aren’t good enough. I don’t post the things that maybe people need or want to watch. I post not often enough. My content is selfish and I post videos that maybe make me happy but not the viewers.
My gameplay is not good enough. My rank is too low. I’m a “washed” “hardstuck” nobody who can’t even hit SSL. I’ve been GC every season for the past 5 years and my improvement is like watching paint dry. Not noticeable and slow. I have nearly 10k hours and nothing to show for it.
Some days I want to quit, but I don’t because I feel like I’m so close to achieving greatness. And if I quit I’m letting everyone down. I feel like I’m the shining beacon of light in a difficult and bleak game where most people feel there is no hope of improving at the game.
And if I quit then everyone else will follow suit. And my dream of being one of the greatest RL Players/ content creators will die and I’ll be accepting my RL era is over.
I can’t accept that my time is up for playing this game and that the hours I’m putting in are becoming more and more wasted. I’m compelled to keep going just simply because I feel like there’s still so much more work to do.
I haven’t hit the highest rank in the game, I haven’t made all the videos that I want to make. So many things I want to do, but every passing day makes me feel like I’ll never achieve all of it and that I’ll never reach these extremely arbitrary goals I’ve set for myself.
I could literally quit everything right now. Never play another game of RL and stop posting videos because I have free will. I have free will, yet I continue to do things that may or may not make me happy.
Going for SSL doesn’t feel like a choice anymore. I feel like I have to hit it or else this 8 years I’ve spent playing this game was all for nothing.
My ego and soul won’t let me quit. This video game is deadlocked into my soul and being and I can’t leave it until I’m satisfied; Which will be never apparently.
I wish I could hit this stupid rank so that I could leave Rocket League as a HERO who achieved his goals and not some QUITTER who’s a coward and gave up because it’s too hard or wasn’t willing to to put the work in.
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