You know how when you don't talk about something, it doesn't become real.
Like staying quiet keeps reality from crashing down, upon you.
Maybe you don't want to admit what you know to be true, because then you have to deal with it.
Not even a month after my grandfather unexpectedly passed away, my grandmother was admitted to Vancouver General Hospital, where she spent the last four weeks of her life.
Less than 2 months after my grandfather passed, my grandmother passed away last night. And until sitting down to write this, I didn't realize how devastated I am.
It is one thing to lose a loved one, it is another to lose two in such a short period of time.
My natural instinct is to keep moving, even though I know I have to mourn and let myself grieve by standing still in the hurt of my losses to truly move forward.
For once in my life, I don't have a plan for what these next few weeks are going to look like for me. It is up to me to do what's best for me.
It's my favorite time of the year, I love my job, and am so incredibly grateful for all the opportunities I have been given. While healing and taking care of my family, both sides of them, is my top priority, I am not going to stop myself from celebrating little things, sharing my life, and doing what makes me happy.
If I feel like doing nothing, that is what I will do. And if I feel like planning out my halloween costumes while going through one of the most emotionally tumultuous periods of my life, that is also what I will do. Healing is not linear and doesn't need to be explained. Everybody's journey is different.
As always, thank you for all the support you have given me and my family over these past few months, they are so incredibily appreciated! Please bear with me for the next little bit, as I don't know what my content rollout will look like. But please know, if you do see my posts, it is because it is bringing me joy, in an awfully, difficult time, to share my life, good and bad, with you 🫶🏼
Keyena Kler
You know how when you don't talk about something, it doesn't become real.
Like staying quiet keeps reality from crashing down, upon you.
Maybe you don't want to admit what you know to be true, because then you have to deal with it.
Not even a month after my grandfather unexpectedly passed away, my grandmother was admitted to Vancouver General Hospital, where she spent the last four weeks of her life.
Less than 2 months after my grandfather passed, my grandmother passed away last night. And until sitting down to write this, I didn't realize how devastated I am.
It is one thing to lose a loved one, it is another to lose two in such a short period of time.
My natural instinct is to keep moving, even though I know I have to mourn and let myself grieve by standing still in the hurt of my losses to truly move forward.
For once in my life, I don't have a plan for what these next few weeks are going to look like for me. It is up to me to do what's best for me.
It's my favorite time of the year, I love my job, and am so incredibly grateful for all the opportunities I have been given. While healing and taking care of my family, both sides of them, is my top priority, I am not going to stop myself from celebrating little things, sharing my life, and doing what makes me happy.
If I feel like doing nothing, that is what I will do. And if I feel like planning out my halloween costumes while going through one of the most emotionally tumultuous periods of my life, that is also what I will do. Healing is not linear and doesn't need to be explained. Everybody's journey is different.
As always, thank you for all the support you have given me and my family over these past few months, they are so incredibily appreciated! Please bear with me for the next little bit, as I don't know what my content rollout will look like. But please know, if you do see my posts, it is because it is bringing me joy, in an awfully, difficult time, to share my life, good and bad, with you 🫶🏼
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