TW: [ ⚠️ This Contains themes of Suicidal Ideation, Venting, Mental Health and other Sensitive Topics. If you are Uncomfortable with any of this, Please put yourself Before and proceed with Caution. Anyways feel free to Read. ❤️ ]
I wanna Die. I wanna Restart my life. I wanna Clear out my mind. I wanna commit Suicide. But I wonder how my Family would react. Yet I don’t even care, Therefore I care with all my heart. I deserve to stay alive, then again, I wanna disappear. It won’t make a difference. People die every Second. People are born every second. It’s uncontrolled. I can’t decide what my fate will be. And I can’t express or describe what’s happening around me. I’m focused on the Future and past. Not the present. I feel Tired, I feel Sick, I feel Like something’s after me. Am I being Selfish? I don’t know, I hope no one will see this, and I don’t think I’ll have to worry. Because I’m ignored both sides. I wanna See who I am. I wanna Cannibalize myself. I wanna Get to understand what Real Human Beings Are. I find This world a cycle. It’s falling into God’s Hands of Disapproval. Our sins have been Erased out of our names, This is gonna be a Long But Fast process. Our judgement, is gonna come late and early. My body is rotting away, Just like my mental health. I have a speculation that we’re gonna dissipate and I Hate it. No, I don’t want this to be my last day. Nor do I wanna continue. I find comfort in my Own Pain and Failures, It makes me Shut up and accept the Challenges Or Unfortunately Truthful words that are thrown into my Path. The Priority I have Now is to Survive what I’m gonna try to do. Or what I at least Wish to. I wanna Indulge In drugs, But that’ll ruin me forever, so I choose not to. I’m a Corpse that has multiple Identities, although I can’t be every single one, I’m angered by the only thing I can sadly do. Which Is wait until the End of my demise. I don’t just want to Listen to Nirvana. I wanna see it. I wanna feel it. I wanna Be apart of it. I also wanna be Infested, Head To Toe with Nirvana, In Regular Terms. I desire to enjoy my Freedom From All Pain. Dear lord. Please Help me walk through this Hellish Disaster.
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TW: [ ⚠️ This Contains themes of Suicidal Ideation, Venting, Mental Health and other Sensitive Topics. If you are Uncomfortable with any of this, Please put yourself Before and proceed with Caution. Anyways feel free to Read. ❤️ ]
I wanna Die.
I wanna Restart my life.
I wanna Clear out my mind.
I wanna commit Suicide.
But I wonder how my Family would react.
Yet I don’t even care, Therefore I care with all my heart. I deserve to stay alive, then again, I wanna disappear. It won’t make a difference. People die every Second. People are born every second. It’s uncontrolled. I can’t decide what my fate will be. And I can’t express or describe what’s happening around me. I’m focused on the Future and past. Not the present. I feel Tired, I feel Sick, I feel Like something’s after me. Am I being Selfish? I don’t know, I hope no one will see this, and I don’t think I’ll have to worry. Because I’m ignored both sides. I wanna See who I am. I wanna Cannibalize myself. I wanna Get to understand what Real Human Beings Are. I find This world a cycle. It’s falling into God’s Hands of Disapproval. Our sins have been Erased out of our names, This is gonna be a Long But Fast process. Our judgement, is gonna come late and early. My body is rotting away, Just like my mental health. I have a speculation that we’re gonna dissipate and I Hate it. No, I don’t want this to be my last day. Nor do I wanna continue. I find comfort in my Own Pain and Failures, It makes me Shut up and accept the Challenges Or Unfortunately Truthful words that are thrown into my Path. The Priority I have Now is to Survive what I’m gonna try to do. Or what I at least Wish to. I wanna Indulge In drugs, But that’ll ruin me forever, so I choose not to. I’m a Corpse that has multiple Identities, although I can’t be every single one, I’m angered by the only thing I can sadly do. Which Is wait until the End of my demise. I don’t just want to Listen to Nirvana. I wanna see it. I wanna feel it. I wanna Be apart of it. I also wanna be Infested, Head To Toe with Nirvana, In Regular Terms. I desire to enjoy my Freedom From All Pain. Dear lord. Please Help me walk through this Hellish Disaster.
Blue_Decay. 9/20/25
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