In most of the “So Cold” music video, I’m walking along path next to some train tracks by my house. I’ve spent a lot of time walking and driving around, trying to feel something other than gnawing loss eating at my insides. These were some photos I took walking and driving around a year ago, which is when I wrote “So Cold”, mourning the absence of a relationship I cherished but couldn’t be in anymore.
I absolutely didn’t know it at the time, but a few months later, this song was going to take on deeper meaning for me. I was familiar with longing and bittersweet-tinged loneliness, but I was going to learn new types of pain: regret and despair in ways I’d never known. I realized I had made a terrible mistake. I’d thrown away the most beautiful gift I’d ever been given, and there was no way to take this back or undo it. This was a pain so great it seemed unreconcilable.
I was crying so much, hour after hour, day after day, that I lost my ability to sing for weeks. I didn’t know how to proceed. But I kept moving, and while the pieces haven’t put themselves back together again, I’m still here, and I’ve channeled all of those emotions and fragments of love into releasing this song and all the other songs I have yet to give to the world. I’m grateful to share it all with you.
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In most of the “So Cold” music video, I’m walking along path next to some train tracks by my house. I’ve spent a lot of time walking and driving around, trying to feel something other than gnawing loss eating at my insides. These were some photos I took walking and driving around a year ago, which is when I wrote “So Cold”, mourning the absence of a relationship I cherished but couldn’t be in anymore.
I absolutely didn’t know it at the time, but a few months later, this song was going to take on deeper meaning for me. I was familiar with longing and bittersweet-tinged loneliness, but I was going to learn new types of pain: regret and despair in ways I’d never known. I realized I had made a terrible mistake. I’d thrown away the most beautiful gift I’d ever been given, and there was no way to take this back or undo it. This was a pain so great it seemed unreconcilable.
I was crying so much, hour after hour, day after day, that I lost my ability to sing for weeks. I didn’t know how to proceed. But I kept moving, and while the pieces haven’t put themselves back together again, I’m still here, and I’ve channeled all of those emotions and fragments of love into releasing this song and all the other songs I have yet to give to the world. I’m grateful to share it all with you.
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