I got a question from someone asking what song lyric that suits me as a person well....
"look at me look at me look at me look at me... because I exist I exist I exist I exist"
now why does this match me? Well I don't like bringing this one up frankly I HATE talking about it so I stopped but when I was younger I never felt seen people ignored me until the age of 8 and I was seen as the weird kid who played with her shadow or the air I used to like believing I was special and there was a reason I was born I remember I used to pretend I had wind powers after watching a movie (forgot the name) but then stopped when I was called the weird kid I remember being excluded and people telling me I couldn't play football or basketball because I was a girl I also remember changing myself and for a bit becoming kinda a bully before I left primary just to fit in because sadly my classmates were jerks just about all of them and if you didn't act like them you'd get pain but I then changed and stood up for what was right and now I always will and I'm ashamed of my past self. I struggle with severe anxiety and depression I was laughed at and used as a kid it ended up wanting to self harm and k- myself things got worse in highschool to the point I left. I joined YouTube as a way to cope and that's why I always will say I don't mind if I'm at 1 subscriber because I know as long as I made one person smile then I'm alright.
I ended up self harming over the years and sharing my struggles I've gained friends and lost some I even got people who have supported me and shockingly I fell in love with @Clvrywflzzz_X3 (she's my gf hi love ❤️)
I remember as a kid as mentioned was laughed at for wanting to be a singer and a voice actor two dreams I hope to achieve someday as for being used well not the brightest person in the world and I can be manipulated easily I won't go into too much detail but someone told me to replace the y in yuck with an f....and it didn't go well afterwards.
The reason I've shared this story is to inspire people though I'm healing that doesn't mean I'm still not hurting I'm just trying to be better for everyone,for my family, friends and gf.
This'll be the last post I'll make for awhile because honestly it hurt writing this and I've had to consider if I wished to share these things or not I really hope people don't judge me or make fun of me in the comments because it takes a lot of guts to do what I've done but don't worry I'll still make videos.
One day I'd like to learn animation and finally animated my story once I've healed.
Please don't take this story to be sad but take this story of mine as power because you can do anything if you put ur mind to it I sure did and look where I am today!
I may not be the most popular but people like me and love what I do and that's what matters and I've achieved so much even an animated show called journeys rising coming soon.
I'm so grateful for all of you truly and don't do what I did please never feel like you have to change yourself for other people because you'll never be happy that way and you come first before anyone else.
༺༻livvy༺༻
I got a question from someone asking what song lyric that suits me as a person well....
"look at me look at me look at me look at me... because I exist I exist I exist I exist"
now why does this match me?
Well I don't like bringing this one up frankly I HATE talking about it so I stopped but when I was younger I never felt seen people ignored me until the age of 8 and I was seen as the weird kid who played with her shadow or the air I used to like believing I was special and there was a reason I was born I remember I used to pretend I had wind powers after watching a movie (forgot the name) but then stopped when I was called the weird kid
I remember being excluded and people telling me I couldn't play football or basketball because I was a girl I also remember changing myself and for a bit becoming kinda a bully before I left primary just to fit in because sadly my classmates were jerks just about all of them and if you didn't act like them you'd get pain but I then changed and stood up for what was right and now I always will and I'm ashamed of my past self.
I struggle with severe anxiety and depression I was laughed at and used as a kid it ended up wanting to self harm and k- myself things got worse in highschool to the point I left.
I joined YouTube as a way to cope and that's why I always will say I don't mind if I'm at 1 subscriber because I know as long as I made one person smile then I'm alright.
I ended up self harming over the years and sharing my struggles I've gained friends and lost some I even got people who have supported me and shockingly I fell in love with @Clvrywflzzz_X3 (she's my gf hi love ❤️)
I remember as a kid as mentioned was laughed at for wanting to be a singer and a voice actor two dreams I hope to achieve someday as for being used well not the brightest person in the world and I can be manipulated easily I won't go into too much detail but someone told me to replace the y in yuck with an f....and it didn't go well afterwards.
The reason I've shared this story is to inspire people though I'm healing that doesn't mean I'm still not hurting I'm just trying to be better for everyone,for my family, friends and gf.
This'll be the last post I'll make for awhile because honestly it hurt writing this and I've had to consider if I wished to share these things or not I really hope people don't judge me or make fun of me in the comments because it takes a lot of guts to do what I've done but don't worry I'll still make videos.
One day I'd like to learn animation and finally animated my story once I've healed.
Please don't take this story to be sad but take this story of mine as power because you can do anything if you put ur mind to it I sure did and look where I am today!
I may not be the most popular but people like me and love what I do and that's what matters and I've achieved so much even an animated show called journeys rising coming soon.
I'm so grateful for all of you truly and don't do what I did please never feel like you have to change yourself for other people because you'll never be happy that way and you come first before anyone else.
Thank you everyone.
-livvy out...
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