Yaroslav Selyanin

sorry guys
this cannot continue anymore
i physically cannot release RAGE AGAINST THE KILLER MACHINE music video any time soon (in a month at least)
also Yoorelyan story arc will not get a proper conclusion anymore
what happened?
well

Seven

Seven months of preparation. Intense labor and effort. Tons of music, gameplay footages, and most importantly: many 3D models, both reused assets from other games and my own creations.
Have i ever told you that 3D modeling is my passion?

so what happened?

i had everything ready. all footage was rendered and ready to be edited in premiere pro.
then yesterday
My dad
Just barged into my room
and started beating living shit out of me
he bashed my head
he

he broke my glasses
i couldn't see anything. anymore

why

how did i deserve this

how could they do this to me



i was scared. blind. and unable to do anything. but i know that you wouldn't really care about any of this
so much of an effort to be two-goody-shoes guy. an entertainer. a... Mettaton fanboy

and where it lead me. on the floor. alone. blinded. in pain

the next day they tried to pull it all under the rug and get me new glasses. no one really apologized to me. they just told me to get over it



i am no longer a living being anymore. i am just a glorified punching bag

these 24 hours crushed my whole work of 2025

the vidoe turned out extremely rushed, and most importantly - i cannot even render it

We are moving towns in a few hours. Off to visit... some relatives. i have to sleep, yet i can't have that anymore.

i don't feel safe in my family anymore

i won't come back for at least two weeks

what did i do?

well, i cried. i cried a lot. then suddenly discord pinged on my phone. it was our infamous Handy99. we haven't talked in such a long time. he uuh. well. comforted me, from the other side of this globe

he also suggested that i should stop this whole Yorelyan arg and write this post

So i give up. i had such big plans on my channel. buut i wasn't lucky to bu such a loser. perhaps Yoorelyan was right about me all along...

i am shell of a man. i've literally got nothing to live for anymore. and before my life takes an even worse turn: i'm going to give everything i still have left

I am going to unlock all of my videos. But i dont have time to fix thumbnails anymore... I am also going to upload the song on Soundcloud. it's already done, but i always feel that something is lacking in it...

im sorry

im sorry that i am a failed human being
i am sorry that people can just beat me up and left almost disabled
so much effort just to be destroyed through arrogance of my abusive father
please

forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me forgive me

3 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 23



@mettatonfanboy

soundcloud.com/mettatonfanboy/helpmeplease look at my pfp again. it's smiling!

3 months ago (edited) | 3

@dakasin8430

Not your fault Yarik. Be strong, you're great.

3 months ago | 5  

@mannyproductionsissocool

Stay strong, soldier!

3 months ago | 2  

@mettaton1669

Oh... I'm so sorry you've been dealing with all that. If you ever need a another person to talk to, you know how to contact me. Please let me know if I can help out. No one deserves what you're going through, and even if it doesn't go away all together anytime soon, you've got people willing to support you, to do their best to make things even just a little bit easier. Don't forget that I will always be with you in the dark

3 months ago | 7  

@mannyproductionsissocool

Clippy hopes you get better. Good luck dude.

3 months ago | 1  

@ThatDewrittenGuy.201X

I'm so sorry...

3 months ago | 5  

@mannyproductionsissocool

Good luck!

3 months ago | 1  

@wholekilogramofbutter480

holy shit dude. its okay not to smile

3 months ago | 4  

@WillDoesStuff0

holy shit man i’m so sorry

3 months ago | 0  

@darknessakamrbutter

feel better ❤

3 months ago | 0  

@AKYDKARC

It’s going to be okay I hope you can find peace later in life 😔

3 months ago (edited) | 2  

@mannyproductionsissocool

You have fans!

3 months ago | 1  

@Expandingshot

Truly horrible. I hope you can recover from such incident.

3 months ago | 4  

@rustamalex9719

Been a while since we talked, but I really hope you recover, dude

3 months ago | 0

@mannyproductionsissocool

It’s okay not to smile.

3 months ago | 0  

@azaleamusic1240

That's so fucked up dude, please prioritize recovering over uploading!

3 months ago | 6  

@meisveryhuman

Shit man I don't know you personally but that's kinda fucked, hope you get better and move away from them and don't put content before you.

3 months ago | 4  

@BoldAndBrashTrash

please recover

3 months ago | 0  

@user-jg4jv2xm1x

You should get a lawyer, father or not that is abuse and should not be taken lightly. But its ok to not post when your stressed. You got this

3 months ago | 0  

@mettatonfanboy

this is all underwhelming, i know i feel so used

3 months ago | 3