you know I dont even know where to start. maybe ll just start with wow what the hell happened? i started this channel a long time ago. I remember I was so determined to eventually be seen and yeah I tried I really did... in fact i was becoming recognised maybe just a little in early 2023 but now? this channel might as well rot... but I dont want it to because it feels like im destroying a part of myself with it... and im gonna let whoever is reading this down... im so sorry. 2025 has been a pretty weird year so far to say the least. for starters I won't say who but me and my boyfriend broke up. I dismiss that it's hurting me but in truth, it still is. I really thought things could work out but I was wrong... and it hurts it hurts so bad everything I had planned in my head all the cool ideas I had kinda just I guess vanished. the 2 of us are still chill but something will always be.. different...
I can't believe im admitting this after all this time but I dont even really like creating gacha videos much anymore. I put in hours of effort only to barely be recognised and im so tired of it. I came into this community to be original but that isn't valued anymore. im ready to give up. but hey, dont get me wrong, I still love the platform for making characters. that will always be fun and ill still support the community but im done trying to reach an audience with this channel. I'm done. and that hurts even more for me to say because I dont want to be done, I want to keep trying but as it is this community is dead.
However, I still will make art and stories if you're interested... but I need some time. If anyone is reading this I may make a new channel for art but that won't be immediate.
Zstar_PlaysGacha
vent. read if you wish.
you know I dont even know where to start. maybe ll just start with wow what the hell happened? i started this channel a long time ago. I remember I was so determined to eventually be seen and yeah I tried I really did... in fact i was becoming recognised maybe just a little in early 2023 but now? this channel might as well rot... but I dont want it to because it feels like im destroying a part of myself with it... and im gonna let whoever is reading this down... im so sorry. 2025 has been a pretty weird year so far to say the least. for starters I won't say who but me and my boyfriend broke up. I dismiss that it's hurting me but in truth, it still is. I really thought things could work out but I was wrong... and it hurts it hurts so bad everything I had planned in my head all the cool ideas I had kinda just I guess vanished. the 2 of us are still chill but something will always be.. different...
I can't believe im admitting this after all this time but I dont even really like creating gacha videos much anymore. I put in hours of effort only to barely be recognised and im so tired of it. I came into this community to be original but that isn't valued anymore. im ready to give up. but hey, dont get me wrong, I still love the platform for making characters. that will always be fun and ill still support the community but im done trying to reach an audience with this channel. I'm done. and that hurts even more for me to say because I dont want to be done, I want to keep trying but as it is this community is dead.
However, I still will make art and stories if you're interested... but I need some time. If anyone is reading this I may make a new channel for art but that won't be immediate.
please forgive me. im so sorry.
- Zstar
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