Saanvi, i feel very sorry for you. Losing your cleanliness streak feels soo damn exhausting, i know; it just discourages you and makes you wanna continue more, it is very hard to keep up with addiction and i understand. Even though things may not feel in control for you, but i believe in your strength, vi! If you ever feel like doing it then grab a ballpoint pen (or a pen that isn't smooth at all, preferably a metal side.) And start scratching(?) paper with it , it may have an uncomfortable sting at first, or you can eat ice, or start aggressively tearing up paper/cardboard with a cutter/or a pencil. If you need help then you can reach out to me at anytime, and trust me i WILL be there for you, despite the fact that we don't talk much but i really do care about you, and always concerned about you. I have faith that you could stay clean again, for even longer too!! And it's okay to break a streak, you can fall off the stairs, try again and again, and hopefully you will reach the second floor. (Metaphoric thing here) Remember that i love you and would never complain cause of your vents or anything , i will try help in every single problem.
4 days ago
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I dont know what you're going through right now and because of that im not sure what advice to give but i want you to stay strong through it. I believe in you and i hope you believe in yourself too. Things like this are an addiction so I can't just say "stop doing that" but I do want you to try and whenever you think of doing it again just come talk to me, I dont mind you venting I want you to be happy. And if you really wanna do it, I recommend trying out drawing on your hand or just eat an ice cube (random but trust me). I want you to know you're not alone. many people have gone through tough times and have come out better and stronger than before, and I want you to be one of those people who get stronger and better, and I believe you will be one of them. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I believe in you, and I care about you, and you are a very dear friend to me (a pookie one might say), you can always tell me about your problems and vent to me, sometimes I might be late to responding but I will be there for you no matter what. Okay that is all I have to say, I love u very much (/p) and I want you to be okay, now go drink water if you haven't already
5 days ago
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saanvi-! ⚜️
Gosh darn it i ruined my 1 year 3 month clean streak.
Last time I did it was september 25 because my friend ded (she's not, thank God)
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